It’s like it’s uncontrollable. I’m so mean to the people I love most, I’m so mean to my family and my boyfriend. They don’t do anything but when they make me nervous or upset or I just feel like it I am. What the hell is wrong with me it’s only to them.
I struggle with the same thing with my boyfriend. Thankfully, he’s very patient and kind about it. I don’t know the cause but I think for me it may be a defense mechanism or from past relationship trauma. I think having a conversation about it and explaining how you feel when you get upset. It may just help them understand:) im sure they know you don’t mean to
I go through this too
I dealt with this for YEARS. I feel like learning to let the vulnerability out openly was the only thing that let me get past this problem.
@PeachMR I agree. Sometimes when people show us love and kindness, it’s like something in us on some level believes we don’t deserve it. Please believe me when I say that all of you do deserve it.
@Anonymous Adding to my post above, sometimes we push away the ones we love because our emotions are just so strong, it’s easier to shut them down because we’re scared. We need to start getting comfortable with feeling our emotions.