meep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
Really struggling...
Does anybody else feel like they're just constantly guessing at how to make sense out of OCD and the experience of it?
Sunshine_:)Sunshine_:)
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes and it is my daily existence ngl - it does get better with time and practice though.
Anon.Anon.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
In my experience, usually the more I try to rationalize OCD, the more I feed into the cycle. The more I’m able to embrace uncertainty, and let things just be and not judge as harshly, the more freedom I have from the cycle. This came from experience in ERP/therapy, and I’m still in the process of getting better at it. I try to view recovery as a marathon and not a sprint. I hope this helps in some way!
Matt GMatt G
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yep and the term "OCD" just doesn't seem serious enough to justify what's going through my mind
Traveller Traveller
- Date posted
- 2y
Same
meep.meepmeep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
Thank you guys...
meep.meepmeep.meep
- Date posted
- 2y
I just want to feel like I know myself again, like I can live in my own body and be myself, and I want to be able to understand what I'm experiencing in life. 😞 It seems like I have experienced how accepting uncertainty has helped me in some ways, but right now I'm wondering if I've just been lying to myself and creating another unhealthy pattern (my OCD has latched onto my relationship, so I'm specifically talking about that). I know no one can answer that for me. I'm just really struggling right now.
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- 23w
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- Date posted
- 22w
Can someone please help me?
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Anonymous
- Date posted
- 15w
Feel lost and without hope
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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