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- 7y
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I know how you feel. Your thoughts do not define you. Instead of reassuring yourself, just try and let the thoughts slide by. Even think about the thoughts more often and eventually it will cause you to think about it less. I know it sounds weird but it does help. Supressing the thoughts make you think about it more. Good luck. Hopefully you can get a good therapist that knows how to treat ocd, if thats the formal diagnosis. Helpful tip: If it is OCD, and the therapist thinks the treatment should be about finding the root of the problem from your child (etc...), move on and find an OCD therapist that specializes in CBT/ERP. OCD should be treated by a disorder itself and with the proper exposures to your fears, you’ll lead a normal and good life.
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- 7y
yes! I have HOCD/ROCD and it feels so real! it feels like I want the thoughts even though I don’t. it really sucks
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- 7y
Thank you for replying. It is hard, it’s like I have no idea what is in my head but I do know I don’t want it there. But then, I doubt that like what if I do want it. Its just so confusing.
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- 7y
I recommend going in and getting diagnosed. Medication can calm your brain down and if you do have OCD, there is great ERP therapists out there. Trust me, you are not alone. I’ve dealt with OCD for 10 plus years. It can be good. It can be bad. But that’s life. Go get treatment and enjoy life. If you do have OCD, you can live a completely normal life :) ....Thoughts are just that. Thoughts. If you can learn not to have emotion behind your thoughts and let them pass through your head like a train not stopping at a train station. The OCD loves to “stick” called sticky thinking. OCD wants that train to slow down but let it pass. Treatment can help u with this. Everyone, including people without OCD, have all the thoughts we have. Their brains function in a way that doesn’t cause them to stick on the thought.
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- 7y
Good luck!
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- 7y
Thank you for the reply! Did you have intrusive thoughts when dealing with your OCD? I’ve never dealt with this before, but I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I always felt like it was more than anxiety, though.
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- 7y
Yes. All the time. There’s so many different genres of OCD. I’m dealing with harm OCD now. Basically the thoughts are harming anyone and everyone. With a glass, pen, golf club, car. Lol you name it. It’s very difficult at times but honestly the ERP is to face your fears. Retrain the brain that you are in control of your actions. You are not in control of your thoughts. It’s a myth one can control their thoughts. The key is to controlling the reaction to the thought...I’ve had all kinds of intrusive thoughts, not just harmful. Sexual, responsibility for others, magical thinking. It’s all based around obessive thinking. What are some of your thoughts?
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- 2y
@Dan21 How are you doing now?
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- 7y
The ones I’m dealing with are sexual intrusive thoughts. I have gotten in touch with an OCD specialist and will be making an appointment soon. Usually I am able to cope and just tell myself it’s not me it’s a chemical imbalance, it’s fear and anxiety. But sometimes after a thought I just feel everything get slow and I start panicking. It’s been difficult and makes me question my own identity and reality
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- 7y
Thank you! All this has made me feel much better. I’m hopeful that I will be strong enough to beat this!
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- 25w
So, I don't know if anyone's going to comment on this post, but I've been doing pretty badly lately. I suffered from a second relapse of OCD around nearly a year ago, back when I first experienced OCD, I had all the symptoms, researching, crying none-stop, suicidal, etc, but now that it's been almost four years of this same theme. It doesn't feel nearly as bad anymore? It's almost like it brings me happiness??? I see people saying with confidence that they'd never do their intrusive thoughts but I can't agree with them, I'm not confident I won't do them, a few years ago, I'd say I'd NEVER do them and I would rather kill myself before doing them but now I can't say it. I don't know what's going on anymore and what makes it worse I think is that my feelings are all over the place, a part of me wants to give up while the other part of me is still fighting and I'm crying right now as I write this but I don't even know if I'm scared. Sometimes I just let myself "enjoy" the intrusive thoughts because I'm so tired and everytime I look at a reddit post about someone saying that they felt guilty for enjoying an intrusive thought, I don't feel that same emotion, and I keep researching and researching. It doesn't feel like OCD anymore. I can't even say I'm scares for the right reasons, my brain keeps telling me that I'm only scared because I don't want others to look down on me and the truth is that I actually "enjoy" the thoughts and I simply don't want to be looked down upon on society. I don't know what to do, I want to go in the bathroom and cry until I disappear
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- 18w
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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- 17w
I honestly can’t tell when thoughts are being affected by OCD. Sometimes I think I have what I think are normal “grey” thoughts, but then OCD adds so much weight to them and I spiral. I had this thought that I wished my boyfriend was more confident or independent. I felt so guilty for thinking it. I told him, and of course it hurt him. He told me it’s a normal thought to have, I just dwell on it too much. And that it’s the kind of thought most people keep to themselves. That’s the thing. I don’t know what’s okay to keep to myself and what isn’t. I think sometimes I say things out loud not just to relieve anxiety, but because I genuinely don’t know what’s okay to think or say. I do not know the line between a normal grey thought and something that’s “bad” to think. I don’t know how to tell if it’s something I should process privately or something I need to be ashamed of. I get this confusion with intrusive thoughts too, but those are easier to spot and evaluate. This is harder, because again, it is *my* thought. That makes it harder to sit with. Maybe the intrusive part is the voice that questions what kind of person I am for even thinking it. I don’t have the same telltale signs anymore. My physical anxiety isn’t there anymore, it’s all in my head and that makes it so much more confusing. But I don’t know. The line between honesty vs compulsion is so blurry. I just feel lost
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