Am i losing the battle?

ocd is all over the place, one day its about a next day about b the day after that in the morning its about c and afternoon back to a. Its extremely exhausting, and more and more i find it difficult to motivate myself. Where in the past i could draw motivation from thinking about my kids and wife. I now get a more Flat response to it. Which in turn gets me anxious again. Why do i not feel motivated by thinking about my loved ones or other positive stuff? With every new obsession ot feels like the ocd takes another bit of my strength and motivation away. I feel as if a couple of years ago i was better at coping with my ocd then i am now many therapies later and medicine. Its as if im losing that inner warrior bit by bit, and i feel more vulnerable by every obsession that comes around.

Username: Joss4prezJoss4prez

Date posted: 1y ago

Take it day by day. You made it and you will continue to make it. You deserve to be proud of the person you are and love the life you are living.

Username: DutchgirlDutchgirl

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel the same. It seems to be more exhausting as I get older too. I’ve had ocd all my life (51 years) and while I hate it, it is familiar. ERP feels impossible. OCD has robbed me of relationships and at this point I feel I want to just crawl into a whole for the next 30-something years. Your family need you! Keep fighting the OCD!

Username: A person 1A person 1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel you there man, feel all alone and I can't connect to anyone. We gotta hang in there!

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

I go through this.

Username: Todd James Todd James

Date posted: 1y ago

That's tough, I can relate. What helped me is to remember how many themes I have conquered. I have overcome intrusive thoughts, real life ocd, health anxiety.. I struggle with decisions still and rocd. It's important to know that they are all the same. You can conquer it all again. OCD totally does creep in when we have a week moment. This is standard unfortunately. I have to see it kinda like a disease that I have to battle through, like an injury. we are all in it together and get stronger together

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: Staff

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way, and are struggling when the OCD keeps popping up throughout your day. That does sound exhausting, and I've been there myself as well. I too have felt that I was better at coping with my OCD during previous years, but OCD can come back and make you doubt yourself again. Remember that you can do this and OCD will not win this battle, you will! People with OCD are some of the strongest people that I know in the world, and you still have that warrior inside yourself! Please don't forget that fellow warrior and we are always here for you.

Username: AdamH

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone ever feel like they don't know what they truly want anymore? feeling a sense of loss of identity? To stick to what they truly believe is correct or what OCD is telling them? and feel like their desires are changing since OCD?

Username: Phill

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m new to being as open with my ocd as I have been in the past, and I think this is the place to feel safe. I’ve been tackling my ocd with ERP (exposure response prevention) and it’s been extremely successful in the past and now. Just right now, and I’m about to start new medicine for my ocd that I’m hopeful about, I just feel tired. I’m making myself get up and do things but it’s almost like my body is on one big come down from maybe all the anxiety added up over the weeks. It’s just making me feel slumped and like I could almost start feeling depressed. I just wanted to know if anyone had any personal successes on how to overcome this feeling. Thank you all and much love to all who deal with this.

Username: Fox-y 🦊

Date posted: 4y ago

I am in week 5 therapy. My thoughts are going all over the place. I would say one theme every 15 min. Every theme I though I was done with are coming back. Working hard on using ERP. But I’m not perfect and if I don’t even do what I was doing before (reinsurance with my boyfriend or googling) I still do some digging or self mental reinsurance. I don’t know what the ratio but it would say 65/35( 35 I handle thoughts badly). This morning I feel exhausted and very down. Kind of demotivated. Thoughts don’t stay as long as they use to but it’s like firework. It is such a hard period right I feel I have to tell myself be strong even though I feel so weak. Any people in recovery or recovered who have been through the same period and would have some motivation words for me :) ? Be brave all!

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