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I need help so I did this thing like a while ago multiple times I would Zoom in on pictures of guys in they're track suit at they're private place the thing is I have a bf and I felt bad and I'm like I'm in the wrong now I was watching a video it was like calling sex operators and I thought maybe I should do that now I've been thinking about what I thought for the past hour and what made it worse is that I remembered I zoomed in on a guy private part before that wasn't my bf I feel so quilts and dirty bro I feel like I'm cheating ikd if this is ocd or not but I'm scared to tell my bf I don't want to tell him hut at the same time I feel like it's wrong of me to keep such a thing I'm scared he will probably break up with me for this we been together for a year and 3 months I wanna cry bro I feel so guilty someone help have you been through this idk what to do I'm scared I don't want to yell him but I feel guilty for not aomeone help

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Hi. Just breathe. It sounds like to me like you could be experiencing relationship OCD (ROCD) but only a professional can tell you that. I know how that could feel. In the past when I was in a relationship I would constantly think about stuff that I did or might have done that made me feel guilty and or if I really loved my partner. I went as far as to “confess” to my partner what I had done. I thought in my head that I was doing it because I felt bad and I wanted to be honest with them but now that I look back at it, I know I was doing it more as a form of reassurance which is a compulsion, which makes the OCD stronger. Now I’m not suggesting that you lie or cheat or do anything in that sense. I’m just saying deep down inside you know if you really love your partner or not regardless of what the OCD is telling you so follow your heart not your thoughts and try not to do anything that you wouldn’t want your partner doing to you. Best of luck.

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

Ii feel guilty for the thought and when i zoomed in like months ago

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

If you don’t want to tell him don’t! That guilt you feel to tell him is OCD. And giving in to that would be a compulsion. Ask yourself, do you want to tell him because it’s something you think he needs to know? Or do you want to tell him to alleviate the OCD guilt you’re feeling?

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

Both bro I'm such a horrible girlfriend I wanna cry

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Thoughts are just thoughts.. no matter how horrible weird or disturbing they might be.. They don’t mean anything unless you choose to give them meaning. So next time you get a unwanted thought just label it in your head and try your best not to interact with it. Example: Guilty Thoughts. Then drop it. & try to move on with whatever you were doing. Or if it keeps popping up in your head you can say things like. Yea, maybe. Ok. Who knows? Could be. Or if you really want to be bold and mess with the ocd you can say things like that doesn’t horrible. I’d probably do it again. … you get my point. It’s a way to take the power back from it and tell it your in control. It could come along for the ride but you are in the driver seat. I know it’s easier said than done. Trust me I still struggle with it. It takes a lot of daily practice for you to truly start to believe in yourself again. But you can do it. We all can !!

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

One last thing it doesn’t matter if they are real event(s) ocd either. It works with everything

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Date posted: 21w

Question of curiosity

TMI!! Hey everyone, I was coming on here to ask if anyone has experienced this before! Im in an amazing relationship with my boyfriend so in this post I wanted to ask this question because this is how it felt to me! I remembered earlier today I was watching this movie, etc. and there was this spicy scene in it (iykyk) and it got me feeling some sort of way. This has happened before especially if I’ve played a game or watched a show with some content like this. I felt really in the mood and started to imagine my boyfriend and I doing those things together and I sort of decided to (yanno, the m word) hopefully everyone understands because I just don’t like saying the word😭, but I found that every time I do that, that’s when my ocd is at its worst/peak. Every time my mind has tried to convince me I’ve cheated, when I self pleasure. I get in the mood if I think of my boyfriend and I doing those things I see in movies, shows etc, and that’s when I’ll do it, But literally I realized after I’ve done that at times my ocd is at its worst because my mind will attack me constantly asking “Is this cheating? Does this make me a horrible girlfriend?” If I self pleasure, I also want to add that I mentioned it to my boyfriend at one time and he told me it wasn’t at all and that everything is okay, but constantly I feel guilty for it and extremely horrible. Just wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this?

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

Masterbation OCD/real event OCD

I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that

Anonymous

Date posted: 10w

PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE. I'M BEGGING.

Okay so I'm young. A bit young than u might Imagine. Me and my boyfriend where bored and I searched up gay porn js as a joke on google. It was completely blurred. And we where js talking about our truma, and personal stuff while literally just looking at the titles. And I saw a title. A title that has trumstixed me before (I saw the actual video before involving a minor. ) and I clicked on it, still heavily blurred to show my boyfriend the title. And i said baby this really effected me this video. And then I looked below it, same video, blurred. Different title. And I clicked on it to stupidly read the other title. And it FUCKING UNBLURRED. and I SCREAMED saying to my boyfriend if he saw it. And he said no he looked away. And he was so unfazed. And I asked chat gpt about it and it said what I done was NOT okay. Because I looked at child stuff on purpose? My heart has just SANK. self harm urges are back. INTENSE confession compulsions to my mum are back. What do I do. Please someone help.

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