Theme Changes

@Antoinekoi6 Elaborate pls 😭

@blazed Is it POCD? Because for me my SOOCD was also going towards TOCD and I literally told it to “f*ck off”, and didn’t do any compulsion or give it the time of the day because I was tired already 😭 I had a small beginning of pocd I think too but again didn’t give in to any compulsion and tried to ignore it very early on

@Antoinekoi6 Actually the same happened to me! Before SO-OCD began, POCD showed up for a little bit but it went away because I didn’t really pay attention to it, so it was never as debilitating as this theme. Now my theme is towards having sex and “what if I’m not into it” etc, it’s so annoying 🥲

@blazed Oh it happened to me too. And frankly at one point you got to ignore it I know I am not doing so entirely myself but the thoughts are so much, the ocd can latch onto anything…this is a never ending battle

@Antoinekoi6 It really is. Some days I feel like giving up because it’s so overwhelming. Idk why the sexual themes latch on so much for me

@blazed I think it’s because it’s so much easier to do reassurance with sexual oriented themes And also because it’s a super complicated issue and very vague by nature

@Antoinekoi6 Agreed. It’s a very personal and a taboo topic. It makes you feel like you’ve lost a big part of your identity

@blazed Also don’t do the compulsion of going into the internet reading. I made this mistake and I regret it lol

@Antoinekoi6 Oh dw I’ve been there, done that. I even took quizzes about my sexuality 🤣

@blazed Yeah it makes everything worse for you, so many things are going through your head right now that adding internet stuffs is going to make you put things together in a weird way

@Antoinekoi6 Exactly, doing that just fed my anxiety, but I didn’t know it was OCD at the time. Now I’m doing exposures, which is hard, but so worth it

@blazed Oh i did know I had ocd and still went and did it, and on the internet your always going to find something to confirm your fears and your brain is going to wire all of those things together and create something lol

@Antoinekoi6 Exactly it’s so hard because your brain wants to believe the worse case scenario 😭 have you done ERP?

@blazed I haven’t started yet, but I did some exposure myself ( I failed the prevention ) What I do remember is that it sometimes helped me because it striked me like an evidence that “this isn’t what you want” ( I hate saying this it sounds like reassurance) But yeah lately it has been convincing me that I don’t like women, when I “figured out” that I do love women, it jumped to “you don’t actually want to live and have a romance with women” So at this point I am in “I don’t care about these stupid thoughts” mode It’s a never ending fight If you need someone to talk I am here

@Antoinekoi6 Thank you for sharing! It’s nice to know that I’m not alone; it gets really isolating at times. I hope we both get better soon bc it’s so exhausting dealing with this 🥲

@blazed It’s exhausting physically and mentally lol