Currently getting the "why do you want to be straight? Why arw you attracted by that person? Why don't you want to be gay? Why don't you want to be with that person? Why are you like this? Why don't you just accept this?" thoughts and I don't feel anxious. My mind is telling that I could actually do and like these things but I don't want to. I get moments where I know this is madness but then it hits me all of the sudden. I got so frustrated I said" okay let's see if I'm gay/pan/bi" and I got anxious and my mind was like why don't you go there and I don't know but I just don't want to. This is so distressing, never want to have anything to do with someone of the same sex

These thoughts in the end just makes us feel like outsiders of ourselves and far away for self happiness. So... that is what we have to check :) Sexuality is not everything. We will be okay someday. Someway.

I completely relate to you. It’s gotten so worse that at times I know this is all in my head, but then it always hits me back and now I’m convinced I’m lesbian even though I don’t want to. I fear it the most but my mind is trying to convince me that males are gross but it’s so dreadful to feel so restless and stressed thinking and worrying about this. It’s so maddening I have 0 hope.

Exactly! I feel for all of us. Nobody deserves this. It’s one of the worst things I’m experienced.

Thank you for the advice. And I agree that reassurance or compulsions don’t even work in my favor anymore:/ it doesn’t take any stress off knowing I’m not crazy and other people experience what I experience. I’m so convinced that I try not to fight the thoughts but I feel like I automatically do without trying ugh

I feel you... but I know that even if we have a moment or two of pure anxiety and desperation, thinking notjing is going to get better. I know it will pass. Our life is not easy, not at all. But I believe we can surpass it. Time is a good ally too :)

I’m glad to have got this app, I’m not sure if it’s a compulsion more than a need to not feel alone and understand why I’m getting these thoughts, but it’s made me feel slightly better than a lonely hole of depression. Thank you

It totally is. Ocd can make even the dumbest thing sound like hell. I don't what will happen to me, I hope everything will be like before. I just hope for everyone of us to get out of this hole

The best you can answer yourself is: because it is. Or because it isn't. And continue with what you were doing. Everything doesn't have a big explanation. Some things just are the way they are.

I know but I feel like I need to justify it with "evidence", and it brings me even more intrusive thoughts

I know. I did the same, a lot. But in the end, that just hurt you more than anything and make you feel even more lost...

I try to remind myself this, but I feel like my mind is convinced now. Not even compulsions and reassurance help me anymore :(

Sameee here. I try not to come really often and dont give reassurance to others. But when I feel numb because of this. I read the app and I see everyone trying to cope with their hard situations... it gives me hope we are fighting. Remember ocd is real. Because we are.

I know it tells me I just need to accept it and come out but I don't, it doesn't sit right with me. But then I get hit by thoughts and they feel I actually want them but then I get nervous and I get headaches and anxiety. I have zero answers and I just want to go back to how I was before and even then my mind is like "are you sure you want to?" I'm just tired