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I have my own form of ocd and I can’t imagine how hard this is for you but just so you know you aren’t alone out there. I have been fighting my own battle for two years but just something I wanted to say I know this might not help you much but as a Christian I just wanted to say that God loves you and cares about you and I know your probably not Christian but I just wanted to let you know. Also, maybe get outside or listen to some music or read a book? Keep your mind off of all that and if u do have some ocd that kicks in then face it and what my therapist says to do is to just sit in it and be uncomfortable Until the ocd gradually goes away. I don’t know much about your ocd but any ocd is very difficult and tiring and I’m sorry you and anyone else has to feel like this but that’s just the way our brains are I guess. And also just a song I wanted to recommend ( fully known by Tauren wells if u wanted something to listen to) and maybe listen to some podcasts about ocd? I’ll be praying for you❤️
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Theme cycling sucks! And I’m so sorry you’re suffering right now! No matter the theme, you always treat OCD the same way (with uncertainty, ERP, and mindfulness.) seems like your OCD just really want to get you, no matter what the topic. The second you “forget” to worry about one, another pops up. OCD can kinda be like wack-a-mole sometimes. And the better you can get at addressing each thought with “maybe you’re true, maybe you’re not, I don’t know, and I can sit with the anxiety if that uncertainty,” the better you’ll get at the game. I hope you can go out and treat yourself to a nice lunch today or a good movie tonight or do something nice for yourself to take the edge off. Self compassion is so important in these low and lost moments. Good luck!
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Awh I know what this is like too ? It's been 3 years for me as well. It's alright, we'll make it ❤
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That’s good, and you one thought that always helps me is that this isn’t forever.
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thank you both. Yes Hannah, im not christian but its very sweet of you to comment such things. Made me feel a little easier.
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My therapist tells me that I don’t need to lose hope because it isn’t forever it’s just temporary.
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thank you, really .. thank you ❤️
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Hannah, that's such a lovely message ? Made me feel a bit better too haha
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And also pureolife, that's honestly such a good way to describe theme cycling ?
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I cant do anything anymore without my brain dregdging up proof from my past that I was actually trans and didn't know it, and it all seems so plausible. like I said in my last post its unearthing memories that I didn't even know I have. ik this is just ocd tricking me but I feel like I need to review every moment thoroughly bc I have questioned my gender in the past but always concluded that'd I'd happier as a girl (which is true). everything feels so real and it feels like I am just super in denial. also, how do I tell people about this? I made the mistake of confessing to a teacher on a note and only a couple friends of mine understand the thoughts I get, but I don't tell them everything. however its very hard for me to do basic responsibilities like school work and I always end up overwhelmed, so I'm thinking I may need accomdations. I need to get in touch with my counselor but i'm unsure how to explain all of this to her, being that I don't have a diagnosis....also I feel like I can't talk about this with the majority of my friends because gender ocd is rare to have (increasing my doubts) and, at least school-wise, i'm in very accepting environment for lgbtq and I'm afraid they're just gonna tell me to accept myself. I'm scared of doing erp for this because what if I like it (also cant afford therapy). ive also felt very apprehensive around some of my trans friends and classmates because my brain is going crazy asking "what if you're like them?" and I feel so bad and transphobic for these thoughts. i'm genuinely so tired. one of my closest friends died last year, but my father pointed out that my recent mood has been even worse than it was during that time. i tend to bottle up my emotions a lot, so everyone's just telling me to "let it go" and tell people, but if I do that I feel like i'll end up confessing. i'm so tired and lost.
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i feel the need to say sorry because i’m posting yet again. i’m having a REALLY DIFFICULT episode of ocd that i haven’t had for a few months now. i experience contamination ocd everyday and have constant anxiety attacks, however because that’s so normal to me and doesn’t affect anyone but myself, it doesn’t affect me in the same way harm ocd does. i haven’t had to deal with really bad harm ocd thoughts for a good bit now so i’m struggling so bad right now. if anyone has seen my previous posts (which i’m sure you have), this came about over a small change that happened a couple weeks ago. it’s now blossoming into a full episode. it’s making me feel paralyzed and not want to do anything, but i know in the past i had to force myself to distract myself by actually doing things. i’m supposed to hang out with my friend tomorrow, but i’m so close to cancelling because i feel like i can’t do it. my physical symptoms are also worse than what i feel like i’m used to and it’s terrifying me into thinking i’m gonna get sick. i just don’t know how to get through it. it feels like impending doom and constant panic. i just want to feel like myself again and happy
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