Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
I felt like life was meaningless
I don't know why i feel like this. Could it be because I'm going through things? Maybe depression. Could anyone help me out?
Alexis MAlexis M
- Date posted
- 2y
I get this. Lately I’ve been feeling so mellow, so done, almost as if a part of me has just given up. I think it can definitely be because you’re going through things. I also think it can be attributed to depression. Everything is so much bigger and scarier and harder when you’re in the midst of it, but out on the other side you’ll look back and realize it wasn’t meaningless. Life isn’t meaningless. Life just sucks sometimes. Maybe a lot of the time. There are still some really cool really fun really amazing parts though. Try and reconnect with something you love or something you used to love. Watch an old favorite movie or show, just to smile a little and get your brain thinking. Read a good book if you like. Do whatever. And don’t forget to give yourself forgiveness. If you’re going through it, it’s ok to have to revert to the simplest forms of self care. It’s ok to act a little bit like your childhood self to gain some peace. Good luck, keep you head up
Hope_HealingHope_Healing
- Date posted
- 2y
I also felt like that. Doing little things like reading a book or listening to songs helps. Just relish each and every moment, you don't have to find a meaning. You can be happy or have fun.
Erin PErin P
- Date posted
- 2y
I felt like this when it felt like my OCD was 24/7 but ERP helped me reclaim my gratitude and joy as well as managing so much of my OCD better.
One_moment_at_a_timeOne_moment_a...
- Date posted
- 2y
I’ve been feeling depressed lately. My ocd makes me overthink and think of bad memories. All that negativity has been making me depressed lately. I’ve found that asmr tapping videos on YouTube can help
Traveller Traveller
- Date posted
- 2y
Same here. I spend all my time thinking about this. I think the concept of “meaning”is relative to a subject. Life can’t just have a meaning, it needs to be meaningful to something. Also, meaning is the product of human mind. There is indeed no meaning without an interpretation. I think people like to assume that the meaning is to be a better self or live a happy life, or to act in a way that promote personal values. The meaning here revolves around the self. In this case, meaning is there when it realized and felt. But this seems so hard for someone with ocd. Being unable to feel the normal emotions as they arrive, being not able to do the things or even think the things we want to do or think, makes us become alienated from ourself. We realized that the positive emotion is not necessarily linked to positive event as other people would assume because intrusive thought might hit. This makes it harder to feel the self and find the meaning that revolves around a self that we are unsure about. People sometimes stand outside of self as an escape from pain. But the drawback is that there is no meaning without a self. I think as meaning is relative, it’s important to find a subject when talking about meaning. To realize one’s own meaning for one’s self, it’s important to belief in that one can find a meaning and meditate on what one loves. If it’s hard to tell or if there’s interference, then it’s important to deal with the thing that’s covering the sight (May it be ocd, ignorance, or any difficulties that we might have as humans). I’d like to think we are warriors fighting for our meaning. When we can’t see it, we believe in it and keep fighting by dealing with the origin of our confusions. And seek for understanding what we love. Because meaning resides in love and is only there when it’s realized and felt.
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