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- 6y
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Wow that does sound awful but I understand because sometimes I wake up at night and if ocd is attacking me I feel confused and i doubt a lot and i feel nauseous and sick and sometimes I even cry so much I gag. But what helps me is to listen to some music and just breathe in and out. I sometimes feel guilty about past mistakes and things like that and it scares me and i doubt myself and it’s all very confusing. But one thing that helps me a lot is just talking to God and leaving it all in God’s hands. I know you might not be a Christian but either way just take a deep breath and when you start having the thoughts just sit and think to yourself “ I may be worrying over nothing this may just be the ocd causing me to freak out and worry “ and if it gets worse then maybe talk to a trusted friend or parent? Maybe a therapist? I’m sorry you feel like this but my therapist tells me that it won’t always be like this it’s only temporary and that helps sometimes.
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Hmmm... without knowing the details of the bad thing it’s hard for me to really understand what’s going on or if “fixing” the mistake is a compulsion. It might be? Remember that OCD is kind of like a game of whack-a-mole: if one theme stops working, another pops up. Until you can really face each intrusive thought with uncertainty and sit with the anxiety until it dissipates. No matter how upsetting or disturbing the thought may feel.
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Thank you @Hannah2004 very much. I was in talk therapy but it didn't do much good. Thank you for your kind words
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@pureolife I feel embarrased about the mistake, and I see how "fixing it" could be a compulsion. I agree, my last topic just didn't set me on panic mode anymore, but this other one came in. And boom! But today I'm handling it in a non compulsive manner. I haven't done anything to correct it, I'm just waiting
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Perfect! And good job! I know that’s really really hard to do. But it will get easier!
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- 25w
Hey guys, for the past three months I’ve been obsessing over a mistake I made about 6 months ago, I constantly have panic attacks and wake up in fight or flight mode I have convinced myself that someone is gonna find me somehow and punish me. I have endlessly looked up reassurance that what I did wouldn’t get me in trouble or something, I have filled up 5 different ChatGPT chats and it tells me it’s 100% certain nothing will happen. But then I convince myself well everyone says not to trust it and then I just spiral again. The point is I’m just scared, I’ve convinced myself this isn’t OCD because it’s something I actually did wrong. I can’t stop looking for reassurance because that’s the only thing that makes me feel safe anymore. Everyone tells me, just say maybe, maybe not, but my brain has convinced me the stakes are too high. I’m too scared and I don’t know what to do.
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- 24w
Hey guys. I feel like no one will even reply to my post. I feel anxious af. I could barley eat a plate of soup. I feel so drained and fatigued and feel the anxiety in my stomach. I'm just so worried I don't even have harm ocd anymore. Its just... I grew up in a household where swatting people was normalized like if you did something really naughty. I never really questioned it and I grew up thinking it was an okay thing and would sometimes swat someone when they are being naughty growing up and even recently. I would never swat someone at full force or enough to make someone cry just more like a hard tap to get their attention but it feels automatic? And even then it's really really rare for me to do, i much rather talk sternly or tell someone. When i do swat its bc like if someone scared me I guess I hit their hand and say "THAT SCARED ME" and we both start laughing or if my older niece was roughhousing with her younger sister and the younger one gets hurt and the older one laughs, I swat the older one once or twice on her arm as a discipline and say "what is wrong with you??? Why are you laughing? You are much older than her! You could've seriously hurt her." And idk how but i never thought like how wrong this is?!... and I feel like sh/t like ocd keeps saying "well you have swatting impulses when someone is misbehaving or if someone scares or hits you, meaning if you get an impulse to do something really evil instead, you wouldnt be able to control yourself huh?" And I started to get so anxious and scared. Ive NEVER acted out on the harm ocd thoughts (nor do i even want to) ive been getting daily for 4 years even when they are misbehaving. But i get so scared like WHAT IF I get an impulse to do the evil thoughts? What if I lose control?! Is this a history of violence/ low impulse?! Does this mean i would act out on my fears?! I've never wanted to do these thoughts before but i get scared like what if I do one day? This whole day ive been ruminating and asking ai for reassurance. I feel terrible. I feel like a horrible person. I started to cry. I just cant anymore. I feel this weight on my chest. I feel so evil so irredeemable. I f/cking suck. I hate myself so much right now. I feel so much guilt and shame. Why am I still here anymore? Maybe i dont even have ocd and maybe i never did. This is just breaking my heart. I want to change and unlearn this swatting behavior as well for sure. :(
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- 22w
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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