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- Drepet123
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- 5y ago
I was really afraid at first too. my therapist kept coaxing me and said don't read the black box warning and try to resist googling but I only remembered hearing about bad side effects. she was treating me for a while before she recommended medication because I wasn't making much progress. I was still scared but my OCD was so bad that I became willing to try about anything. much improved after facing my fears.
if you feel that you're improving well enough with other methods then that's fantastic! I still have most of my bottle of clonazepam which I take rarely as needed.
I am dealing with the same fear. Everyone is different when it comes to how medication works on them. It could go any way for you or myself. Anything could happen, and that includes feeling better. I want to take the chance to have a bit of relief, but I am terrified of the effects too. Mostly psychosis, or losing control. I’m not afraid of becoming “numb” or “zoned” or “have no libido” because I already have all those things anyway. Lol.
I had to exact opposite. I begged for tranquilizers because I was terrified I'd kill myself without them.
In the beginning I was in so much distress I wanted to be sedated 24/7.
that's the point when I was willing to try. in bed all the time and becoming suicidal, I didn't think it could get much worse, especially since I was already convinced I had schizophrenia.
Mine isn’t really that as much as the side effects scare me. Mine is more the anxiety that surrounds the med because I already have so much anxiety as is. I hope you have a good recovery. Welcome to the community!!!
Yeah I too was afraid of having something much worse or if I took a med it would cause some sort of a psychotic snap or episode. Which I know is a ridiculous fear. I’m doing great during the day overall it’s just some nights I wake up out of a dead sleep all panicked and those are the times it would be nice to feel comfortable taking a med if needed because in the middle of the night it’s hard to remember the breathing techniques etc
I’m having a terrible night. I’ve been in a panicked state for a couple of hours. I’ve been prescribed a medication for when I’m extremely anxious, but I’m reluctant to use it because I’m worried I’m going to become addicted or something ? (even though my doctor assured me I can’t become addicted!) Can anyone offer some advice/experiences? Thank you! d a i s y
Anyone else scared of SSRIS? I’ve read too many horror stories online that have made me terrified to take them.. plus I have suicide themed ocd and my biggest fear is them making me want to for real… I just don’t know how to get over this I’m just so tired of struggling and being stuck and letting these thoughts rule my life..
Hello everyone! I have been through a whirlwind of mental health struggles but OCD feels like it might be “running the show” and I didn’t know if anyone else could relate The first time I got told I was struggling with ocd was by a therapist only a few months ago who said I “fall under the cloud of harm ocd” This lead me to a downward spiral because I had never had a mental health diagnosis before and I was so scared right away that nobody would believe me or help me. I feel like my life has been so out of control over the last few months. I’m dealing with some other things such as big life changes and identity crisis (fresh out of college, no longer a student athlete, came out to my family). I had to leave my first job as an icu nurse for the immense distress it caused me as i was working day/night rotating shifts and being triggered unknowingly to some trauma that I didn’t even know I was holding onto. I now experience heavy mood swings and dissociation at times related to ptsd and I feel like life just isn’t the same. I’m in such a tough spot because I seem to have a fear of being misdiagnosed/improperly treated, a fear of taking meds, a fear of unintentionally harming myself, and my needs for safety reassurance are so strong that I’m back home with my parents and scared to do anything. I’m a nurse as well so I know way too much about the meds and side effects. At the end of the day, the logical part of my brain wants meds to help me , but the fear or starting meds, the side effects, and the trial and error of them not knowing what will work leaves me stuck and feeling hopeless. I always end up thinking that I could just feel better if I jumped back into my normal busy life, but when I do so and get triggered (ocd or ptsd) I am left hopeless and begging my parents to get me on meds. Each appointment though leads to significant anxiety and like I have to say every single detail , which ends in me getting frustrated and confused not wanting to take meds after all because i don’t think they have the full picture. I had a bad experience with Zoloft bringing out manic symptoms when I first started it. It was terrifying. I’ve been switching provider to provider trying to find someone I trust, but in the mean time my anxiety is worsening and I feel more confused of what my symptoms really are in the first place. I have Xanax that I can take 3x daily but I don’t like feeling like I’m going to get addicted to it if I keep taking it and avoid getting on long term meds. I don’t trust any doctors and I feel the need to tell them every single little detail which I feel like leads to further frustration and maybe even impaired treatment plans. I’m sorry if this is a lot but I’m really struggling and needing some support and guidance 😭
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