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It’s honestly so difficult But I try to remind myself Not constantly but I do remind myself that the fact that I’m uncomfortable it’s because I do not agree and do not like the content and the way our brain functions is due to having ocd We will not act on these things ever We just get so afraid and it causes our brain to try to solve it but we don’t need to. It is not who we are.

i feel you. it’s beyond frustrating because it almost feels automatic at times. like i’ll see something that isn’t even remotely sexual but my brain will within seconds make it a sexual thought. and it makes me so angry because why does my brain work like this, why does almost everything spark some sort of sexual or violating thought ? and the fact that it’s so automatic now makes it feel less like intrusive thoughts and more like real life?

Hey there, The more I read your story the more I can relate. It's OCD doing what it does best! You are a wonderful and beautiful human who wants nothing more than to live a normal life. I truly believe there is light at the end of the tunnel for us all. Hang in there, stay strong and remind yourself every day "It's not me, its OCD" Good luck!

Hey friend! I, too, suffer from this. I have since I was old enough to experience sexual attraction. You are not alone. I didn't experience anything of a nature that would make me hyper-sexual, but I grew up on vintage films with a lot of violence or sexual violence towards women, which makes my intrusive thoughts both sexually violent and also against my own desired sexual preferences. I'm so sorry you've going through this- OCD is such a hellscape. If you need or want to talk further, with someone who experiences the same thing, I'm here.