I feel like I’m on the very edge tip toe of a nervous breakdown but there’s no where I can go. If I go to a hospital I’ll loose my job that I so desperately need. Then what life will I have anyway?
Why would you lose your job? Don't get despair, there is light at the end of the tunnel, my son was really bad and now he is taking medication and he is feeling good... is there a way for you to see a Dr.? You can always get another job, your mental health is more important...sending you blessings I hope you soon find a way to get better 🙏 🙏 ❤️
In my experience, I can’t really show up fully for other people if my mental health isn’t the greatest. I couldn’t really afford to go to an inpatient treatment center for OCD, although there seems to be some great options out there (I have been to inpatient treatment centers for other issues which were really helpful). I decided to just get a therapist that specializes in OCD and start doing ERP. Since I literally couldn’t find anyone anywhere near me, I eventually found NOCD. I got a therapist and started doing ERP sessions twice weekly, and also daily on my own. Over time, I began to get some more relief from the suffering from OCD than I previously had. I went from being hopeless about OCD recovery, to having hope again. If you have the opportunity, I highly suggest getting a therapist/trying ERP if you don’t have the option of going to inpatient/the hospital. I hope this helps in some way!
To add to what Anon said there are also half day options for ERP treatment (IOPs) - there are some good ones.
I totally resonate with this. I actually just had a couple of days where I lost it in front of friends and ended up staying over at their house. My friend has a baby and a husband and she stayed home to help take care of me because I was having such a bad episode. I also felt like I needed to go to the hospital. Try to make sure you’re eating and sleeping. I took a melatonin because anxiety was keeping me up all night long and robbing my appetite. So try to find food you can eat. Broths and liquids usually help me. Try not to skip meals. If you’re truly feeling that bad, you might consider seeing a psychiatrist about meds along with a therapist to help you practice ERP. I hope this helps and I’m praying for you. You’re not alone. Something my fiancé told me, “every storm has an end”. It can feel like you’ll never have peace but it will not last forever. There is hope. ❤️
I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.
I'm just venting, but everything is feeling so overwhelming lately. Every day, I still find myself checking on my ex. I know it sounds obsessive, but it’s not coming from a weird or stalkerish place. It just feels like I never got closure, and I’m stuck in this loop. I read that “closure is a choice, not a conversation,” and I try to believe that—but part of me still needs to know what he’s doing, like it gives me some weird sense of closure, even if it’s just temporary. And I hate that I’m like this. On top of that, I’ve been wanting to see my Pap, who is in the hospital in pretty severe condition but I never have time because I’m always working. My job is stressful. I try so hard, but my grooms don’t turn out the way I want, and I just feel like I’m failing. Then there's my financial situation—my car payment is $713 a month, plus insurance and other bills. I can’t save at all. Thankfully my mom pays the rent, but she constantly holds it over me and threatens to kick me out. It’s never felt stable at home, and now it’s worse. Lately, my childhood trauma is resurfacing, and it’s affecting everything—my friendships, any chance of a relationship, even my bond with my pets. I feel like I’m falling apart, and when I finally get in bed at night, I just feel hopeless. I look around and see people I went to school with thriving, and I feel so far behind. I used to feel ahead because I was already handling adult responsibilities, but now it feels like I’m stuck while everyone else is moving forward. I’m losing control of my emotions—randomly lashing out, struggling with anger—and I can’t afford therapy or even regular doctor visits. Sometimes I can’t even afford groceries, and it’s frustrating because I work hard and still feel like I’m drowning. I just want a simple, peaceful life: a modest home, a normal car, a stable routine. I want a support system. I want to feel connected like my friends Jessica and Ashley, but I don’t. It’s just me, but it’s still lonely. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I can’t get anything right. Like I’m always doing something wrong in someone’s eyes, and I have no one to turn to for help.
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