I don’t know how much longer I can continue with these thoughts… I know it’s ocd but when I have the thoughts , I just want to cry 😢 I’m waiting on iop because my ocd is severe and nocd is referring me… I pray to God these weeks go by fast .
I feel you! Mine is so severe! See you doing the IOP through NOCD?
@Anonymous I don’t think NOCD has IOP but they refer you to other places if you need that level of care.
You can do it. I had to wait a long time before I went to residential treatment and got worse waiting but got much better once I had the right level of treatment. In the meantime if you don’t have a therapist and getting OCD tips helps you check out Shala Nicely’s OCD website and Reid Wilson’s The Noise in Your Head YouTube videos. And be kind to yourself.
I hope you get better too. If it helps I saw a friend this week who I met in PHP/IOP who also needed residential level care. She is doing great and shared her success story where we met. It can happen - not a cure but managing OCD so it’s not a major factor in life. Wishing you good luck.
@Erin P Thank you so much!
It’s like nocd but every day for 3 hours each day for three weeks
My nocd therapist will see me after I finish iop
It’s intensive outpatient
No, I’m going to an ocd clinic where I will be working with a therapist, one on one
@68273 Oh I see. I’m looking to go to one too. I’ll ask where there are some near me. How do you feel about going?
I went to Rogers Behavioral IOP (am have been through full day PHP and residential). There are other centers out there too with these program levels for OCD.
Thank you how was residential
And iop
I’m on a waitlist for iop but everyday is getting worse. I’m wondering if maybe I would need residential , but I just had a baby so I cannot leave my baby, especially because I’m breastfeeding
@68273 Both were very good. I would just do IOP while nursing. Be kind to yourself.
What did you do at iop
@68273 ERP exposures and depending on the program DBT, support group, mindfulness etc. most therapists will do the same exposure you do or be there with you at least initially & will check on you during exposures you do on your own.
@Erin P I see how much reduction did you see in your ocd? They told me I’ll be doing exposure with therapist and then sent home with homework
A significant amount. Yes homework is part of it.
So you did residential first then php then iop ?
Yes because of the severity of my case. I have also been back for PHP/IOP after some stressors.
After iop, did you have to do weekly sessions ?
After IOP I went back to my weekly therapist.
@Erin P Sorry I have so many questions , but how long then have you been doing recovery work?
@68273 I just don’t want to get my hopes up and then it not work, I have PureO for thirteen years and I’m just too scared to get hopeful
@68273 I did several years of ERP and medications with an individual therapist when I first had serious OCD. I was better for a number of years - was able to unmedicated and felt confident the OCD was gone so I went off birth control. But perimenopause and pregnancies and other stressors caused my second round of OCD - 15 years of better and worse. Was at my worst in 2018. Was so bad I had to go to residential. Have been better since then. OCD is still bad but I don’t feel like a train wreck or that there is no hope. I have joy and the tools I need. My OCD is bad due to a lot of stressors but not impossible like it was. IOP is worth it.
@Erin P Thank you so much for answering my questions. I hope I recover too . It’s been a very painful 13 years to say the least
I didn’t know this but my Pure-O began when i was around 11/12 years old with a violent thought to hurt someone I love. This thought brought me tears. I tried supressing it, “praying” it away, thinking good things, distracting myself etc. But this thought always came back to haunt me. It was on/off for about 13 years. Just this past week, I recently got an image/thought of hurting someone I love and it scares me. I use smart devices to track my sleep and exercise and both devices show that my heart rate is much beyond what it should be. I have had difficulty sleeping the past 3 nights with very little REM and deep sleep because of this thought. I’m worried this could cause me to spiral. I feel anxious all day because I’m trying to avoid thinking this thought, but it keeps coming back. I’m waiting to book a call with a NOCD to see what my options are. I hope I can get effective treatment. 🥺🫶🏻
man these few weeks have been so hard. i’m in the process of getting diagnosed with ocd, im almost positive i have it because everything on here relates to me on an insane level. but im just so scared dude. these thoughts of me harming someone are so scary and im so scared im gonna eventually act on them and i know i never want to but its still so scary. like sometimes when i talk to my mom about it i think in the back of my head “you know you want to” when i dont, and it makes me think or gets me scared that i do. these thoughts literally just happened out of nowhere and it messes me up so bad my literal perspective on life in general is just messed up. like i view life as its more common to be a bad person and its rare/hard to be good. can someone please just pray for me or just wish me better days. i dont even like looking at myself anymore and im scared i give off creepy vibes to myself or others now, this sucks so much
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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