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Everyone is different. For some it takes years to "get over" their illness.es and for others it takes months. It depends on many factors so don't feel bad. You're valid and it's not because you "got over" your ocd in 2 months that you didn't have this illness before (or maybe you still have it but you're just having a good period)
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Welcome to the next stage of recovery: learning to deal with the anxiety that comes when you realize you’re not anxious at the old thoughts and that bothers you. Sit with this new layer of anxiety (anxiety about not having anxiety.) you got this.
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This has been happening to me,no anxiety. I havent had therapy nor medication and I havent done ERP so it worries me I never had rOCD and it was all a lie
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shaz since March practically! I was having some intrusive thoughts in February but in March everything got worse and I started to pay a lot of attention to them until I felt like I couldnt even get out of bed because of how bad I was feeling. However it has been like three weeks since my anxiety decreased and is nearly gone and I have been worrying about these being my true feelings. I even thought I wasnt performing any compulsion anymore but I have been posting a lot to see if this is normal so I guess I have been asking for reassurance. Also I have been creating scenarios to see how Id feel so I guess Im still in this cycle, but sometimes I feel good and thats great for me but not all the time because I get really scared thinking that the anxiety is gone because I never loved him and I just hate that but youre right. Ive been trying to think about the fact that love is a choice, and I have to work to get better
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If i didn't have this illness and i thought all those thoughts about my bf... Does that means it's my true feelings.. ?
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Ohhh i got it. Sorry I read it wrong. Thank you for replying
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Yes we got this!!!! Btw how long have u beem having ur Rocd for? @xmariax. Plus love is a choice. Even if it's your true feelings, your choice can alter those feelings and fall in love with him again. It's possible :) if u fell in love before with him, you can do it again, and again, and again. It's alright. My bf tells me sooo many times it's ALRIGHT shaz!!! He'll lecture me and I'll laugh then he'll laugh too and say u never listen. All your thoughts are NORMAL. You are normal. And I'll feel better and confident. He's my therapist lol. I love him. <3
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@pureoflife. Honestly first i did got anxiety that it's not rocd. Then i was like frick it, if it's not anxiety. I'm not gonna ruin my whole day cuz of this. So yeah I'm not feeling anxiety even now. Idk if that's wrong... But i really love him and wanna be with him. I wanna fall in love with him over n over again..
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I guess I'm a exception or i might still have rocd, but i suffered from it for almost 2 months and I'm not having compulsions, no anxiety. I'm like whatever happens, happens. And I'm religious lol, so I always tell myself that God won't do anything to hurt me or jonathan ( my bf). I'm so done with this.. I'm tired. Tired to the point where I don't pay no mind to my thoughts. I focus on loving him. My bf said focus on me, my heart. Don't focus on what you feel. And be natural, don't force anything and the love will come rushing back. I'm waiting for it and working on it. That's my goal now. I asked for reassurance too. But then i was like frick it. Enough is enough.
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- 16w ago
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