If you have POCD and you have talked to a psychiatrist about it and you don’t mind sharing you story on that experience in the comments please feel free to. I am working my way up to it but it still makes me so super scared.
It's terrible, I was in bed with my partner and kept getting triggered. I had to stop all together and tell them not right now. They know I suffer from intrusions but it doesn't help our relationship or my state of mind for that matter. I went into the bathroom and starting hitting myself. It's no joke and has made me suicidal. The certainty that I'd rather be dead than enjoy the thoughts the disturb me is good indicator that there is definitely something wrong. You are not alone and it will eat you alove if you let it. Stay strong, and find something you love to do and repeat that thing. That can be easier said than done. I do believe therapy is a good place to start. Working out is a good way to combat anxiety. Hang in there your not alone. Remember you aren't your thoughts, and get to pick who you want to be.
@Zozo94 I relate so much, I am suicidal over my POCD. I debate self harm all the time because I want to punish myself.
Eat you alive*
@Zozo94 This has been the most difficult theme for me hands down.
Keep your faith strong and do something to live for you. If you are finding it difficult to concentrate on something fun or productive than go for a run. That's my best advice I know it isn't easy it's definitely a very difficult theme to deal with.
@Zozo94 Thank you so much for your story. I have felt similarly to how you feel. At the moment I am talking to a therapist for almost a year now and she has really helped me. I have not contacted a psychiatrist tho because at the moment I feel like I don’t need it. Do you think it is a necessary step?
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.
Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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