Anyone notice it’s hard to enjoy things before your brain felt like it broke? My family is the nicest kindest people and I feel like I spend so much time on ocd that I don’t even enjoy them. I put on a smile but on the inside I don’t feel genuine. My faith has also been a huge part of my life and I’m just numb to everything right now. Hope everyone is having a good weekend and can enjoy things.
I relate so much! I feel so guilty for always talking about OCD with my family. They’re wonderful people and I hate just dumping all of my OCD problems on them all the time. And my faith has been a big target from my OCD as well…we’ve got this, though! I believe in you, you’re going to get through this, no matter what.!!
@Anonymous Thank you, you too. You’re right we got this!
I'm right there with you all too
So true. My brain is busy worrying about how late I will be to a family event because of my ocd rituals or if I will miss it - instead of being excited that I may get to see them even if for a short time. ERP therapy has helped me with not feeling numb or fake anymore for the most part but I still struggle with events that are scheduled at a time when I know I will be engaged in my remaining ocd rituals.
OCD has definitely made me feel isolated and cut off from everything important in my life, especially my friends and family. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare world while everyone else lives in reality. I've also recently lost the motivation to work on creative projects that I used to be passionate about, which is really distressing for me. It's like the OCD hijacked my imagination and used it to cut me off from the rest of my life.
I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.
I’ve experienced OCD since I was 11 years old (I am 29 now), and was diagnosed with it in 2021. So, I’ve lived more than half of my life dealing with this disorder in silence. I’ve recently been feeling like I’m no longer a good person. That all of the things I’ve held close to my heart and loved, no longer matter to me. As much as I try to go back to those things, it sometimes feels so foreign and makes me feel anxious. Has anybody else experienced this before? If so, what are some things you’ve done to help you find happiness and joy in the things you’ve cherished?
Does anyone else feel like your OCD goes after everything that’s important or precious to you? Like if you have a dear memory of something, your mind will try to tell you why that’s wrong or bad even when you know it’s something perfectly pure and a happy memory. I feel so beat up by this illness.. it steals my joy. Only Jesus can help me, only he knows just how bad this torment in my head is.
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