snowflakes

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

happiness obsession

anyone else have ocd surrounding whether or not they are happy?

Ilham Dah

Date posted: 2y

Going through the same. I had fear of becoming depressed, and started to worry each time I didn’t feel like I « should » and had thoughts that made me feel so sad and numb.

snowflakes

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Ilham Dah i too have a fear of being depressed bc i’ve dealt with depression in the past. how do you deal with this obsession? my happiness is so important to me

Nacio

Date posted: 2y

@Ilham Dah I’m scared of getting depression

Ilham Dah

Date posted: 2y

@snowflakes I never actually had depression in the past, but my happiness is also soo important to me and that is why my OCD decided to attack it.. obviously 🤦🏼‍♀️ The best thing I found is to really tell myself it’s ok not to be happy all the time. It’s the « i don’t care » mindset. I reduce rumination as much as I can, and accept whatever feeling I have whether it is joy or sadness.. and i go with the flow. Hope this helps. Let me know how you’ve been doing on your end.

Ilham Dah

Date posted: 2y

@Nacio How are you dealing with it. When did it start for you?

Nacio

Date posted: 2y

@Ilham Dah Idk I just get the thought like what if it’s depression and anxiety?

Nacio

Date posted: 2y

@Ilham Dah Or the thoughts? I get are depression.

Ilham Dah

Date posted: 2y

@Nacio I totally get it! Going through THE SAME. I’d be more than happy to further discuss it in private if you want and share with you some of my tips.

Nacio

Date posted: 2y

@Ilham Dah Ofc

Emily Cruce

User type: Member advocate

Date posted: 2y

Hi there! I'm sorry to hear that you are having some rumination regarding how happy you are. You are definitely not alone in this, I know that even I have ruminated about my own happiness in the past before starting therapy. Have you ever tried ERP therapy?

sssssss1995

Date posted: 2y

I am always worried I’m not “happy enough” or “happy like them” or that I’m not doing as much in life- social media definitely does not help!

yun444g

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

YES. For my money I think this was one of the first themes I ever struggled with—when school got out for summer one year, I started to get really sad bc I was afraid that I wasn’t as happy as I was SUPPOSED to be. Then of course my mind spiraled and made me think I probably have depression if I’m not happy. Etc etc. So yeah I totally get it

snowflakes

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@yun444g how did you deal with this obsession?

yun444g

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@snowflakes Well I was literally 11 or 12 so I don’t think I really dealt with it as healthily as I could have, but basically I tried to keep myself busy by reading a lot and finding genuinely new interests instead of clinging to stuff of the past—for some reason, finding new & exciting activities, hobbies, places, etc, helps me a lot with that theme.

Samsmycat

Date posted: 2y

Absolutely, and for me I think it manifests in trying to make the best use of my time possible. Sometimes even turning into just being jittery I'm not doing better activities... Or whenever I'm doing an activity I looked forward to for a long time and it's not making me feel as complete and fufilled as I thought it would? Sometimes trying to be happy like I remember being at my happiest feels like trying to catch lightning in a bottle, but I always feel like feeling any lesser happiness feels like too little...

dan_star

Date posted: 2y

I'm dealing with this too right now. It's been very scary for the last 2 weeks and I keep having meltdowns cuz I'm so scared I'll feel like this forever. It comes and goes throught the day, one minute I'm fine and the other I'm feeling blah and then I spiral into almost a panic attack sometimes and end of sobbing. How do you do erp for this??

Nacio

Date posted: 2y

I’m scared of getting depression too..

spelamarela

Date posted: 25w

OCD about OCD

Is it possible to have a huge fear of OCD itself? (OCD about OCD) I’m scared that I’m not perfect and that I’ll go crazy or something like that, that i won’t achieve the life that i want, that im weird bcs of ocd, what other people will think bcs of my ocd, that i will feel like this forever... I try to reassure myself that I don’t have it, but I just want to cry. Everything related to OCD triggers me, and I know these things are also signs of OCD. Is this normal for OCD? Maybe I just need to accept it, I don’t know. I think about this 24/7—some days are better, and I kind of feel like I don’t have OCD, but it always comes back when something triggers me. I also keep asking my parents if they’re sure I don’t have OCD. They tell me I don’t, but it doesn’t help because I know they don’t really understand OCD. So, it’s basically just another obsession, but about OCD. Has anyone dealt with this? I’ve never heard anyone talk about this, so I’m not sure if it’s even a thing.

୨ৎ

Date posted: 19w

can ocd make you question your mental health?

i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔

LizM99

Date posted: 14w

Is this something OCD does?

Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢

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