- Username
- meep.meep
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Is anyone else unsure about understanding their OCD experiences?
Really struggling...
Does anybody else feel like they're just constantly guessing at how to make sense out of OCD and the experience of it?
Really struggling...
Does anybody else feel like they're just constantly guessing at how to make sense out of OCD and the experience of it?
Yes and it is my daily existence ngl - it does get better with time and practice though.
In my experience, usually the more I try to rationalize OCD, the more I feed into the cycle. The more I’m able to embrace uncertainty, and let things just be and not judge as harshly, the more freedom I have from the cycle. This came from experience in ERP/therapy, and I’m still in the process of getting better at it. I try to view recovery as a marathon and not a sprint. I hope this helps in some way!
Yep and the term "OCD" just doesn't seem serious enough to justify what's going through my mind
Same
Thank you guys...
I just want to feel like I know myself again, like I can live in my own body and be myself, and I want to be able to understand what I'm experiencing in life. 😞 It seems like I have experienced how accepting uncertainty has helped me in some ways, but right now I'm wondering if I've just been lying to myself and creating another unhealthy pattern (my OCD has latched onto my relationship, so I'm specifically talking about that). I know no one can answer that for me. I'm just really struggling right now.
I feel like I don’t know how to deal with OCD anymore and I feel like I am burned out. Anyone else feeling like this? It is just defeating. Any ways to combat these feelings?
It’s so crazy how even though you have been through this a million times, when a new thought pops up or an old obsession resurfaces, it feels impossible to get through. You know the tools and you recognize the feelings, and yet somehow “this one” is different. It’s more serious, more disturbing, it’s a sign of your true desires, etc, etc. Taking the risk of uncertainty is not worth it “this time”because the consequences are too severe. Every time you start to make progress on an obsession or even just part of an obsession, you think you are finally getting the hang of it…and then ocd hits you back and it’s like all the confidence and progress you were starting to feel like you were developing gets blown away and in that moment you are back at the beginning. Ocd is truly diabolical and so smart. It causes so much suffering. I am so tired of making progress or even just maintaining my current obsessions just to get smacked in the face with something “different” and somehow “worse”. It is exhausting. One thing I never considered I would need to fight ocd and use erp was stamina. I really hope everyone out there struggling with ocd is doing ok. If you have ever felt like this, just know that I am in that same place.
Does anyone else feel like OCD is asking you to ruin your life and make decisions/things that you don't want to do because it's "what I secretly want"? It feels hard to even know what's real anymore.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond