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I think that I just need help . I’m a little scared of what the future holds but thank you guys for the support I really appreciate it ? you guys are like family.
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You’re not turning into a monster. Your OCD is the monster. Starve the monster: https://youtu.be/AZZIxyY23IA Notice the thoughts and label them: that’s an OCD thought. That’s an OCD thought. Say no thank you and don’t engage. Breath. You are NOT the person you feel like you are under OCDs duress, you are the person who appears when OCD disappears long enough to pop out again. If you’re seriously contemplating hurting yourself to escape OCD, please seek professional help immediately. If you need to, call 911 or your local suicide hotline. This moment and this feeling are temporary.
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Can yoy afford going to a therapist or taking some meds? That could help you a lot. You are going to surpass it. You are not alone!
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Please don’t hurt yourself! I used to feel the exact same way. I had Harm OCD too and was CONVINCED I’d end up in jail or a mental hospital before the time I graduated college. But, I managed to recover and that’s not even something I worry about anymore. Exposure helped me more than anything, so if you needs tips, let me know. Sending love and prayers your way! OCD is very treatable and you won’t feel like this forever, even if it feels like it!
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What if It’s not ocd ? Or what if it is ocd and something else .
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What if I’m just crazy and I never realized it till now
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I wondered all the same stuff. I thought I had evidence I was actually a psychopath. But literally one of the first things my therapist said to me was, “well we definitely know you’re not a psychopath.” OCD will fuck with you and make you think that this time it’s not OCD. It’s always OCD. Also crazy people don’t question if they’re crazy!
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It's actually comforting to know that someone else feels the exact same way as myself. For real, those are my thoughts verbatim most days. It's hard to dig yourself out of a hole like that. I'm starting to see a little glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel because when I read this I got a little smile on my face & said " Damn dude this OCD monster is for real and I'm not fighting it alone". The more I accept my thoughts for what they are (in my head my brain is the plant, I am an army of ants & my OCD thoughts are a herd of aphids I have to keep in check), the easier my thoughts are to fight. I have OCD. You have OCD. It is what it is. Fuck you OCD!! I'm cheering you on naj.
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- 25w
I'm really frustrated right now because once again I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain and I just can't keep doing this. I'm so tired of doing this. My head is always going and going and going and I just want to unplug it. It makes me so stressed. It's like I have someone else in my head who won't shut up and is always pointing everything I do out. Like I'm walking on eggshells around myself so I don't trigger these thoughts. But if I walk on egg shells then it just goes on about something else and I feel like I'm going crazy.. I feel so bad because it makes me so snappy. I want to bash my head in because I'm so over it. The only thing I know that helps is anxiety meds, because I had one one time and it actually really helped me (it didn't even do it's job! Because of how bad my anxiety is!! I'm just so desperate at this point for relief) But the last time I brought up going on meds for anxiety with my mom she said I'll get addicted, like my dad, or my grandma, or whoever else in my family because everyone in my family is addicted to SOMETHING. I don't see the issue in trying though. I feel like I'm someone who could really benefit from anxiety meds. I don't talk about my feelings often BECAUSE of anxiety, so it seems like I'm just trying to go on meds for no reason. But it's like..my body hurts. All the time. And my brain never stops. My brain is so messed up. I feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't like this. It's never going away, I've tried and I've tried and I'm still a mess. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for much. I just want the fear to stop and the intrusive thoughts to stop and the racing thoughts and the feelings of doom and the nervousness and and I actually want to feel okay in my own skin for fucking once. I've tried everything nothing works im losing patience and I'm losing hope. I feel like there's something wrong with me. I feel like my brain is broken and that makes me sad to be honest. I feel like everyone around me can work. Why can't my stupid brain work???? I try so hard. I try so hard all the time. And it still doesn't do what it needs to do. I hate myself so much.
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- 20w
I’m definitely having an episode right now. A few times I’ve thought about coming onto this app and writing something but then I spiral further and further and I forget about anything except what’s triggering me. Then I think about this app again and intend to write a post… but again I’m spiraling too hard to focus on anything else. But I finally ended up here because I got an email from NOCD. I opened it and read about someone who ‘overcame their OCD.’ It made me spiral harder, because I genuinely don’t understand how someone can control this. How do I stop? How do I silence my brain? I was told to sit with my thoughts and not try to divert them, but if I do that I have an extreme episode so bad that I feel disconnected from myself. I looked at myself in the mirror and it felt like my eyes were seeing someone standing in front of me and not my reflection. It scares me to think that I will be experiencing these episodes forever. I literally just put my phone down twice because I thought my cat was choking to death because he had a hairball (he’s fine) I just feel like I can’t see a way out of this. It’s not curable, and I don’t understand how someone can ‘conquer’ something that feels so out of control Obviously it’s possible, but unfortunately that reassurance doesn’t always break through the most awful thoughts Sometimes there’s nothing that can make me calm down, I just have to ride it out I hope there’s never a day where it’s so out of control that I can’t keep it in at work, and I ruin my own life by having a severe panic attack while I’m there and being fired. If I had the type of episodes at work that I have consistently at home, I would be so humiliated. It scares me. I’m trying so hard to be normal like everyone else. I just want to be happy. I just want to live.
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- 18w
Lately I just feel like I’m on the verge of losing it and I don’t know why. I feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Physically and mentally. Not due to insecurity but just that something isn’t right… I never feel good, I’m always fatigued, my head hurts all the time, but my blood work comes back fine so doctor’s will do nothing. I have anxiety and panic attacks and recently I guess depression since I’m always down. I have relationship OCD so my partner deals with me not being sure of him constantly and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to leave him because he’s great but half the time my brain is telling me he isn’t the one. I keep counting as well, constantly counting every letter in every word and every word in every sentence… it just feels like I’m gonna go insane one of these days and I’m scared. When I talk to someone about this, they have no clue what to tell me or how to help. Am I alone in feeling this way??
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