- Date posted
- 2y
back to all my compulsions
the past 6 months i’ve honestly been pretty good. not perfect, but never in a debilitating state. and if i got anxious or triggered, it’d last a few days at most. however, in just one week i’ve gone back to spending hours and hours googling, on forums, confessing, reassurance seeking etc. i’ve spent more time on reddit each day than around actual humans! i felt i was getting much better as i was hardly coming on here and not googling all the time (big compulsions for me). but now i’ve slipped and i’m finding it super hard to stop slipping. the obsession i’m experiencing is one i’ve struggled with for years, on and off. i’d reached a point where i didn’t think it was true, or sort of just accepted that i’d never know for sure. but now i’m back to desperately trying to figure it out, constantly ruminating etc. this is also the first time it’s affected my sleeping and eating. i’m feeling the anxiety much greater than ever before.