- Username
- Jbgys543
- Date posted
- 325d ago
Trying to accept uncertainty
This is very TMI so a fair bit warning but earlier I was masterbating and it’s very common for Intrusive thoughts to pop up. And one popped up and it kind of stuck with my mind and it felt like I was focusing on it which I don’t wanna do cause I don’t want the thoughts. But because it kinda stuck if felt like I was masterbating to the thoughts but they went away and shortly after I had an orgasm. It makes me worried that I was thinking of those things on purpose and idk why the thought stuck like that. Because I don’t like the thoughts and never focus on them. But now I feel like I have this guilt of I masterbated to these thoughts on purpose even though it wasn’t on purpose. Then I worry what if I enjoyed it and got a feeling of enjoying it. I’ve been accepting uncertainty but then o also feel I’m not getting enough anxiety from this which makes me worry my theme is true. But I’ve been recovering so my anxiety is a lot less towards a lot of the thoughts. Any advice?