- Username
- K-M
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Fear of failing as a Godly wife
When I was younger and I first learned about submitting to a husband, I remember saying I was looking forward to that (I was 20). Now that I’m married, and that exact scripture has been used against me when I wanted to make my own decision about getting Botox and my husband told me no, I have so much fear with it, yet I STILL want to do it. I’m triggered by watching Christian women and couples on YouTube talking about what a godly marriage is supposed to look like because I just feel like a failure. I want to obey God and please God wholeheartedly, and the other part of me is fighting for my autonomy. My new therapist and I are gonna do some trauma work (I’ve done A LOT over the years), so hopefully that can help any deep rooted issues I have. I’m just full of anxiety today and I get anxious reading the scriptures, wondering if I made a mistake and I’m not fit to be a wife. Just venting my sweet friends 💋 love you all.