Is it normal that when I look around I feel paranoid and I’m hyper aware of my surroundings like the world isn’t clear and it’s quite blurry and looks pixely, like I can’t concentrate. I don’t want schizophrenia Is this just the ocd and has someone ever overcome this?
Also let me ask, do you spend alot of time alone, just playing video games, like myself lol? thats when ill get the feeling for amoment or surge of fear that something's not right ( but thats because we havea deep-seated fear of losing it lol, in fact thats what triggered my ocd agian a few days ago
@marioooooo I had a big panic attack 3 weeks ago and that’s what started these themes, playing video games is the only thing that distracts me and makes me feel like myself.
@Chihuahuaprincess - haha ya im playing games right now,, i feel the same, its a feeling of home when on the computer, becauyse of spent so many years on it now due to social anxiety etc, i know how you feel
@Chihuahuaprincess - so does social contact, talking with people make it better or worse? most of my schiz ocd worries are internal, bad images etc, unless im really panicked then ill flip out if a leaf blows on thr ground out of the corner of my eye, as if an hallucination or something stupid
@marioooooo Same but my psychologist told me I shouldn’t but it’s the only way I feel myself as soon as I get off I disassociate and feel horrible and yeah same I have bad social anxiety too
@Chihuahuaprincess - How long has this been happening? and if more then the last 3 weeks did you ever get better overtime?
@marioooooo I’ll explain why I’m anxious HAHA so basically I had a bad ocd episode 4 years ago and my mum said next ur gonna convince urself you have schizophrenia and then I was like what’s that and she told me and I got anxious.. I always feared it but I went on with my day and it didn’t bother me cause I wasn’t convincing myself I have it. 3 weeks ago had a bad panic attack and I started worrying about the world not existing, harm ocd and now schizophrenia ocd. Saw some tik toks that made me anxious like one said if u see shadows u have it and I didn’t see shadows but I was paranoid and kept looking around and staring at walls. Now I just feel as my vision has a wall keeping me from seeing stuff and it’s there like I’m paranoid that something is there but I can’t see it idk man it’s so stressful I’m over it. I miss doing my makeup and hair and going out now I just sit in bed and cry and play on my switch all day it’s so crap.
@marioooooo I was feeling a bit better yesterday but i still feel anxious everyday
@Chihuahuaprincess - well that should tell you most of what you should know, First it started as anxiety, so its very likely anxiety and anxiety has now manifested as these imagined feelings, which under stress can cause disassociation. Im not a doctor but as you said something triggered your anxiety so you can lead the whole chain of events back to it. So yeah everything i read here started from anxiety and now your imagination latched onto things youve watched on tik tok. i suggest not researching anymore about mental illness, i made that mistake to. Your number one priority must be to lower your adrenaline and turn off that amygdala in your brain ( the fear center of your brain). if you can manage that then your feelings of dissasciation should allievate a bit, its like watching the tide come in and go bakc out, you gotta lride through the storm and let go. its not easy and my experianc eis mostly with paranoid thoughts and things related to my bad drug experiance but yeah only thing i can suggest is to lower your anxiety any way you can, eventually those visual cues that your brain is screaming at you with will feel less scary because you will know they are not real.
@marioooooo I try to but I’ve been having auditory hallucinations as I fall asleep which is normal but what’s not normal was I have been having them all week which my psychologist and doctor said I can be manifesting them due to my anxiety but it just prevents me from getting better because I can’t sleep well and I remembered how when I was younger I saw spiders on my bed when they weren’t there once, no one can explain that one but I have to live with the uncertainty sadly but I don’t think I can I’m too anxious.
@marioooooo I have been staying away from searching it up and I’m trying to not seek reassurance but it’s so hard
@Chihuahuaprincess - and trust me when the panic attack cease, and you regain control, any ocd that comes in will become a joke, you'll be like, " oh ya nice try ocd that trick agian, really shadows in the corner of my eyes, yeah right", and youll laugh it off like i once did, ( im also in a vulnerable spot right now). Anyway you gotta reset your anxiety, and rejog your brain into normal activites, honestly force yourself to be with those you love, family member, tell them your scared and you need support, be social as best you can, even if social anxiety is scarier, im sure youll agree this ocd fear you have is much worse then facing social anxiety? In a way ocd and this fear has helped me become more social. Have a goodnight. ill check back in later, add me if you want support, im new here haha
@marioooooo - social anxiety is scary* not scarier
@marioooooo I sure hope I get to the point that I laugh and think it’s silly it seems like I’ll never get to that point but I’m gonna hold onto it! And you can’t add people on here sadly hopefully they will add that feature one day but I feel a lot more settled thank you for sharing your experience it makes me feel less alone and less crazy! Have a good night too.
@Chihuahuaprincess - read the thread once more so ill answer what i can, i believe it is completely normal for young children to see things that are not there, or have imaginary friends that they believe are real. as for the auditory hallucinations, ill get that brain chatter crap to ( although i perceive it as internal chatter but im sure its quite possible to perceive it as external), and sometimes even sudden scary sounds or random giberish, thats due to the panic and anxiety and ocd, your brain is still processing all that crap, yet you are trying to fall asleep, agian im not a doctor but that makes sense, i take seraquel, lowest dose, or lorazapam to fall asleep when I'm in the panic attack phase of ocd. Again you will exit the panic attack phase eventually
@marioooooo I thought that was all normal but of course the ocd likes to make me think otherwise 😭
I’ve done this for yearssss now
@justsomone1 Do you reckon it’s the ocd?
@Chihuahuaprincess I honestly don’t know , do you struggle with dissociation?
@justsomone1 Yeah
@Chihuahuaprincess I’d think it’s that tbh that’s what I’ve always thought
fear can impersonate feelings of disassociation etc, feelings that things aren't real or if something odd happens in the enevironment you can think did that really happen? but with ocd its not just a simple thing, its an actual fear that you were seeing something that didnt happen.
one last thing to add, i read somwewhere that extreme fear and anxiety can make you disassociate, so if your constantly scared of mental illness and having panic attacks you coudl perhaps dissasciate, i thinkt hats your brains way of protecting itself. ik i had that pixelated vision and wierd bodily sensation thing for like 45 minutes once following a panic attack. The nurse at the hospital took blood from me and all of a sudden i was back, perhaps it drained the adrenaline from my blood? of course i had bad ocd for weeks following that episode lol, i figured it was a flashback to my bad drug experiance in 2014 which caused all of my ocd fear in the first place lmao. anyway its a thing we're not alone i guess
You dont happen to play a game called runescape on PC do you lmao?
@marioooooo It sounds familiar but I don’t think I’ve played it no, I play roblox religiously though HAHA.
@Chihuahuaprincess - well i play switch, very rarely, mario kart mostly. my friend code is "SW-3249-3818-7489" name is ColdTurkey, if you want a friend to play mario kart lol
@marioooooo Ok I’ll add you one sec
@Chihuahuaprincess - recieved =)
@marioooooo We will definitely play sometime
Hi about a week ago I found out I have ocd and chronic anxiety! I tried zoloft and it was terrible for me. I also started therapy and I take hydroxyzine but I will discuss further medication with my doctor. My question is I have a huge fear that I'm going crazy, I am crazy, or schizophrenic to the point I'm so hyper aware of my surrounding ill look out the corner of my eye to make sure I'm nit seeing anything ill make sure to double check what I'm hearing and it's so draining! I get really scared and go into a panic and cry 😅 I need some reassurance has anyone felt this way my doctor and therapist explained it to me but I'm still very scared. I feel like one day I'll have a break and I won't be the same! I tried the grounding exercise and breathing it helps temporarily. I also cut out smoking weed and none of my family has this but I feel like I have it or ill develope it even though it's rare!
My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?
i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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