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I was really afraid at first too. my therapist kept coaxing me and said don't read the black box warning and try to resist googling but I only remembered hearing about bad side effects. she was treating me for a while before she recommended medication because I wasn't making much progress. I was still scared but my OCD was so bad that I became willing to try about anything. much improved after facing my fears.
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- 6y
if you feel that you're improving well enough with other methods then that's fantastic! I still have most of my bottle of clonazepam which I take rarely as needed.
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I am dealing with the same fear. Everyone is different when it comes to how medication works on them. It could go any way for you or myself. Anything could happen, and that includes feeling better. I want to take the chance to have a bit of relief, but I am terrified of the effects too. Mostly psychosis, or losing control. I’m not afraid of becoming “numb” or “zoned” or “have no libido” because I already have all those things anyway. Lol.
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I had to exact opposite. I begged for tranquilizers because I was terrified I'd kill myself without them.
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In the beginning I was in so much distress I wanted to be sedated 24/7.
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that's the point when I was willing to try. in bed all the time and becoming suicidal, I didn't think it could get much worse, especially since I was already convinced I had schizophrenia.
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Mine isn’t really that as much as the side effects scare me. Mine is more the anxiety that surrounds the med because I already have so much anxiety as is. I hope you have a good recovery. Welcome to the community!!!
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Yeah I too was afraid of having something much worse or if I took a med it would cause some sort of a psychotic snap or episode. Which I know is a ridiculous fear. I’m doing great during the day overall it’s just some nights I wake up out of a dead sleep all panicked and those are the times it would be nice to feel comfortable taking a med if needed because in the middle of the night it’s hard to remember the breathing techniques etc
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- 24w
Hi everyone, I’m 23 and have been on Zoloft since I was 16. For the past couple months I’ve been having panic attacks more and I’m sick of feeling like a zombie everyday. My boyfriend said I’m very sad and unhappy then when I first met him 2 years ago…. He thinks it’s the medicine. Throughout the years I have upped and lowered my medication, but now, I feel as though it’s not helping. Either it was too much where I didn’t feel emotions at all like very scary stuff or it wasn’t enough to help me. I was given 5mg of Lexapro to try…. I’m scared to take it. All I know is how Zoloft is. I don’t want to go crazy on it, be allergic to it, etc. I feel like I’m going to trip myself out when I take it and not actually feel the difference. I could really use some positive feedback I really just want to be a normal human😭
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I am having an appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon and I am obsessing about what to do with my medication. I think it’s also very ocd like obsessing. I am currently on 30mg mirtazapine. Ive been on this for years (because of insomnia, anxiety and depression) (15mg) and after we tried to switch to another (amitryptiline) because of nerve pain, I went down the road of insomnia and later on ocd again. So I am back on mirtazapine, and weaning off of the amitryptiline. This is/was a very traumatic experience. Because the switch caused a mental breakdown. Now my psychiatrist has mentioned to up the mirtazapine to 45mg. And my obsessive self has done a lot of research and a lot is saying that the higher the dose, the more you can experience anxiety. And for ocd it’s obviously not the first choice. I am obsessing all morning about it. I am too scared to go up. But I am also too scared to try another and to wean myself of off mirtazapine. I feel stuck at this point. Taking two meds is also not something I want. I could really use some words of encouragement right now I think. 🥹
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- 13w
i am nearly constantly extremely anxious and i don't want to live like this. my family and friends are so done dealing with me to the point that i feel that i'd be better off completely alone. every small twinge or pain in my body sends me into a panic, and if it's not that it's something else i manage to be worrying over. i'm fairly certain my stress has caused an ulcer to form. i try to sit with myself and not seek reassurance/check myself for issues but it is genuinely agonizing at times. most days i sleep 12-14 hours a day because it gets to a point that i cannot deal with it anymore and i take something to sleep. sometimes i do feel that i would be better off just not around so i wouldn't have to feel this any longer. i do a lot of unhealthy things to cope (drinking, smoking, and otc sleeping pills being the main culprits) and those habits end up hurting me in the long run and making me more anxious. i do have a counselor and she is great but i'm having a really hard time finding a medication provider under my insurance. i really really do want to get better because this is the most miserable i have ever been and i hate being like this and exhausting myself and the people around me. i've been told a big part of the healing process is to make yourself sit with your thoughts and deal with the uncertainty and fear as it comes, but it feels torturous to do that. sometimes reading through these posts does make me feel better knowing that i'm not alone but lately i have been unable to pull myself out of this frantic state. what are some healthier ways to cope/distract yourself that you guys find to be at least semi-effective? i am genuinely willing to try anything to make this terrible feeling go away
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