I feel like I’m on the very edge tip toe of a nervous breakdown but there’s no where I can go. If I go to a hospital I’ll loose my job that I so desperately need. Then what life will I have anyway?
Why would you lose your job? Don't get despair, there is light at the end of the tunnel, my son was really bad and now he is taking medication and he is feeling good... is there a way for you to see a Dr.? You can always get another job, your mental health is more important...sending you blessings I hope you soon find a way to get better 🙏 🙏 ❤️
In my experience, I can’t really show up fully for other people if my mental health isn’t the greatest. I couldn’t really afford to go to an inpatient treatment center for OCD, although there seems to be some great options out there (I have been to inpatient treatment centers for other issues which were really helpful). I decided to just get a therapist that specializes in OCD and start doing ERP. Since I literally couldn’t find anyone anywhere near me, I eventually found NOCD. I got a therapist and started doing ERP sessions twice weekly, and also daily on my own. Over time, I began to get some more relief from the suffering from OCD than I previously had. I went from being hopeless about OCD recovery, to having hope again. If you have the opportunity, I highly suggest getting a therapist/trying ERP if you don’t have the option of going to inpatient/the hospital. I hope this helps in some way!
To add to what Anon said there are also half day options for ERP treatment (IOPs) - there are some good ones.
I totally resonate with this. I actually just had a couple of days where I lost it in front of friends and ended up staying over at their house. My friend has a baby and a husband and she stayed home to help take care of me because I was having such a bad episode. I also felt like I needed to go to the hospital. Try to make sure you’re eating and sleeping. I took a melatonin because anxiety was keeping me up all night long and robbing my appetite. So try to find food you can eat. Broths and liquids usually help me. Try not to skip meals. If you’re truly feeling that bad, you might consider seeing a psychiatrist about meds along with a therapist to help you practice ERP. I hope this helps and I’m praying for you. You’re not alone. Something my fiancé told me, “every storm has an end”. It can feel like you’ll never have peace but it will not last forever. There is hope. ❤️
I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
I’ve been trying my best with ERP and just everything that’s going on. I have severe OCD, GAD, PMDD, panic disorder, recently diagnosed ADHD, and currently experiencing a major depressive episode. Apparently. I was taking a break from this app but I really need support right now. My family is honestly really mean and not understanding of what I’m going through. Right now it’s gotten bad to the point I had to withdrawal from my last semester of university. My only support is my boyfriend and he’s now planning to join the military. I won’t be able to talk to him for 3 months and I feel really scared of being alone with all of this. I know I shouldn’t depend on him to begin with but right now I’m at an extremely low point and I feel like I won’t make it alone. There hasn’t been a single day we haven’t texted and talked in 4 years. I feel really scared, but I don’t want to hold him back. You guys, I feel so sad and terrified right now. I don’t want him to go, he’s all I have.
Hello! I am really looking for some advice. I have been struggling with OCD for a few years now and it drastically affects my daily life. I am going to give a quick run through of my OCD, and then the current situation I am in now. So for almost 2 years now my most prominent themes of OCD have been getting sick with the stomach bug (emetaphobia) and watching someone die/ having to see large amount of blood or do CPR on someone (I just graduated nursing school). Last year I stopped eating out, wouldn’t touch any of my food with my hands, would wash my hands until they bleed every day, bleached everything I touched when I was in public etc… I would have these major panic attacks all the time and the thought of getting sick hasn’t left my head 24/7 for 2 years. I was unable to complete my nursing school clinicals due to panic attacks each time I was at the hospital afraid someone would die and get these terrible images in my head. I didn’t sleep ever, barely graduated. I did ERP after school and was able to make up the clinical days I missed. Got to a point where I was eating again, felt like I was able to get my hands clean just by washing them. I have been doing exposures every day, and have accepted that getting sick will probably happen at one point and I am okay with it as long as I am at home when it happens. So locking myself in my apartment for 48hr every time after I could have been exposed to the stomach bug is major progress for me and I have been overall doing much better. Fast forward to now: It’s time for me to start my new job on a med/surg floor in a hospital. This week I have made it through a few days of orientation with panic attacks day and night but I am doing it even though I am petrified. I don’t feel ready for this big of a step, being exposed to both of my biggest fears constantly. Today at orientation the girl sitting next to me told me she had been vomiting all day, and continued to run out of the room a vomit the rest of the day. I now am 90% sure I am going to get sick and feel as if I would rather die than continue this amount of stress and anxiety I have felt from just a few days of being on the job. This is my BIGGEST fear and it’s coming true and I don’t know if it’s worth putting myself through this every day at work to just be having constant panic attacks and be miserable. I know with OCD you have to face your fears but I have been pushing myself and trying so hard and I don’t feel like it’s worth it to work this job. I would also feel incredibly guilty for quitting on the first week, but there are a million other nursing jobs that are not in a hospital. I think this is too big of a step for me right now but I wanted to see what others think. Any advice at all is so appreciated!
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