THOUGHT OR EMOTIONAL CONTAMINATION OCD

Is there anyone out there who suffers from probably the worst kind of ocd, the so called emotional or thought contamination ocd? I have lost basically almost all one can lose in life because of it. It almost ruined my life. I've been seeing a psychiatrists and a clinical psychologist, but none of them have much knowledge of ocd in general , and have never Heard of my type of ocd. I get no support whatsoever. I am all alone fighting Ocd, Well with the help of an AD, that helps somewhat, but has such side effects that I can hardly function anymore. Without it, I would have killed myself sooner or later. Exposure Response prevention therapy is not for me. I would rather commit suicide. I dont know how to fight it. Is there anyone outthere who knows what I am talking about? Is there Anyone who has actually found a way to wink the war with ocd? I only have a husband. Nobody Else. He's been through hell with me. How do I help him understand what I am going through and why and what ocd is. I dont want ocd Take him away too. I've lost everybody Else due to ocd. I feel so much love and compassion for each and everyone of you suffering with ocd. I wish I could hug you all. I Feel So hopeless from time to time and I wish I had someone who understands to hug me. My hubby is far away for the time being on account of his job. Well, He would hug me, but still, after 18 years together, he does not understand it. My Best wishes to All of you. Love.

Username: DealingwithOCD_DealingwithOCD_

Date posted: 1y ago

I literally just learned about this term today emotional contamination and didn’t even realize I was experiencing it probably. I had a friend share how they felt toward me and I feel like it mentally/emotionally contaminated me and I feel like I’m experiencing all sorts of feelings and thoughts that I dont want to accept or feel all because my friend shared it with me.

Username: NODANODA

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello. Thank you So much for replying. I am sorry you are experiencing it, too. In my case, there are people in my life, who I like and with time dissapoint me, either by using me or stab me in my back of just step all over me and humiliate me for no reason, just because they can, because I am nice and never stand up for myself and just like that they become the center target for my ocd. I avoid them in all forms. No contact, I can't bare to See them, to communicate with them, I do everything possible to avoid them and everything and everyone connected with them. Their friends, family, coworkers, places they work, live, go to, Things they like, musicians they Listen to, social Media they use. I cannot use Instagram or Facebook just because they have an Account there. I cant say their name or See it written anywhere. It is always 1 Person at a time that is the centre of it all. Then the circle spreads continuously to their spouses, childrens, neighbours,.... It is horrible. After 4 or 6 years a new Person with their people takes the centre of ocd's target and the previous one means nothing anymore. I've had days where I had to Take so many showers and clean my clothes or belongings that it took up to 8 to 10 hours of my day at my lowest point just because I got contacted by them or by someone who lives where they live or work,... When I go out, eventhough I live far away from them, I am scared I might see one of them anyway. I have lost my whole family over ocd. I've had noone for over 25 years. Nobody understood it. They hated me. I had to run away. And Ocd was in its Baby steps of now Ocd back Then. I am not afraid I will turn i to people I obsses over. I just Feel so dirty all over even If I just See sth somehow connected with them and not them at all. I need to wash myself, my clothes, everything I had on me at the time, and then me again, the shower itself and then me again. If I don't, and go on with whatever in my home, later on I will have to clean or avoid touching anything I came in touch with before I took a shower. I wouldn't wish that on my or anybody's worst enemy. How are you doing? Getting any Support? Do you Feel safe and loved and understood? I sincerely hope so. Hug.

Username: abi.kailabi.kail

Date posted: 1y ago

i also have emotional contamination ocd and it's very difficult for me. i'm in college and i desperately want to be able to meet people, and make connections, but all i want to do is isolate myself so i dont have to experience anything new or if someone is different from me, i'm afraid i'm going to become like them in bad ways. life if i meet someone who's not smart as me, i'm afraid i'll become dumb, or dirty or anything. i want to be social, but i can't bring myself to meet anyone new

Username: NODANODA

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello dear Abi. Yeah, that is it. One way of the debilitating emotional contamination ocd. I am very happy you're studying psychology. Maybe you will be able to help people with ocd. First, yourself and then others. If you manage to get this type of ocd under control, you'll be a great winner and will be able to help with any type ocd. How do you Feel about Exposure Response prevention therapy. I just cant get myself to do it. Are you on any meds? Are they helping? Big hug from Europe. You are NOT alone!

Username: benno

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi there I feel rather alone with my OCD Iv suffered from contamination OCD for almost 20 years, I have OCD about a unattractive girl who went to the same high school as me, I feel compelled to wash my hands with disinfectant if I come into contact with anything she may have touched I also have a mild dose of intrusive thought OCD and religious OCD I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar in regards to the contamination OCD

Contamination OCD

Username: NODA

Date posted: 1y ago

Emotional contamination ocd

Can we please talk about the emotional or thought contamination ocd. I would be so grateful for other people's experience.

Username: Maddybug53

Date posted: 1y ago

Contamination ocd

Hello everyone, I'm new here and have severe contamination ocd that has been happening the past four years since I was 20. I'm 24 now and it seems to be getting worse. I don't want to be around kids because I know they're germy little gremlins and carry the main thing I fear that caused my ocd to worsen. I shower whenever anything above my chest has been touched (neck, face, hair). I wash my clothes after one wear because they feel contaminated after the use. I refuse to let people touch my bed or clean clothes. If I hear that anyone in my family is sick I freak out intensely and have to stay away from them. I also shower if I've been in public and people were coughing near me. If I don't feel like showering and that my above triggers aren't contaminated I just wash my arms up to the elbow and go to sleep because I sleep in short sleeve shirts and my arms touch everything all day. I refuse to touch my face, neck or hair after touching my phone or anything else. I bring a travel blanket with me but have to wash it after every use. I use my shoe to open doors and press the cross walk button. If I can't use my shoe I use my pinkie and immediately handsanitize sometimes twice just to have my hands feel clean. I have to use a utensil to eat when in a restaurant and would ask to change it if I see it touch anything. I work at a place that requires me to use a phone so I have to shower and wash my ear. I hold my breath when walking past people. I can't sit back in the car or on the couch because it'll contaminate my neck and hair. I also have to do a double wash with my hands to feel clean. I used to do it for 20 seconds but I do the hand wash for 20 the 1st time then 30 for the second. I can't wear purses with straps that touch my shoulders, same with back packs. And I use so much soap and lotion that don't help keep my hands moisturized. And if I get triggered by anything I sit there in a quiet rage and ramble in my head because I know saying anything out loud will have me look crazy. There are times though that I get angry and close to tears when it feels like I've been contaminated and when my family makes fun of me for things I feel I have no control over especially the intrusive thoughts, emotions, anger, fear, and tiredness I feel on a daily basis. I'm scared of doing exposure therapy because I know they'll have me touch something contaminated and have me touch my face and not wash it how does that help it'll just make me angry.

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