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- 6y
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With animals and family members, it gave me horrible horrible anxiety for so many hears and I still struggle with it. It’s still so strange
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I used to!
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It’s the worst ocd I’ve ever had. I actually think I rubbed against my dog at one point. Or was it just the couch because they moved. Idk I did it because I reached a point where I thought okay I’m either going to kill myself or do this and find out if I’m into animals. This was 5 years ago maybe and I think about it every day of my life thinking I’m going to go to hell. I can’t remember exactly what happened I don’t know if part of it was a false memory or what. I’ll never know and a lot of times I wish I wasn’t alive because I can’t deal with the guilt and disgust in myself
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Yes I get sexual thoughts about animals, especially my dogs. I also get sexual thoughts about Religious figures like Jesus Christ, and God. I try not to watch wildlife programmes or videos , especially of animals mating. Cuz it triggers off sexual thoughts about it. And imagine I am the one who is with that animal at the time. I suffer alot of physical harmful thoughts to myself to yes. I am often curious of how it would feel if I put a metal knife down a live toaster, or to touch a hot ring on the oven with the metal knife. My family try to keep me away from any electrical items now, just to try to keep me safe.
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I have harm OCD so I totally understand.
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It’s definitely an uncomfortable feeling I understand ? But you are most definitely not alone! I used to feel alone and disgusted with myself and I times I do, but I remember that this is what ocd does to us. You have to remember you are bigger than that!
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I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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- 24w
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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