I think I just did today. I literally could not stop screaming and jumping around crying punching the wall for like 30mins-1hr. I’ve had quite bad panic attacks, but this one was just me feeling absolutely defeated. Can anyone relate? I feel crazy (well maybe I am, I have OCD)
Ahh yes… relatable when I was a kid/teen.
I can relate to this since it just happened the last 2 days. My wife had to go to the hospital and I’ve had to watch my 2 kids which are also sick. And it’s been hard to say the least. I kept getting so upset and having panic attacks all day. I finally realized it was my ocd cause I’d get upset when my kids would touch me or make a mess. It’s difficult. Im just trying to observe what the obsession/fear is and what the compulsion is in response. Writing that down has been so helpful
TW- yeah that has happened to me before as well. there’s times where its gotten so bad that i have harmed myself all over my arms/stomach. sorry if thats a little too much info , but i do relate. sometimes its just built up . im sorry u had to deal with that
Yes i relate! When i have my panic attacks it makes me feel like im going crazy & dont feel like myself. I’m so sorry you had to go through that today :(
“Crazy” people don’t know they’re crazy. We aren’t crazy. But I’m sorry you feel this way. I totally do right now. I keep thinking the most depressing, scary stuff.
Yes. I had severe anxiety as a kid, and it felt real. I would sob and scream whenever my mother left my sight. It was awful- I knew she was fine, but the anxiety didn’t leave. I full-fledged panicked again my OCD popped up 1.5 years ago. It’s impossible to rationalize with anxiety. You want to just “calm down” but the anxiety makes the fear feel valid and real. It’s literally an emotional hallucination. This may seem odd, but try saying a prayer. God won’t take your burden away, but He will give you strength to carry it. I’ll still have bad anxiety, but if I pray, I won’t fall into despair.
I think the most important thing to learn is to practice self compassion,especially when you have had such strong emotions and feel "like crazy". I recimmend Kimberley Quinlan, both her pod and her book "The self compassion workbook for OCD" we aren't crazy, and sometimes our feelings are so strong.
My anxiety/OCD got SO bad that I had a derealization episode. Scariest thing that has ever ever ever happened to me. If anyone has ever been there, please let me know. I have no idea what to do and am scared I’m losing my sanity :-(
Does anyone feel like anything you do just causes you to have a panic attack….. and have a full on breakdown🥲✌🏼 (currently crying, screaming, sliding down the wall)
I had my first real severe OCD flare up almost two weeks ago and it scared the living crap out of me (intrusive thoughts). At the time I had no idea what it was and it was causing insane anxiety and panic attacks. After a bit of research and reaching out to numerous professionals for help with anxiety, I then learned it was OCD. I had a pretty bad week and then started to feel better. The thoughts were still there but I felt like I was learning / understanding how to just not fall victim to them. Now today, I had what I felt like was a bad day. Had what I think was a derealization type episode. Horrified it was going to turn me into someone else. I can’t even explain. I calmed down, but ever since it happened I’ve had ocd on loop about how that specific event happened and what could happen next time if it does happen again. Im truly scared for it to happen again. I was stuck in a loop for hours. Then now just all of the sudden I feel ok. Like a moment of clarity that I know what all of it was. Like I know it was the ocd. And that I’ll handle it better next time. And that I’ll be ok. But then my brain tries to tell me I have more than ocd. That I’m actually losing it. Has anyone experienced these moments before? I know people have good days and bad days but has anyone wone had days where they feel like it’s unbearable but then a couple hours later feel like you have your mind and rational back? Or should I actually be concerned there’s something else going on here? I meet with my therapist on Friday and will fill her in on all this, even though it’s only my second session with her, but just wanted to see if anyone could relate.
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