- Username
- chou_tzuyu13
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It’s not God. God doesn’t want you to suffer. He actually hates watching you suffer. He knows you are strong. Way stronger then even you believe. He wants you to trust that even though you feel like you won’t get through this, that through him you will. He want us to give it to him and let him handle our fears. I’m not trying to get all religious on you. Trust me, from someone who has questioned my own faith a lot from having OCD, I now know he loves us, I know he wants the best for us, I know he’s with us. We may not understand why we are dealt these cards but maybe we are not meant to know. It’s easy to blame someone or something for our problems and because we feel like God is so powerful, we wonder why he can’t just take it all away for us. Trust and believe he’s strengthening you. That this is for a reason, and that you’re strong enough to face this. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. I’m here to tell you that you will be ok. This will pass and you will feel like yourself again. Be gentle with yourself, take care of yourself, and most importantly, love yourself. Take it a second at a time and just breathe. It’s all going to be ok❤️. Sending positive thoughts your way. I’m gonna end this by sharing a quote I read earlier. It says “God puts us through troubled waters because he knows our demons can’t swim”. Stay strong.
you know?me and you are the same person. I am a believer in God and I pray always. I really pray a lot I swear.but I feel that God does not listen to my prayers.
I feel like you that God only wants me to suffer
there is nothing we can do.you know I believe in something. I believe that luck is not on everybody's side. Some people are lucky and live happy.And others like me and you are not lucky and suffer. Life is a question of luck only believe me.
This is the lies OCD feeds you. It’s not Gods who’s making you suffer. God does listen to all your prayers. He answers them but maybe not when you want it. You’re meant to go through things that you think will break you, but can you ask yourself. Have I actually broke? You’re still here, you’re still alive. I know it’s hard, trust me I live it with you. I have had intrusive thoughts so bad I couldn’t even function. I’m telling you that you are strong. You are worthy and God loves you even when you are angry with him. Stay strong❤️
Honestly, please be my life coach I need more people like u in my life?❤️
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For real tho... feeling like he’s making us suffer
and I feel that the more I pray the more I suffer.
but what can we do?
I love him and I want to go with him, but I’m hesitant because I worry that when I go to him it’ll get worse. Like I think when I pray, I’m showing God that I’m not suffering enough and that I need it do get worse
I’m always here to help❤️. I don’t know how much of a life coach Id be but we can definitely help each other???. Just don’t forgot how amazing you are. OCD likes to lie and tell you that you’re not but it’s not true. You’re strong and worthy and don’t forget that God loves you for all of that. Everything you think he wouldn’t love about you, he loves even more then you can imagine. You will beat this. You are still YOU with OCD❤️
This is just too much...and it just sucks because no matter what I do... in reality ocd doesn’t care about what it’s doing to me... it’s gonna keep doing this. My brother is sick with something that causes diarrhea...he was sick with it 2 weeks ago, got better last week, and we all got the stomach flu this week which caused his sickness to come back...he’s playful and doing normal 1 year old things but ocd keeps saying he is going to die. I don’t completely understand how a 1 year old would just magically die from watery shit, but just because this worry makes no sense, it doesn’t mean I’m still not scared.And it showed me a scenario of his funeral and it’s so fucked up.I think the worst punishment God has ever given me was ocd... ocd hurts me more than anyone else can... it’s so fucked up... I used to ask God for help but I guess mental health wasn’t that saving worthy so I just stopped praying about my mental health BC I’d be “wasting my time, he doesn’t answer you.” I just have so mu ch in. My life that isn’t going right and I’m started to get low key sad and miserable about my life at this point. I need help lately but I’m really depending on some sort of relief... just thought control and to get rid of bad people in my life and to get some of my grades up and...to be happy
I need a space to breathe and rant and get stuff off my chest so this is what I’m using this for now. I hate being angry. I hate it so much cause I always feel like I have less control over my thoughts and feelings and it makes me feel like I have no control over possible actions etc. which makes it really hard with harm ocd. But it feels like an endless loop, because my ocd is so frustrating it makes me angry, and that makes me feel less in control, so the circle continues. It sucks feeling like if anyone knew what it looked like sometimes inside your head, maybe they wouldn’t love you and they wouldn’t see you the same way. I feel so lonely and hollow that days. I have so many “friends” but they all make me feel more lonely, cause everything is so superficial and pointless and sitting with them just makes me feel like I need to withdraw deeper into myself because they don’t get it and they don’t really want to get it or care. I want to scream and cry cause I can’t control anything. I can’t stop the people I love from dying one day, I cant stop time, and I can’t keep things the same forever. I’m so tired of doubting everything about myself. Am I a pedophile? Am I a danger to my loved ones? Am I psychotic? Ya da ya da ya da. This endless anxiety I have it feels like it’s slowly killing me and it’s making me depressed. I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept for two nights and I mean like at all. I forget to eat I get so anxious and either way I sometimes feel so nauseous I don’t want to eat. My family doesn’t really get it, to them ocd is always just an excuse, or it’s for drama. I have tried to ease myself into the idea that maybe everything is chaos. Bad things happen to good people everything has an end, etc. it’s much easier said than done. If life is an ever changing stormy sea of waves than I’m barely clinging onto anything.
I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.
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