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- 5y ago
I think that I just need help . I’m a little scared of what the future holds but thank you guys for the support I really appreciate it ? you guys are like family.
You’re not turning into a monster. Your OCD is the monster. Starve the monster: https://youtu.be/AZZIxyY23IA Notice the thoughts and label them: that’s an OCD thought. That’s an OCD thought. Say no thank you and don’t engage. Breath. You are NOT the person you feel like you are under OCDs duress, you are the person who appears when OCD disappears long enough to pop out again. If you’re seriously contemplating hurting yourself to escape OCD, please seek professional help immediately. If you need to, call 911 or your local suicide hotline. This moment and this feeling are temporary.
Can yoy afford going to a therapist or taking some meds? That could help you a lot. You are going to surpass it. You are not alone!
Please don’t hurt yourself! I used to feel the exact same way. I had Harm OCD too and was CONVINCED I’d end up in jail or a mental hospital before the time I graduated college. But, I managed to recover and that’s not even something I worry about anymore. Exposure helped me more than anything, so if you needs tips, let me know. Sending love and prayers your way! OCD is very treatable and you won’t feel like this forever, even if it feels like it!
What if It’s not ocd ? Or what if it is ocd and something else .
What if I’m just crazy and I never realized it till now
I wondered all the same stuff. I thought I had evidence I was actually a psychopath. But literally one of the first things my therapist said to me was, “well we definitely know you’re not a psychopath.” OCD will fuck with you and make you think that this time it’s not OCD. It’s always OCD. Also crazy people don’t question if they’re crazy!
It's actually comforting to know that someone else feels the exact same way as myself. For real, those are my thoughts verbatim most days. It's hard to dig yourself out of a hole like that. I'm starting to see a little glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel because when I read this I got a little smile on my face & said " Damn dude this OCD monster is for real and I'm not fighting it alone". The more I accept my thoughts for what they are (in my head my brain is the plant, I am an army of ants & my OCD thoughts are a herd of aphids I have to keep in check), the easier my thoughts are to fight. I have OCD. You have OCD. It is what it is. Fuck you OCD!! I'm cheering you on naj.
Sometimes I feel as if I want to act on these thoughts and I will one day because I won’t be able to handle my thoughts and I’ll go insane and hurt myself. right now I feel a lot of pressure in my head and stress and anxiety along with some depression because I can’t seem to find the fun in things anymore also any type of semi stressful situation I go through on a day to day basis is 10x worse after getting this thought I’ve been dealing with this thought that I might not be able to handle my ocd thoughts and compulsions for years and years to come and one day I’ll snap and the last few days I’ve been feeling so down that I’m scared that I’ll act on them and I’ve had this thought for about two weeks now and before that I use to be fine i don’t know what happened I really just want to go back to how I was feeling two weeks ago I honestly don’t know why I got this thought and why it’s stuck in my head now and I can’t seem to shake it off I feel like walls are just crumbling in on me slowly and I can’t seem to get out of it I just keep wishing I went back to my normal self literally two 2-3 weeks ago I just don’t know what might have happened I know I was dealing with a great amount of stress before I got this thought so maybe it was building up to this one thought that I had two weeks ago. I usually am able to shake some of my ocd thoughts off and disregard them and continue about my day but this one thought got me into a hyperventilating state when I got it two weeks ago and it caused me to panic so much because it was such a bad thought that I can’t get rid of it now i feel as if I’m in a episode and Ill never get out of it and I’ll be stuck like this forever and I can’t feel like this because how should any human feel this type of way forever it’s impossible and then I might snap one day because I can’t take it anymore it just scares me I want to go back to my old self a few weeks ago
I have never dealt with severe depression like this, I feel really hopeless and scared, I can't imagine a future out of all my mental health issues and I can't imagine being healthy and happy. The last 3/4 years I feel like I've done nothing but avoid things that are challenging and his at home every day because of my mental health and now it's all hitting me so hard that I'm so unhappy with my life and ick how to push through feeling so bad I can't even eat. I don’t even feel like I want to hurt myself but my will to live also feels so low. I hate feeling like I’m so trapped in a mental health cycle that nothing can break it
My coworkers just busted out a loud and open discussion of Jeffery Dahmer. Talking about how he murdered, tortured, and ate people. And how he had some sort of mental health condition. I literally cannot take it anymore. I just came in the bathroom and started to cry. Im so scared of being like him. I can’t even enjoy anything anymore. Usually work is my safe space because I’m surrounded by lots of people, but now they keep bringing this topic up as a discussion. I’ve felt relatively good all day and then this happened. Like I’m so scared i don’t even know who i am anymore. What if i have the same condition that he did? What if i end up like him? What if I’m the next him? I think I’m crying because I’m scared but what if I’m making myself fake cry because i am a bad person. I keep saying that I’m scared but what if I’m not. I keep saying i would never want to be like him but with if i do want it. I cannot escape this maze that I’m in. I finally felt okay this morning and now i don’t know what to feel. I feel like I’m in distress but am i really? Please help. Does anyone else feel like this? Why did this happen to me? I was so happy literally 8 weeks ago. How does this just happen
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