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With animals and family members, it gave me horrible horrible anxiety for so many hears and I still struggle with it. It’s still so strange
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I used to!
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It’s the worst ocd I’ve ever had. I actually think I rubbed against my dog at one point. Or was it just the couch because they moved. Idk I did it because I reached a point where I thought okay I’m either going to kill myself or do this and find out if I’m into animals. This was 5 years ago maybe and I think about it every day of my life thinking I’m going to go to hell. I can’t remember exactly what happened I don’t know if part of it was a false memory or what. I’ll never know and a lot of times I wish I wasn’t alive because I can’t deal with the guilt and disgust in myself
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Yes I get sexual thoughts about animals, especially my dogs. I also get sexual thoughts about Religious figures like Jesus Christ, and God. I try not to watch wildlife programmes or videos , especially of animals mating. Cuz it triggers off sexual thoughts about it. And imagine I am the one who is with that animal at the time. I suffer alot of physical harmful thoughts to myself to yes. I am often curious of how it would feel if I put a metal knife down a live toaster, or to touch a hot ring on the oven with the metal knife. My family try to keep me away from any electrical items now, just to try to keep me safe.
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I have harm OCD so I totally understand.
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It’s definitely an uncomfortable feeling I understand ? But you are most definitely not alone! I used to feel alone and disgusted with myself and I times I do, but I remember that this is what ocd does to us. You have to remember you are bigger than that!
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- 20w
I was looking up stuff about kinks, because my friend is trying to help me "get out there", and I took the bdsm test to see where I land on it. I got 100% vanilla, and I was a little embarassed so I decided to Google things like "is it normal to not have a lot of kinks" or "what % of the population is into kink" and when I scrolled down a bit, I clicked on one of the little suggestion things with the arrow that said "are men more prone to enjoying kink than women" and it revealed a blurb from the website that said that men are in fact more inclined to kink, but also mentioned that it also means they're more inclined to p*dophellia, which sort of set off all these questions in my head of like "Wait so if p*dophellia is just a kink, does that make it more likely that I have it? Because scientenists still don't know what causes it so what if events in my childhood led up to me having it to some extent" and I started kind of going down this internal rabbit hole of trying to figure out how likely it is that I have it or some form of it bc if it's just a kink and not a mental illness than it feels more feasible? Idk I'm a woman so ik it's not AS common in us but it's still possible. I'm doing a little better with redirecting my attention and cooling my anxiety but I had an onslaught of intrusive images before falling asleep like I used to have when I first started experiencing this fear. It's been really catapulting me back to the beginning and I find that I'm ruminating on when it started and if it really means I'm a p or not. I know it's classic ocd but it's hard when it doesn't feel that way ;-; anyway, I'm too scared to Google bc i know it'll be a form of reassurance but also I'm just scared of having anything related to that in my search history so I just thought I'd post here. Anyone else have conflicting thoughts like this?
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so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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- 10w
Hi everyone I could really use some help on this topic. It’s hard to admit and talk about but after being on here I see that I’m not the only one! Still I would love some support and advice with how to deal with those unwanted sexual thoughts. For me it’s so uncomfortable and honestly gross when sexual thoughts get out of hand with normal people and also do extremely out of hand that even loved ones get involved. Like when I watch tv and all of a sudden I have these gross thoughts that I know if I accept they will go away but how can you accept something so gross? Would love some help!
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