- Username
- tunux
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Is my OCD making me doubt my will to live or is there truth in it?
Ocd showed me something thats true inside of me?
Can this be ocd? Hi all. Ocd has been destroying my life lately. I am a father to 2 young sons (1 and 4) and im feeling so guilty for my most recent ocd theme. Even though i think there is also some truth to the theme and its not just ocd. Im convinced that i dont want to live anymore, but if i dont why am i asking for peoples help? Am i going against better judgement? Whybdoes the question do i want to be here keeps getting drilled inside my brain? My wife told me if someone fully believes such a idea then they would not be here anymore. Then why am i still here? Even when i try and post on a place like this to find help i get the immediate thought which won't go away until i stop typing; 'why are you doing this? You dont want to love right? Stop lying to yourself by pretending you do want to be here' and many more of such thoughts.