- Username
- tunux
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Ocd showed me something thats true inside of me?
Can this be ocd? Hi all. Ocd has been destroying my life lately. I am a father to 2 young sons (1 and 4) and im feeling so guilty for my most recent ocd theme. Even though i think there is also some truth to the theme and its not just ocd. Im convinced that i dont want to live anymore, but if i dont why am i asking for peoples help? Am i going against better judgement? Whybdoes the question do i want to be here keeps getting drilled inside my brain? My wife told me if someone fully believes such a idea then they would not be here anymore. Then why am i still here? Even when i try and post on a place like this to find help i get the immediate thought which won't go away until i stop typing; 'why are you doing this? You dont want to love right? Stop lying to yourself by pretending you do want to be here' and many more of such thoughts.