meep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
Really struggling...
Does anybody else feel like they're just constantly guessing at how to make sense out of OCD and the experience of it?
Sunshine_:)Sunshine_:)
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes and it is my daily existence ngl - it does get better with time and practice though.
Anon.Anon.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
In my experience, usually the more I try to rationalize OCD, the more I feed into the cycle. The more I’m able to embrace uncertainty, and let things just be and not judge as harshly, the more freedom I have from the cycle. This came from experience in ERP/therapy, and I’m still in the process of getting better at it. I try to view recovery as a marathon and not a sprint. I hope this helps in some way!
Matt GMatt G
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yep and the term "OCD" just doesn't seem serious enough to justify what's going through my mind
Traveller Traveller
- Date posted
- 2y
Same
meep.meepmeep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
Thank you guys...
meep.meepmeep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
I just want to feel like I know myself again, like I can live in my own body and be myself, and I want to be able to understand what I'm experiencing in life. 😞 It seems like I have experienced how accepting uncertainty has helped me in some ways, but right now I'm wondering if I've just been lying to myself and creating another unhealthy pattern (my OCD has latched onto my relationship, so I'm specifically talking about that). I know no one can answer that for me. I'm just really struggling right now.
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frannyb
- Date posted
- 19w
I can't do this anymore
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
Conquering_OCD
- Date posted
- 15w
Knowing the difference
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
nevieocal
- Date posted
- 15w
Can someone please help me?
I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.
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