OCD and alcohol

@gre-gre that’s how i am. you completely explained it correctly

@ocdhaver22 I read your comment, I relate a lot too! I think it's very common with ocd to feel like this :|

@gre-gre it is a lot at times yk

@Dhali I understand, I felt like this, because when you drink alcohol you don't have so much control and that feel soo scary with ocd. Maybe drinking something could be a sort of exposure! Of course whitout drinking too much because then you risk to have the opposite problem😂🤦‍♀️ I never got really drunk (like I was always concious and later I remembered what I did, I just laughed a lot more than usual and I was less shy LOL), but I realized I was starting to rely too much on alcohol during parties (I have hocd so for me it was like: "If I drink, I won't worry about intrusive thoughts and I will be able to enjoy the party")... and of course that isn't good! So I think we have to find a compromise

@Dhali omg same! Once I drank a little too much: at the party I was really happy, I even "flirted" with a boy. Then I went home and I dreamed about kissing one of my female friend who was at the party💀 the day after was such a nightmare! However at that time I didn't know what ERP was yet, so I ruminated a lot and that made it worse :0

@gre-gre Actually the girl in the dream didn't pop up casually. This happened in June and as I said, I didn't know what erp was yet. I had only talked with a therapist and she had told me that she didn't think I had ocd because I didn't have compulsions (mine are only mental). She told me it was normal and I had to have experience to find out my sexuality! I believed her at first, I hadn't found nocd yet (which was so helpul to understand how ocd works). So my ocd actually got worse in this period, because I thought that I had to figure it out and I wanted a final answer. I was so sick of feeling in this way that at the party I decided to drink more then usual to see if I flirted with girls. This girl is probably bisexual/lesbian (i don't really know) sooo I wanted to see if there was something. In the end as I said, I ended up flirting with a boy lol, but the girls popped up in my dream. It's totally crazy I know🤦‍♀️ However I think this story is a great exemple of how is important to receive a proper treatement for ocd :) and in a normal situation, I think drinking with moderation is totally okay, it may be challenging but also a good exposure, if it is done in the right way!

@Dhali Nope, in my case I was sure it was a dream. But I felt weird and bad for dreaming that