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Username: emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

Pls help!!

Everytime i try and go to sleep the most random scenarios pop up it’s like I’m aware of them but not like I’m half asleep half awake I’ve tried to clear my mind and stop them but I can’t stop them. What if I think of something bad and then it makes me poet anxious. It’s like i feel myself going to sleep but then I can see a scenario playing but im not in full control. Idk why this is happening but im terrified and exhausted. I just wanna sleep. I cant stop it from happening. It’s like im not in control but im only fully aware of what’s happening when i snap out of it and sometimes I even forget what was happening when I open my eyes. Im so confused what is this???? What’s happening????

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I think I know what you are talking about. When I have been in a high anxiety state and trying to drift off I’m conscious of my thoughts and it’s almost like I have drifted off to sleep and almost like I’m almost dreaming, my thoughts shifted so much. It would jolt me fully awake with an intense wave of anxiety. It’s like you are in that place between awake and asleep but it just feels so weird. I was always so scared of feeling like that for some reason.

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous yes it feels like that! I’m so confused on why it’s happening because no matter how much I try and clear my mind and try to stop it from happening it just keeps happening. Intrusive images seem to pop up and that’s what makes me fully wake up again bc it makes me anxious

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I think this probably happens every night but when we aren’t anxious it goes unnoticed or maybe when In high anxiety states we can’t fully relax enough to switch over to sleep as easily. I know what you are talking about and know when it was happening it scared me terribly. It has to be a normal occurrence though. Just know you aren’t going crazy and this happens to probably all of us!

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous yeah I hope I’m not the only one because it’s rlly scary, when I snap out of it I can remember seeing full details, colours and everything but sometimes i don’t remember anything at all..

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I really hope that you can feel better about this and get some sleep. I’ve talked to my husband (who has 0 anxiety or other issues) he said he loves when that happens bc he just likes to see where his brain goes! It freaks us out bc I think we constantly need to feel in control of our thoughts and attach meaning to thoughts. I think these are just random nothingness!

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous ty that’s made me feel a lot better! I was just really confused! :)

Username: eyeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeeyeyeyeyeyey...

Date posted: 1y ago

i completely understand, it’s sorta like the feeling when ur finally drifting to sleep and feel in peace and have no thoughts in your head anymore, and then u just start falling and u cant control it and u snap awake while ur heart is pounding just before u could hit that inevitable “ground”? is that what ur experiencing, or is it sorta different?

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

@eyeyeyeyeyeyeyeye I guess so but it’s like I try to go to sleep and then random scenarios will start happening in my head completely out of my control and it’s usually an intrusive image that happens that’s able to snap me out of it and i realise “where the hell did that come from” and I try my absolute hardest to stop it from happening but it just keeps happening. I searched it up and hypnagogic hallucinations came up and a guy on tiktok said something that made sense it feels like ur awake but also asleep and dreaming at the same time it’s like u cant control it and only observe it. I’m freaked out.

Username: Lb87Lb87

Date posted: 1y ago

I don’t know if this is of any help to you. But I had sleep therapy last year for what I didn’t know at the time were obsessions around sleep. One of the biggest lessons I learned was that we fall asleep when we’re not trying to. I’ve since created a ritual where I listen to something for pleasure through audible, and I lie on the couch in the dark just to enjoy it, with no intention of falling asleep. I’ve been making my way through the Harry Potter series for comfort. I often fall asleep and then move to the bed when very sleepy and I’m able to sleep. also, definitely something to bring up in therapy!

Username: Lb87Lb87

Date posted: 1y ago

@Lb87 Oh and another thing. This experience reminds me of “neutral obsessions.” Where something random pops up in to your head and causes you distress. I read about it in Jonathan Grayson’s book, “Freedom from OCD.” Highly recommend!

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 1y ago

it’s like I know what’s happening but I can’t stop it like I can sometimes hear myself saying “no no stop it” and I cant stop it until I’m able to pull myself out of it for some reason. I don’t want this to happen and it’s completely out of my control and it won’t stop happening no matter how hard i try. Am I like dreaming or something but im still awake????

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

My brain is often busiest at bedtime. I do puzzles til my brain is ready to sleep. Trying not to think the thoughts just makes them stronger. Thus link helps me https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/erp-scripting-for-ocd/

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

Haven’t slept in a week

Hi I haven’t slept in a week because I’m so afraid of my thoughts and not being able to control them or work through them by ruminating. I’ve slept a few hours here and there but I wake up with this really scary fear response/adrenaline rush because i feel like I know I was thinking something really disturbing in my sleep but I wasn’t conscious enough to remember it and the adrenaline is so intense that I feel like if I can’t remember what the dreams were I don’t know what I will do. Sometimes I run to the shower and turn on the water and just rock back and forth on the floor because I’m so afraid of my thoughts. I have such a hard time letting myself relax enough to fall asleep because I can feel myself losing control over my thoughts in my half asleep state and it feels like I’m tripping or something. Does anyone else feel like this? How do you get yourself to fall asleep? Any advice? Thank you

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Username: blackitty27

Date posted: 31w ago

Scared i'm losing my mind

It's been 2 nights in a row that I haven't been able to sleep normally, last night was horrible, I only slept like 4 hours and all night long I kept having bizarre "dreams" and I kept having this kind of mind chatter, where random words, phrases, songs or even images kept popping up in my mind non stop for all the time I was asleep. It got so bad and uncomfortble that I jolted up in a panic and couldn't go back to sleep I was so scared bc as soon as I closed my eyes seconds later I would start getting those random sounds and images in my sleep and it really frightened me. Is this normal or anyone has this? what worries me is that it lasted the whole time I was sleeping, not just for a few minutes.

Username: SomaticSun🌤️

Date posted: 31w ago

Is this Sleep Paralysis or just Anxiety?

Hello my OCD friends, haven’t been on here for awhile. Very unsettling experience this morning when I went back to sleep because I was exhausted. It was like half of me was asleep, and the other half was awake and aware of all the weird things taking place: Vivid, yet shallow dreams, they were nightmarish with a truly crazy undertone that really makes you feel like your brain has gone insane. Then came the tingles, all over body, which turned into total numbness. It’s like I was trapped in sleep. Every time I tried to get out, this creepy darkness kept pulling me back in like a vacuum, and the more it pulled me in, the more I heard this “paper ripping” noise in both my ears.. louder and louder. Clearly an auditory hallucination. When I finally busted out of there, everything instantly went away. But I was left rattled, I cannot believe my mind could behave in such a horrid way. I’m honestly afraid to go to bed tonight. It was like a nightmare on steroids. With physical sensations included. And fear like I’ve never felt before. Thought it might be a seizure or even death. Anyone? Scared 🥺 Thanks guys

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