sometimes I just don’t understand God. I just wanna go up to heaven and yell at him “WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?” Just as I wrote that I burst into tears. what does he gain from watching me suffer, this is hard. this is so painful every single day, I guess this is karma for everything I’ve ever done. I want to tell someone, I have a therapist to talk to but honestly she’s dumb to me thinking I have OCD. I obviously know I’m not alone but I feel so...alone.

It’s not God. God doesn’t want you to suffer. He actually hates watching you suffer. He knows you are strong. Way stronger then even you believe. He wants you to trust that even though you feel like you won’t get through this, that through him you will. He want us to give it to him and let him handle our fears. I’m not trying to get all religious on you. Trust me, from someone who has questioned my own faith a lot from having OCD, I now know he loves us, I know he wants the best for us, I know he’s with us. We may not understand why we are dealt these cards but maybe we are not meant to know. It’s easy to blame someone or something for our problems and because we feel like God is so powerful, we wonder why he can’t just take it all away for us. Trust and believe he’s strengthening you. That this is for a reason, and that you’re strong enough to face this. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. I’m here to tell you that you will be ok. This will pass and you will feel like yourself again. Be gentle with yourself, take care of yourself, and most importantly, love yourself. Take it a second at a time and just breathe. It’s all going to be ok❤️. Sending positive thoughts your way. I’m gonna end this by sharing a quote I read earlier. It says “God puts us through troubled waters because he knows our demons can’t swim”. Stay strong.

you know?me and you are the same person. I am a believer in God and I pray always. I really pray a lot I swear.but I feel that God does not listen to my prayers.

I feel like you that God only wants me to suffer

there is nothing we can do.you know I believe in something. I believe that luck is not on everybody's side. Some people are lucky and live happy.And others like me and you are not lucky and suffer. Life is a question of luck only believe me.

This is the lies OCD feeds you. It’s not Gods who’s making you suffer. God does listen to all your prayers. He answers them but maybe not when you want it. You’re meant to go through things that you think will break you, but can you ask yourself. Have I actually broke? You’re still here, you’re still alive. I know it’s hard, trust me I live it with you. I have had intrusive thoughts so bad I couldn’t even function. I’m telling you that you are strong. You are worthy and God loves you even when you are angry with him. Stay strong❤️

Honestly, please be my life coach I need more people like u in my life?❤️

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For real tho... feeling like he’s making us suffer

and I feel that the more I pray the more I suffer.

but what can we do?

I love him and I want to go with him, but I’m hesitant because I worry that when I go to him it’ll get worse. Like I think when I pray, I’m showing God that I’m not suffering enough and that I need it do get worse

I’m always here to help❤️. I don’t know how much of a life coach Id be but we can definitely help each other???. Just don’t forgot how amazing you are. OCD likes to lie and tell you that you’re not but it’s not true. You’re strong and worthy and don’t forget that God loves you for all of that. Everything you think he wouldn’t love about you, he loves even more then you can imagine. You will beat this. You are still YOU with OCD❤️