Upset

I feel really broken right now. I just feel like I don’t have ocd. My thoughts feel so real. They feel like feelings or instinct, but I KNOW I am a good person. Idk maybe I am sympathizing with myself too much. I am just scared that my friends or family will find out what is in my head. I don’t want them to hurt. I just want to stop feeling so guilty over something I cannot control. I am doing my best but it is so hard hurting all the time. I just wish I could be normal. I look at other people around me and on tv and I just think I am missing out on a wonderful life. I am scared that I am just going to keep on going and never find that light at the end of the tunnel. but I am trying. I just sometimes feel like I am morning a life I could have had. Sometimes I feel like I am not trying hard enough. And then life just piles up and I just need a break.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

I feel the same way recently, it can be so rough and people without ocd can empathize but they’ll never truly get it. I hope you know you’re not alone, and it’ll take some work but you will be okay friend

1Jwg3tb3tter

Date posted: 13w ago

I don’t like myself

I’m really down and don’t have anyone i feel i can turn to. I’m just so tired of living as myself. I hate who i love with including myself. I feel so worthless. Having ocd on top of it makes me feel like im just a waste of space. I dont know how to stop feeling this way. Or if i deserve to. That’s all :(

frannyb

Date posted: 12w ago

I can't do this anymore

I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 12w ago

I don’t know what’s wrong

I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy

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