Can anyone help?
I am so sick and tired if feeling this way. I feel like my ocd impacts every part of my life. I am scared of anything. How can I change this? The last three days have been so so so hard, I feel like I don’t wanna live my life like this forever. Its so emotionally exhausting. What can I do? How do I make it stop??
I can relate to this. I have no professional help whatsoever. Every time I ask questions like this I only get responses to go see an erp specialist. It sucks knowing I cannot do that. Some days are harder than others for me, but the only thing keeping me going is just continuing to fight. I know it’s so hard but usually at least for me, when I have my worst ocd days I usually have my best days following right after. So keep that in mind! What are some things you used to enjoy so much before your ocd took over?
I unfortunately understand what your going through. I was just telling my therapist how exhausting I am from feeling this way.
I relate to this a lot.
I relate as well unfortunately. Everything is so overwhelming
I relate to this it’s a really sucky and scary feeling. I have a problem where I’m scared of the future and living a long life possibly and was told to work on ways to stay in the present moment. I think that would be beneficial for you to work on ways to stay in the present and also maybe try “one-upping” the ocd if it says something like the rest of your life sucks then one up your ocd by saying something like “maybe life will suck, maybe I’ll get in a car crash, maybe the world will explode”. Also what helps me is thinking religiously that this isn’t forever and having that faith that everything happens for a reason and that one day when we are in heaven we can look back and know exactly why we have to suffer. Hope this stuff helps
Same
I do understand your pain … it is very exhausting , I have intrusive random thoughts almost every 30 min. Mostly about contamination and doubting myself . Sometimes Just want to brake something or hit a wall so hard ! But ,then just breathe calm down let the thought in and let it stay , agree with it and it goes away … takes time , but thats the only way I can deal with it…
You will deal with it, you are stronger than that . We all are
I need a different perspective on this. I feel like I'm being run through the ringer. I'm doing what I can to avoid reassurance and not avoid triggers but I get triggered every day. I'm trying so hard to sit with the panic and the horror but it's so hard. It gets to the point I feel physically sick. Is there anything that I can do to help with this? I feel alone. I don't feel strong, I feel like a punching bag. Why is this so hard to master? I really want to know it gets easier. I've been suffering from POCD that has evolved and gotten worse and worse over the past eight months that has been torturing me multiple times on a daily basis and I feel like I'm drowning. I want to run away and hide because my life feel like it's seconds from being ruined. Please, please tell me this gets easier. That this ERP therapy will stop making me feel like I'm dying. The small moments of victory feel so brief only for me to get hit with another wave. There is so much uncertainty over such a horrific thing I feel ill. I feel afraid to be alone with my mind. Please if anyone out there can please give me tips on how to handle ERP. One moment I think I'm finally beating this thing and the next it's got me pinned and I'm terrified my life will be ruined. I want my peace back, I need help and I'm doing everything I can to resist compulsions but I feel so alone and dirty and disgusting. Please help me. Thank you for any advice 💕
I’m 28 years old and I’ve been battling with OCD since I was around 8 years old. However, I didn’t realize it was OCD until a few years ago. I’ve dealt with multiple themes of OCD that are on constant rotation. Currently, I’m struggling with real event OCD, and moral scrupulously OCD. It has made this past week extremely distressing. My husband is aware of all of my thoughts and feelings, however, that’s due to my need to “confess” virtually everything in my life. He is never stressed about the content of what I’m worrying about, but unfortunately, that serves as temporary reassurance for me, and the cycle continues. This week has been one of my HARDEST. I have been stuck in a loop over the same obsession, with barely any relief. I’m self employed, and usually the winter months are slow, so I currently have no distractions to get out of my head. I can barely eat, and I go through multiple waves of panic attacks a day. I’m starting to lose hope that I can figure this out alone. I’ve never seen professional help for my OCD, and to be honest, it terrifies me to have to explain my thoughts and feelings to a stranger. What if I never get better? I guess I’m just looking for guidance, advice, etc. I’m feeling so lost and scared.
Have any of you been stuck in what feels like an OCD loop? It’s like being held hostage by OCD. It’s like everything becomes a trigger. Like there isn’t a part of the day where I’m not having intrusive thoughts because it’s the only thing my brain can think about. So every conversation I’m thinking of horrible things I could say, every time I pet my dog think of things I could do to hurt her, anytime I drive I think of hitting pedestrians, every time I’m alone I think of ways I could hurt myself. It honestly feels like my brains on fire I’m starting to think I might have some kind of destructive brain tumour because I can’t comprehend how this can all be mental illness. It’s the ‘urge’ I can’t deal with it feels so real. I’ve had mental illness and likely OCD my whole life but nothing has ever made me feel as scared and hopeless as this. I’ve been having horrible migraine attacks daily for months and I think the trigger is the stress and anxiety these thoughts cause. I feel like I can never rest. It’s like my head is caught in a vice and my eye sight is constant flashes and static. Blood tests normal and two eye tests back normal. I can barely work as my whole job is computer based. I don’t even know how I would begin to do ERP because it feels like I’d have to tackle EVERYTHING about being alive! I also don’t think I have any compulsions. If I do none of them provide any relief so it’s basically just me feeling like I’m going insane every single day since October. It’s impossible to relax when my brain thinks we’re either going to die of a brain tumour or going insane and hurting myself against my will or doing something to someone else that would mean I would have to kill myself. My brain honestly believes it’s inevitable I won’t be along for much longer and it’s petrifying. I don’t know how to get better until I can reset my body to get out of this cycle. How am I supposed to move forward when my brain and body is in constant fight and flight? Does anybody relate? My brain doesn’t even believe this is OCD anymore… I guess this is reassurance but I’m having such a terrible time.
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