I feel like I’m on the very edge tip toe of a nervous breakdown but there’s no where I can go. If I go to a hospital I’ll loose my job that I so desperately need. Then what life will I have anyway?
Why would you lose your job? Don't get despair, there is light at the end of the tunnel, my son was really bad and now he is taking medication and he is feeling good... is there a way for you to see a Dr.? You can always get another job, your mental health is more important...sending you blessings I hope you soon find a way to get better 🙏 🙏 ❤️
In my experience, I can’t really show up fully for other people if my mental health isn’t the greatest. I couldn’t really afford to go to an inpatient treatment center for OCD, although there seems to be some great options out there (I have been to inpatient treatment centers for other issues which were really helpful). I decided to just get a therapist that specializes in OCD and start doing ERP. Since I literally couldn’t find anyone anywhere near me, I eventually found NOCD. I got a therapist and started doing ERP sessions twice weekly, and also daily on my own. Over time, I began to get some more relief from the suffering from OCD than I previously had. I went from being hopeless about OCD recovery, to having hope again. If you have the opportunity, I highly suggest getting a therapist/trying ERP if you don’t have the option of going to inpatient/the hospital. I hope this helps in some way!
To add to what Anon said there are also half day options for ERP treatment (IOPs) - there are some good ones.
I totally resonate with this. I actually just had a couple of days where I lost it in front of friends and ended up staying over at their house. My friend has a baby and a husband and she stayed home to help take care of me because I was having such a bad episode. I also felt like I needed to go to the hospital. Try to make sure you’re eating and sleeping. I took a melatonin because anxiety was keeping me up all night long and robbing my appetite. So try to find food you can eat. Broths and liquids usually help me. Try not to skip meals. If you’re truly feeling that bad, you might consider seeing a psychiatrist about meds along with a therapist to help you practice ERP. I hope this helps and I’m praying for you. You’re not alone. Something my fiancé told me, “every storm has an end”. It can feel like you’ll never have peace but it will not last forever. There is hope. ❤️
Feeling extremely anxious at work rn feeling extremely hopeless. I feel like I’m turning into a monster and a crazy person . I can’t stop crying I had an anxiety attack in the bathroom. It won’t let me sleep I’m scared I will have an attack in front of all these people and they’ll send me to a mental hospital. I’m terrified and I feel alone . My brain keeps telling me no one can help me . Scared I’ll black out and kill someone . Or just turn into a completely different person entirely. Idk what to do . I don’t want to leave because the depression and anxiety will just eat me alive in my room I feel like I have no control of this anymore . I feel like the only way out is to end my life . Why did my life have to end up like this ? Why does my life have to end like this ? This was never what I wanted .
I cut myself for the first time today. Life's too hard, I dont know what to do. I got my first job and I'm starting tomorrow and I'm a wreck, I'm worried sick that I won't be able to work due to my social anxiety. I keep having suicidal thoughts. I feel trapped.
I have not held a job in nearly a year now. Not since my son came home from the hospital. Something makes me unable to be away from my house and not feel overwhelmed by the anxiety it causes. I am exhausted and tired and more stressed than ever. My husband has started verbally abusing me and making me feel like everything is always my fault. If he loses something I am the first to be blamed for it and he doesnt let up until it's found. If I am the one to find it it fuels him more to tell me how I am a thief and a liar when I haven't done anything wrong. I have started to question my value as a person and I have a pain in my chest that leaves me feeling suffocated and unable to function. I spend so much of my time defending myself and feeling unsure whether or not I should defe d myself at all. I'm losing my mind. I finally found a new job and yesterday when I got to work I had a message from my husband saying that I stole his medication and I had such a horrible panic attack that I passed out in my car. I woke up and was almost two hours late for work so then I freaked out and I was too afraid to go inside to work. I called the HR department and explained everything going on so I have to see a doctor and get their paperwork turned back in before I can return to my job. I'm worried that even if I do get the forms filled out that I still will lose my job. I am so worried. Rent hasn't been paid yet this month and I have been so stressed out that I have virtually shut down altogether. I have no motivation to do anything and I am having to watch my little boy suffer through all the fighting and all the crying. I actually chopped off my own hair this afternoon. I was fed up and I don't know why I did it but my husband was recording my panic attacks and getting a video of me freaking out made it obvious to me that he doesn't care about me anymore other than as something to entertain himself when he is bored. He has become someone I can't trust and it gets tiring having to protect myself and who I am at all times. I don't know how to get out of this situation because I have literally no money and I have no friends in this town. I guess I'm just looking to feel accepted somewhere. I feel like a failure and a let down. I feel like something is seriously wrong with me.
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