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does anyone feel like these past few months feb and march have been HORRIBLE ocd months? i feelnlike maybe for me it’s seasonal or something because i’m just excited for summer
does anyone feel like these past few months feb and march have been HORRIBLE ocd months? i feelnlike maybe for me it’s seasonal or something because i’m just excited for summer
Yes for me too before i was able to handle my ocd for the past 6 previous months but rn its super bad 🥲
@Mr.ocd i honestly really think it’s because of gloomy it’s been this winter ☹️
@arielcerda In part i agree but like intrusive thoughts came knocking down the door hard to, and i was like just checking this.....and i fell down the rabbit hole did one self reassurance question and it opened a whole bunch of other questions! 😭 I almost forgot how terrible my ocd gets since i been doing so good 🥲 wbu?
@Mr.ocd it’s been HELLA of a hard month for me i wake up everyday with anxiety and doom feeling all day until i go to bed😅 it’s not been fun at all
@arielcerda I get worn out by my ocd and cumpulsions pass out for a bit wake up and continue doing compulsions until it "feels right"
@Mr.ocd So i know wym i get so tired easily
@Mr.ocd i keep looking for reassurance in everything. my intrusive thoughts have been horrible to me lately it’s been hard to just let them flow without questioning my whole life being
@arielcerda Thats terrible i keep getting some type of reassurance then i get another intrusive thought and im back in the circle. Im starting to read my self help ocd books one i read the other i didnt but they helped me when i was at my worst
@Mr.ocd what book is it??
@arielcerda So i have 3 books 1-needing to know for sure By. Martin N seif and Sally M. Winston 2-Overcoming Unwanted intrusive thoughts By. Martin N Seif and Sally M. Winston 3- Rewire your Ocd brain By. Catherine M. Pittman and William H. Youngs So the second book is the follow up to the first, and the last book is seperate. I found peace in learning more about how ocd works from proffesionals knowledge about our ocd can help us. They show some examples rhat might be a bit triggerings for some themes but good books.
@Mr.ocd thanks a lot!! i will def look into these
@arielcerda You're welcome i hope they help ill be reading them too !!
Yes! I think not having enough sunlight and vitamin d can def make it harder for us around this time… it’s like the tail end of gloomy weather months when we are less active outside
Sun sets at 7pm ET by April first! Hang in there! Obviously it's different for everyone but the gloom doesn't have much longer
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This week has been my toughest in a while i get irritated when im at work and someone tries to talk to me while im trying to "solve" something using cumpulsions.
I talked to my OBGYN and we agreed I needed more D3 - huge difference in my energy and mood.
@Erin P DEFINITELY i’ve been contemplating using my happy light again
I bought this 10 mushroom protein powder by a company called OMM that i read was recommended to help the brain heal along with a whole bunch of other benefits its all organic non gmo pricey, have you tried any tyPe of mushroom supplements?
@Mr.ocd nope but i was planning on trying out Theanine gummies i heard were good with intrusive thoughts but not sure yet
@arielcerda Theanine? Id have to look it up ive never heard of it
@Mr.ocd Most supplements are terrible for me - D3 is the exception. But that’s just me.
It’s definitely been a hard last few weeks for me. How do you all cope with the ups and downs of OCD? I’m in the maintenance stage of ERP treatment currently, and still run into challenges
@cg2017 Self compassion, breaks to do something you enjoy, music if it helps you.
Usually id let the thoughts, urges and discomfort sit until it leaves but recenlty ive been succombing to my ocd sad to say
@Mr.ocd Sorry it’s so hard. These links help me even on bad days: https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/shoulders-back-the-man-in-the-park/ https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/erp-scripting-for-ocd/ https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/shoulders-back-the-man-in-the-park/
i’m in college and on my summer break now. i don’t have a job yet or much to occupy myself with and im finding it really difficult to keep my ocd under control. if i have nothing to do, i find myself sitting around and ruminating heavily and getting severely anxious and my thoughts just keep wandering. i don’t really feel peace of mind unless im with my boyfriend or my best friend, both of which i don’t get to see often because they’re very busy or live far away. im not sure how to keep myself busy and how to occupy my brain with something other than worries :(
i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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