Struggling with intrusive sexual thoughts and feeling like a bad person.

Horrible Sexually Intrusive Thoughts

Sometimes, there are pop ups in my mind of sexually intrusive thoughts and feelings of strong urges of acting out on severely inappropriate things, and it makes me terrified. I feel like a predator honestly, with intrusive thoughts that make me severely anxious, distressed, and uncomfortable. I do not agree with these thoughts, I do not want them, I hate them. I don't know how to stop them. I don't know how I even got them, but they make me feel like a bad person. The urges make me feel like I'd genuinely act on them, but I'd do anything to stop myself from that, anything. I don't know how to make them stop, and I don't know what this signifies of me as a person. The feelings and strength behind them feel so real and so strong, it's difficult to convince myself otherwise. And, oh my god, being able to visualize things in your mind is a quality I wish I did not have. Seriously, it's horrible. I don't want to see images of what I'm getting a sudden intrusive urge to do, and I try to shove it out of my head and it doesn't work. I feel like there are some components that I grew up with that made me learn of things of a sexual nature at a young age that could have made me into a hypersexualized individual, and the discomfort I feel surrounding that (which I am committed to resolving and unpacking) is fueling these intrusive thoughts and makes me feel like they are real because of the fact that I am dealing with a problem of hypersexuality and issues surrounding arousal. Typing this all on here is also distressful because nothing online ever goes away and it makes me anxious thinking of someone linking this to me one day, but I understand it's a public forum to discuss OCD-related issues and so I hope everyone here is kind about that and undissmissive because I'm just looking for some help from this nightmare. Thank you.

Username: Fuzzybears10_Fuzzybears10_

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s honestly so difficult But I try to remind myself Not constantly but I do remind myself that the fact that I’m uncomfortable it’s because I do not agree and do not like the content and the way our brain functions is due to having ocd We will not act on these things ever We just get so afraid and it causes our brain to try to solve it but we don’t need to. It is not who we are.

Username: 05nocd05nocd

Date posted: 1y ago

i feel you. it’s beyond frustrating because it almost feels automatic at times. like i’ll see something that isn’t even remotely sexual but my brain will within seconds make it a sexual thought. and it makes me so angry because why does my brain work like this, why does almost everything spark some sort of sexual or violating thought ? and the fact that it’s so automatic now makes it feel less like intrusive thoughts and more like real life?

Username: ocdJZwarriorocdJZwarrior

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey there, The more I read your story the more I can relate. It's OCD doing what it does best! You are a wonderful and beautiful human who wants nothing more than to live a normal life. I truly believe there is light at the end of the tunnel for us all. Hang in there, stay strong and remind yourself every day "It's not me, its OCD" Good luck!

Username: ScooterinoScooterino

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey friend! I, too, suffer from this. I have since I was old enough to experience sexual attraction. You are not alone. I didn't experience anything of a nature that would make me hyper-sexual, but I grew up on vintage films with a lot of violence or sexual violence towards women, which makes my intrusive thoughts both sexually violent and also against my own desired sexual preferences. I'm so sorry you've going through this- OCD is such a hellscape. If you need or want to talk further, with someone who experiences the same thing, I'm here.

Username: gr300

Date posted: 46w ago

Unwanted sexual thoughts

Does anyone get unwanted sexual thoughts? I get them frequently and I didn’t know what subtype to add them into because it didn’t fit the “children” one they had as an option. I get these with family members and it makes me feel horrible and disgusted with myself. I used to get them when I was younger and I didn’t know what it was at the time, I just remember that I felt really icky and grossed out. I know these thoughts aren’t me but lately it’s been getting worse and I’m not sure how to stop them. I’ve never outwardly confessed this to anyone, but I know this isn’t me. And I want to stop these thoughts. If anyone has any suggestions on how please help.

Username: Jay222

Date posted: 34w ago

Intrusive thoughts at inconvenient times

From what I’ve seen from quite a few people on here and Reddit, dealing with intrusive thoughts during “private” time seems to be something i and many others sadly deal with. I’ve “sort of” gotten used to it but I wish I can enjoy myself sexually the way I used to before these thoughts took over my mind. It’s literally what started the POCD obsession for me in the first place, and why it’s so hard to believe it’s OCD when these thoughts are so prevalent when I’m engaging in something sexual. I always feel reluctant to actually do the deed sometimes cause of how present the thoughts are before I do it but I force myself to cause avoiding it isn’t gonna help. And honestly, I just want to get it over with before my sex drive and these thoughts clash and make it infinitely worse. I try my best to focus on what I know I want (gay porn) but it’s like windshield wipers during a storm. I see clearly for like 5 seconds then boom there’s something that shouldn’t be there and I have to stop. Over and over again. It’s even worse when I finish and it finds its way back on mind when it should be the last thing on it at such a moment. I can’t believe the one thing I used as a stress reliever is now something that cause me nothing but stress.

Username: Bwillbebetter

Date posted: 25w ago

intrusive thoughts during sexual activities (+18)

Has anyone gone through this or is still going through this and can give any tips on how to make it stop? The intrusive thoughts during sexual activities are simply bothering me so much that I'm afraid to do anything like that because of the thoughts. I couldn't do it for weeks because I was always thinking about some atrocious thing, but yesterday I failed and now I'm feeling bad because even though I tried not to think, it's like I had an open folder in the back of my head and I blame myself for not being able to delete or block it. I'm afraid that avoiding it will become a compulsion and disrupt my sex life, but I also don't feel comfortable doing it often because of the thoughts. Does anyone identify? any tips to improve? I'm repressing myself because of this and I know it's not something that will do me any good. Sorry if this is inappropriate.

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