Guys I'm so sad. My ocd and anxiety did find a new theme last night. I woke up in a full blown panic attack. I feel sick and want to throw up. It is about a mistake I might have made. The good part is it can be solved. The bad part is that it may bring me bad consequences. Both ways. If I fix it it might havr bad consequences, if I don't, maybe anything bad won't happen but there could also be very bad consequences. I just hate this

Wow that does sound awful but I understand because sometimes I wake up at night and if ocd is attacking me I feel confused and i doubt a lot and i feel nauseous and sick and sometimes I even cry so much I gag. But what helps me is to listen to some music and just breathe in and out. I sometimes feel guilty about past mistakes and things like that and it scares me and i doubt myself and it’s all very confusing. But one thing that helps me a lot is just talking to God and leaving it all in God’s hands. I know you might not be a Christian but either way just take a deep breath and when you start having the thoughts just sit and think to yourself “ I may be worrying over nothing this may just be the ocd causing me to freak out and worry “ and if it gets worse then maybe talk to a trusted friend or parent? Maybe a therapist? I’m sorry you feel like this but my therapist tells me that it won’t always be like this it’s only temporary and that helps sometimes.

Hmmm... without knowing the details of the bad thing it’s hard for me to really understand what’s going on or if “fixing” the mistake is a compulsion. It might be? Remember that OCD is kind of like a game of whack-a-mole: if one theme stops working, another pops up. Until you can really face each intrusive thought with uncertainty and sit with the anxiety until it dissipates. No matter how upsetting or disturbing the thought may feel.

Thank you @Hannah2004 very much. I was in talk therapy but it didn't do much good. Thank you for your kind words

@pureolife I feel embarrased about the mistake, and I see how "fixing it" could be a compulsion. I agree, my last topic just didn't set me on panic mode anymore, but this other one came in. And boom! But today I'm handling it in a non compulsive manner. I haven't done anything to correct it, I'm just waiting

Perfect! And good job! I know that’s really really hard to do. But it will get easier!