If you have POCD and you have talked to a psychiatrist about it and you don’t mind sharing you story on that experience in the comments please feel free to. I am working my way up to it but it still makes me so super scared.
It's terrible, I was in bed with my partner and kept getting triggered. I had to stop all together and tell them not right now. They know I suffer from intrusions but it doesn't help our relationship or my state of mind for that matter. I went into the bathroom and starting hitting myself. It's no joke and has made me suicidal. The certainty that I'd rather be dead than enjoy the thoughts the disturb me is good indicator that there is definitely something wrong. You are not alone and it will eat you alove if you let it. Stay strong, and find something you love to do and repeat that thing. That can be easier said than done. I do believe therapy is a good place to start. Working out is a good way to combat anxiety. Hang in there your not alone. Remember you aren't your thoughts, and get to pick who you want to be.
@Zozo94 I relate so much, I am suicidal over my POCD. I debate self harm all the time because I want to punish myself.
Eat you alive*
@Zozo94 This has been the most difficult theme for me hands down.
Keep your faith strong and do something to live for you. If you are finding it difficult to concentrate on something fun or productive than go for a run. That's my best advice I know it isn't easy it's definitely a very difficult theme to deal with.
@Zozo94 Thank you so much for your story. I have felt similarly to how you feel. At the moment I am talking to a therapist for almost a year now and she has really helped me. I have not contacted a psychiatrist tho because at the moment I feel like I don’t need it. Do you think it is a necessary step?