I need advice with harm OCD urges. I recently had urges to trip/kick people or dogs which is freaking me out. Today I was just sitting down and my aunt walked right in front of me and I started getting fearful and an urge that I was going to stick my foot out. At that moment I feel like my foot may have moved even a tiny bit. It feels so real and now I feel awful. I've overcome so many types of OCD but this one seems hard bc I'm so scared I acted out even a little. How am I supposed to feel ok if I can't even be sure I acted something out. It's kinda devastating for me.

When I had Harm OCD I used to have urges about stabbing people, pushing people in front of trains, hitting them over the head with sticks. I’m still a good person, and so are you. OCD messes with you so much, and Harm OCD is especially brutal. The only way to overcome it is through exposure. I started by watch End of The Fucking World on Netflix. It’s about a boy who thinks he’s a psychopath and wants to kill his first person. It freaked me out but afterwards my Harm OCD was mostly gone, and it was also just a really good show! If you’re not ready for that though, maybe try listening to songs that mention murder. Songs are shorter so they’re usually easier to handle. You’ve got this!

For a real life exposure, you may want to try sitting down near some people and just doing small movements with your toes and eventually feet as they walk by. Right now you’re afraid you’re going to act out of control. If you can face the fear and do it with control again and again, your brain will eventually stop getting so anxious about it and lose interest. If you have a trusted friend or family member, you could even ask them to walk back and forth in front of you for 5 min and then log the exposure in the app.

I’ve been exactly where you are. It feels so real and that’s how it gets you! What helps me is just fully accepting the weird urges and thoughts. So being like “yep I’m totally gonna do that”. At first your anxiety will spike, but when you don’t actually do it time after time, your brain will realize that there’s no real threat and the thoughts and urges should get less intense

Thanks all of you so much for the advice and support. Did I mention I'm supposed to be on vacation...lol. OCD sucks sometimes!! I will definitely try out your suggestions.

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