Feeling Like I Need to Go to the Hospital

I feel like my OCD is at its worst, and maybe even depression. I can’t go to work, and I just sit in the same spot in my house all day so people outside can’t see me and judge me. All I do is eat, shower, and take baths. I cry, text my mom, and talk to my husband. I feel like my life is over. I want things to be the way they used to be, and they’re just not. But I can’t go back to the hospital. Then I have to be away from my home, and miss a vacation I’m supposed to go on next week. But will I even enjoy the vacation? I have no idea. I’m at a loss. I used to be a happy teacher with lots of hobbies and a social life. Now I can’t even bring myself to cook meals or read a book. I look at all the paintings and crochet I used to do, the photos of me traveling - how am I possibly the same human being?

Username: brittanyljohnsonbrittanyljoh...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Such a tough spot to be in. I have good days and bad days. I’ve been in the same place you are. Medication had helped me a lot, I’ve taken time from work to heal and focus on myself. At first I couldn’t get out of bed and felt so unlike myself and sometimes I still do. But I want you to know it can get better. Try and go for a walk even it’s ten mins or try and try do the things you used to love even if it’s for 10 min. It’s a process and takes time but little by little things can get better ❤️ take care and I’m praying for you!!!

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

Sorry it’s so bad. Not sure which type of hospital you mean. Having bee been in a regular mental hospital ward they just threw meds at the OCD and did not make it better. However the residential OCD treatment I went through literally saved my life and I went from being so depressed I was numb and didn’t know I was depressed to being able to enjoy hobbies and life again. The program had ERP to treat OCD and CBT/DBT to deal with depression. It would be a lot more rewarding than a vacation where OCD will still be consuming your life. I went to Rogers Behavioral but there are a few other good ones out there. My husband had gotten to the point where he was numb from dealing with me and my OCD and we have a friendly relationship again and make each other laugh. I highly recommend the same route for you. The other thing I recommended is a hormone test to see if your estrogen or progesterone is out of whack. This was helpful for me as my hormones were all over the map during most of perimenopause (which can start @40) and we had to keep changing what levels I was on.

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

@Erin P Sorry this was so long.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Now my husband says I’m ruining his life.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Things can get better. I would reach out for help if you are able to.

Username: FactsOverFearFactsOverFear

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. You can go back to being that person in the photos, maybe even someone happier! Have you tried an intensive outpatient program? That way you don't have to sleep anywhere and be away from your husband.

Username: Cat_attack

Date posted: 5y ago

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder has made me so drained thinking of all the thing I think I did and all the things I think I want to do that I am SEVERELY depressed. I don’t have a life anymore. I work only part time and just sit in bed all day crying or feeling so empty I can’t cry. I have ZERO motivation to do anything. Even if I’m hungry I can’t get out of bed. This eventually results in me going to work at 5pm having eaten NOTHING all day. I am in constant pain due to health issues, type 1 diabetes and PKD. I want to be a novelist and I can feel that slipping away as I haven’t written in over 2 years. My memory is getting worse due to sugar fluctuations and my depression. And my health is never going to get better. Sometimes idk the point of being alive if I’m just going to lay in bed every day of my life and cry.

Username: ishdh.2

Date posted: 2y ago

Should I admit myself to a mental health hospital?

It’s been about a week since my OCD episode has gone from bad to severe. I haven’t been able to go a single minute without the thoughts flooding my head. I’ve disconnected from my friends and avoid hanging out with them. I can’t engage in hobbies. I’m not taking care of myself and I haven’t showered in days. I’m a mess, and I feel like I have no reason to keep going at all. I don’t want to hurt myself or hurt anyone else though, so I don’t know if it’s really worth it. I just sit in my own filth and deal with these horrible thoughts. School is coming up and that’s only increasing my stress, and I’m not even going to have access to a therapist until the 19th of September. I’ve completely dissociated from myself and have lost touch of reality, where my thoughts start and where my OCD thoughts end. I feel so stuck right now and I don’t know what to do or how to move forward. I feel like my compulsions and rumination and become my everything. What should I do?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 51w ago

Is my life over?

I feel like OCD has made me a shell of the person I used to be. I am not able to keep up with work, family or friends. I am worried I will lose the ability to work and connect.

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