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With animals and family members, it gave me horrible horrible anxiety for so many hears and I still struggle with it. It’s still so strange
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I used to!
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It’s the worst ocd I’ve ever had. I actually think I rubbed against my dog at one point. Or was it just the couch because they moved. Idk I did it because I reached a point where I thought okay I’m either going to kill myself or do this and find out if I’m into animals. This was 5 years ago maybe and I think about it every day of my life thinking I’m going to go to hell. I can’t remember exactly what happened I don’t know if part of it was a false memory or what. I’ll never know and a lot of times I wish I wasn’t alive because I can’t deal with the guilt and disgust in myself
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Yes I get sexual thoughts about animals, especially my dogs. I also get sexual thoughts about Religious figures like Jesus Christ, and God. I try not to watch wildlife programmes or videos , especially of animals mating. Cuz it triggers off sexual thoughts about it. And imagine I am the one who is with that animal at the time. I suffer alot of physical harmful thoughts to myself to yes. I am often curious of how it would feel if I put a metal knife down a live toaster, or to touch a hot ring on the oven with the metal knife. My family try to keep me away from any electrical items now, just to try to keep me safe.
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I have harm OCD so I totally understand.
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It’s definitely an uncomfortable feeling I understand ? But you are most definitely not alone! I used to feel alone and disgusted with myself and I times I do, but I remember that this is what ocd does to us. You have to remember you are bigger than that!
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- 25w
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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