- Username
- chou_tzuyu13
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It’s not God. God doesn’t want you to suffer. He actually hates watching you suffer. He knows you are strong. Way stronger then even you believe. He wants you to trust that even though you feel like you won’t get through this, that through him you will. He want us to give it to him and let him handle our fears. I’m not trying to get all religious on you. Trust me, from someone who has questioned my own faith a lot from having OCD, I now know he loves us, I know he wants the best for us, I know he’s with us. We may not understand why we are dealt these cards but maybe we are not meant to know. It’s easy to blame someone or something for our problems and because we feel like God is so powerful, we wonder why he can’t just take it all away for us. Trust and believe he’s strengthening you. That this is for a reason, and that you’re strong enough to face this. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. I’m here to tell you that you will be ok. This will pass and you will feel like yourself again. Be gentle with yourself, take care of yourself, and most importantly, love yourself. Take it a second at a time and just breathe. It’s all going to be ok❤️. Sending positive thoughts your way. I’m gonna end this by sharing a quote I read earlier. It says “God puts us through troubled waters because he knows our demons can’t swim”. Stay strong.
you know?me and you are the same person. I am a believer in God and I pray always. I really pray a lot I swear.but I feel that God does not listen to my prayers.
I feel like you that God only wants me to suffer
there is nothing we can do.you know I believe in something. I believe that luck is not on everybody's side. Some people are lucky and live happy.And others like me and you are not lucky and suffer. Life is a question of luck only believe me.
This is the lies OCD feeds you. It’s not Gods who’s making you suffer. God does listen to all your prayers. He answers them but maybe not when you want it. You’re meant to go through things that you think will break you, but can you ask yourself. Have I actually broke? You’re still here, you’re still alive. I know it’s hard, trust me I live it with you. I have had intrusive thoughts so bad I couldn’t even function. I’m telling you that you are strong. You are worthy and God loves you even when you are angry with him. Stay strong❤️
Honestly, please be my life coach I need more people like u in my life?❤️
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For real tho... feeling like he’s making us suffer
and I feel that the more I pray the more I suffer.
but what can we do?
I love him and I want to go with him, but I’m hesitant because I worry that when I go to him it’ll get worse. Like I think when I pray, I’m showing God that I’m not suffering enough and that I need it do get worse
I’m always here to help❤️. I don’t know how much of a life coach Id be but we can definitely help each other???. Just don’t forgot how amazing you are. OCD likes to lie and tell you that you’re not but it’s not true. You’re strong and worthy and don’t forget that God loves you for all of that. Everything you think he wouldn’t love about you, he loves even more then you can imagine. You will beat this. You are still YOU with OCD❤️
I’m angry. Irritated. Whatever. I’m in a day program and yesterday they’re freaking out because I was open about my harm ocd. The dr I saw yesterday in the afternoon that wasn’t my actual doctor talked to me and told them it’s just ocd. Today my actual doctor told me to TELL MY FATHER THE THOUGHTS I GET OF STABBING HIM AND MY MOM IN THEIR SLEEP. Because “I don’t think he’d understand if he heard it from me” ME EITHER. Why the HELL would you give meaning to my thought?! Why would you make me tell him?! There’s no purpose, he’s an idiot! He was like “so you get thoughts of murdering us in our sleep” and said “should I be ready”. And then my dumb self mentioned my pocd while trying to explain ocd to him. ?♀️ He’s “trying” to be better then he used to be but he still pisses me off. I miss my best friend, I used to trust her with this stuff. I hate talking about my dad to anyone else.
Sooooooo omg my mom mentioned that she saw a show on televisopn where people with weird mental ilnesses spoke and she mentioned that there was someone with hocd and how she thought it was weird but she thought in this generation she doesnt blame people for having it because it isnt their own fault and there is alot of pressure on your sexuality and omg i got sooo red and i felt like i was gonna burst out in tears and tell them everyything i was sooo close to just break and tell them what ive been going trough for the past year. Im so freaked out and like... i jusr wanna tell them but im ashamed and i know i will n e v e r tell them but i cant believe i got this close. And i just dont know what to do bevause on the show the doctor said a looot of people approached him with having hocd and that its really a new big mental ilness thing. You know what it is, my mom said that the man on the show who had hocd said he wasnt in to guys at all but his brain told him he liked it and that was me in the ebginning of hocd but now i have a feeling i cant relate anymore and that hurts so much because its like hocd has gotten so deep into me that i honestly believe it and like i created genuine feelings towards woman. I dont know what to think anymroe. I pray everynight god will Release me and somehow i feel like this is my punishment for not listenig to Him and i also todsy read in the bible That people who ignore god do things wrong when it comes to sexual stuff and that people wont be able to think clear anymore and that they will be lost and thats just me and im So afraid because the bible says people will be punished for it idk im so freaked out!!!! I wanna be a better person so bad but i cant when my brain is like this i need help from god but im scared he just rejects me vecause ive been a horrrible person. So selfish and i know my heart is ebtter than that but i cant set good apart from bad bevause my brain wont let me. Its like i dont give a shit about anyhting anymore and i miss me who could think clear and who was genuine and honored god. Its like ny current brain cant do that snymore it doesnt have the right functions for it anymorw. Like the good part in me had been cut out and im tryna find it but its destroyed and theres no way it will come back.
When I was a kid I would get physically and emotionally abuse by my sister after school. I'm 20 years just told my mom accidentally and I can tell she doesn't believe me. I'm now realized how much it really affected me. That same little girl who was scared back then is the same voice as my OCD... Its like my brain forgot a lot of the memories that happened during the abuse. But I can tell you the address to the apartment each room were it was . the apartment was like a maze. I can tell you where the kitchen was and how it looked. I remember the kitchen because the front door was there I ran to it a lot but didn't seem to make it. But somehow I keep thinking and feeIing I was just too sensitive and it really wasn't that bad. I'm being over dramatic and I feel guilty and God doesn't want me to talk about it and he's mad at me for mentioning it. I just don't understand. I feel so broken and conflicted...
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