Feelings

Even without feeling that much anxious?

@Perzibal I think it varies throughout the day. At least for me it does

@anxiousmollusk - Yeah, sometimes I'm really scared and other times I'm like meh

I'm glad to hear you over come it. You have a son now?

@Rcope09 Any tips on recovering from so-ocd?

@Rcope09 How did you recover from this theme? I’ve had it on and off since 23 and I’m having a really hard time. I started erp two weeks ago and I feel like today I’m doing worse. I’ve had other themes like pocd, harm but this one is the hardest. Maybe because my relationship with my husband has been the best in all of our years 😥😭

@Perzibal Yes, I have a wonderful, brilliant little boy who is my world.❤️ I had pocd after he was born. That was very difficult as well. I wasn’t diagnosed with OCD until 6 months ago and I’m 37. I was always diagnosed as MDD and GAD. Both times I was able to use lexapro and Risperidone to help and I did not have therapy. However, my theme now is requiring a little more work and meds. I had to switch my lexapro 40mg to Zoloft which I’m still in the process of reaching therapeutic levels. I am nervous to start ERP but I have been prepped my many that it is hard at first and the temporary discomfort is worth the long term healing.

@68273 Are you allowed to share the erp exercises you do? You don’t have to if you’re not comfortable. I was just wondering what they’re like.

@Rcope09 Sounds like my story. I was 23 when I first started having POCD, HarmOCD and HOCD ROCD. I was diagnosed until after many years and just started erp two years ago and it was so difficult , I stopped. I was doing good until now. I started erp again with nocd two weeks ago. I have three kids

@Rcope09 We’ll, before, I was writing stories about my themes happening and listening to them. I was reading stories of other people who are pedo and divorce etc . Everything that would trigger me. The problem is when i told my therapist that I don’t agree w porn and she still exposed me. After that, I had panic attacks every single day for weeks so I stopped. It was a really difficult time.

@Rcope09 Right now with nocd, we are just doing education so far on rumination, cognitive distortions

@Rcope09 Do you tell anyone else your themes?

@68273 Was your first therapist an NOCD therapist?

@68273 Yes. My husband and a few trusted friends and family know.

@Rcope09 No , I went to a private clinic at first. NOCD is better, I think. I don’t tell my husband or anyone because of the nature of my thoughts

@68273 - I send a following request so I can create the group, ask the other girl if she wants to join too

@68273 I went a long time without telling my husband. I was so ashamed. When I received my diagnosis last summer, I broke down and bawled. I thought he was going to find me repulsive and undesirable. I thought our marriage would end. But he didn’t and it didn’t! And now that he knows my themes, he is my biggest support. And when I tell him that I am struggling, he knows what I’m talking about, hugs me and just lets me cry into his chest.

@Rcope09 Omg this made me cry. My husband only found out about my pocd and harm because I read some of my exposures w out me knowing. Then he asked me about it. He hid all the kitchen knives but he doesn’t know my other themes.

@Rcope09 I told my husband I had ocd but he didn’t know that ocd would take on this form. We never spoke about it since other than he knows I have ocd and that I struggle and that I started therapy for it

@68273 I had never even seen an actual psychiatrist for OCD until this past summer. He’s actually a family friend who has been in practice for 35 plus years. I was having a breakdown and I asked “what’s wrong with me?” And he told me I had OCD and it finally all made sense!! I started having harm OCD at age 12. Never knew what was going on with me. And I remember telling my mom about a thought that I had and she said “that’s a weird thought.” I’m late to the game at 37, but I have faith and hope that I can develop the tools to manage the OCD!

@Rcope09 It’s insane how many people are in the medical field that don’t really know anything about ocd, i was talking to my school therapist about ocd and she generally had to Google it while i was in there you would think a basic understanding of different mental illnesses would be necessary for anyone working in that field

@Abbie<3 It’s really good your talking to your son about it though and trying to break the cycle :)