I need advice with harm OCD urges. I recently had urges to trip/kick people or dogs which is freaking me out. Today I was just sitting down and my aunt walked right in front of me and I started getting fearful and an urge that I was going to stick my foot out. At that moment I feel like my foot may have moved even a tiny bit. It feels so real and now I feel awful. I've overcome so many types of OCD but this one seems hard bc I'm so scared I acted out even a little. How am I supposed to feel ok if I can't even be sure I acted something out. It's kinda devastating for me.

erin174

Date posted: 6y

When I had Harm OCD I used to have urges about stabbing people, pushing people in front of trains, hitting them over the head with sticks. I’m still a good person, and so are you. OCD messes with you so much, and Harm OCD is especially brutal. The only way to overcome it is through exposure. I started by watch End of The Fucking World on Netflix. It’s about a boy who thinks he’s a psychopath and wants to kill his first person. It freaked me out but afterwards my Harm OCD was mostly gone, and it was also just a really good show! If you’re not ready for that though, maybe try listening to songs that mention murder. Songs are shorter so they’re usually easier to handle. You’ve got this!

pureolife

Date posted: 6y

For a real life exposure, you may want to try sitting down near some people and just doing small movements with your toes and eventually feet as they walk by. Right now you’re afraid you’re going to act out of control. If you can face the fear and do it with control again and again, your brain will eventually stop getting so anxious about it and lose interest. If you have a trusted friend or family member, you could even ask them to walk back and forth in front of you for 5 min and then log the exposure in the app.

Francis

Date posted: 6y

I’ve been exactly where you are. It feels so real and that’s how it gets you! What helps me is just fully accepting the weird urges and thoughts. So being like “yep I’m totally gonna do that”. At first your anxiety will spike, but when you don’t actually do it time after time, your brain will realize that there’s no real threat and the thoughts and urges should get less intense

Lyka693

Date posted: 6y

Thanks all of you so much for the advice and support. Did I mention I'm supposed to be on vacation...lol. OCD sucks sometimes!! I will definitely try out your suggestions.

Melly Mel

Date posted: 6y

https://youtu.be/1G2gdX6ba-c

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Does anyone ever mimic/imagine harm OCD thoughts?

Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.

Aphid123

Date posted: 16w

Is this even OCD?

Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 15w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

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