Nothing feels real anymore, my thoughts aren’t mine, my feelings aren’t mine. My brain is either completely full or completely empty. My memory used to be so good and it has become so terrible now I can’t even picture things. I feel completely out of control and not me.

I will definitely Pray for you! You know, you can always choose to either stay in the funk, or escape it! Get up, take a COLD shower, brush your teeth, comb your hair, put on clean clothes that fit, and get yourself out there! Find a new group of people to join you know? And if your not very social (which is ok) just take a walk on a sunny day! Smell flowers, listen to upbeat refreshing music and buy some ice cream! You do what you want to! it’s ok to spoil yourself sometimes! Maybe tell somebody you like their outfit or their smile! Have a Wonderful day and God Bless! ❤️

Been there! And I’m so sorry you’re there now. I know it’s terrible. It sounds like you’re really in crisis. What’s your theme? Are you doing any CBT/ERP or therapy to help it? I know feeling out of control is SCARY, but if you can actually just let yourself be a little out of control (as in, let all the “bad” thoughts happen without trying to control or suppress them), that’s actually a good thing. The next part is working on your response: does it make you anxious? Numb? Depressed? A cycle of all three? If you can habituate to this super weird/scary feeling, the anxiety will naturally dissipate. So will the numbness and depression if you can practice radical acceptance towards them. Dissociation, depersonalization, whatever you wanna call it is so painful. And I hope you can find momentary breaks. If you can reconnect with some old hobbies and interests to give you a little distraction each day, it might help. Stuff that puts you in a flow state is good: reading, playing a sport, learning a new skill, etc. It can remind you what not thinking so much feels like again, and be a short reprieve from anxiety when it has started to become an all day thing. Good luck!

I feel you so much.. wish you nothing but the best.. one say this will stop❤

This sounds like dissociation maybe in combination with depression. Hm?

I thought I might be detaching from it to protect myself, like depersonalization or something maybe

Mhm, dissociation happens on a spectrum - depersonalization is on the more severe end. I had some episodes of this, your perception and the other functions will go back to normal on their own. How long are you already dealing with this state?

Only like 3 months about

Well this is actually already quite long. Can you eliminate some stressors in your life?

I have been trying, things have been getting better. Thank you :)

Thank you both! That makes me feel less alone and hopeful