Ok so I'm having a full blown panic attack, I feel like im in denial and the thoughts are true. I don't want them to be true and im panicking so much I feel like I cant breathe or think and I have a knot in my throat like I want to cry. I don't want the thoughts to be true. I feel like screaming
I know how real it feels. I’ve been exactly where you are. Your doing a good job. Just keep breathing. I know how scary these thoughts are. I know we’re not supposed to give reassurance. But it’s also a fact that OCD suffers never act on their thoughts. It’s never happened once. This is all an illusion created by the fight or flight response in your brain. See it for what it is. A LIE
My obsession is real event :( it's horrible, I can't even talk about it. I just wanna cry I feel so horrible
@Solaris Girl I’ve been there before. Just remember. Your obsession isn’t special. If you’ve had it, thousands of others have. Your not the only one. If you need someone to talk to who’s been thru the ringer and has some experience. Add me on snap. My user is djbridgewashere. I’m always open to listening and helping in whatever way I can. Your doing GOOD. I’m so proud of you. Whatever thoughts are popping up are not YOU. You are a separate whole person from the darkness.
@Solaris It may be a real event, but that doesn’t mean the thoughts about the event are true. Stay strong and consult a therapist if you can, or reach out the NOCD virtual chat. I think they have a 24/7 hotline too. Be brave and pursue healing. Exposure therapy has helped me significantly. You got this. You are loved. ❤️I have felt that EXACT same way before and I completely understand how terrible it makes you and your body feel, like it’s being twisted up in knots.
@Anonymous It’s so scary sometimes right now I can’t relax because the doubt of what if I actually want to do these things is eating me up :(
@Brooklyn_99 But what if its not ocd this time? Also I went on quota even tho I know I shouldn't and I got really trigerred again. I can't sleep
@Solaris "What if it's not ocd this time?". I'm asking myself this question right now. I like to imagine that OCD is behind it too. Yesterday I read more than 5 articles over my theme and checked multiple answers on quora. Nothing satisfied my doubt.
@Solaris To stop the panic. You must stop the rumination. If you were truly that horrible person, you wouldn’t be worried about it to begin with. You will never find the answer your looking for. Searching will just dig you deeper into the rabbit hole. There is no fear, thought, emotion that you can tear apart and search that you will find an answer for. It’s IMPOSSIBLE. After you get into practice of cutting off the rumination and searching, lower your compulsions, let your thoughts just be thoughts. You will start healing. Healing is inevitable if you do the right things. Rumination is a compulsion, the biggest monster for OCD suffers. Take away the rumination, you take away the power, panic and fear. I still ruminate but I catch myself now at the start and hit my OCD with “ you want certainty, and I’m not going to give you what you want”. I’m changing how I respond to things and it’s WORKING. I’m doing so well I’ve found myself naturally doubting my OCD! Like nah. That some bullshit. Like I doubt it so much the emotions aren’t intense like they used to be. And if they spike it’s only for a second. Remember. Take away the rumination you take away it’s power!
@Brooklyn_99 So is planning scenarios in the case the obsession is true a compulsion ?
@Brooklyn_99 I will definetly try to cut down on rumination. I think sometimes i just dont recognize the rumination?
@Solaris Yup. Playing out scenarios is rumination. Rumination is sneakyyyy
Just focus on breathing slowly. That’s all you have to do right now. In thru your nose. And out thru your mouth.
I also add splashing cold water on your face. It helps activate the dive response. Take some deep breaths. Get some water. A cozy blanket. You'll be okay.
Just think of alpacas and fluffy animals
Im so scared i wish my brain would send me in to derealisation, im 13 years old and my OCD honestly gives me the most disgusting thoughts I can’t take it anymore my head turns everything into a sexual thought and I can’t even look at my own mom anymore because of them they are really and honestly the most messed up thoughts I could ever think of and I’m so scared idk what to do, I’m on Prozac and going to start ERP soon but I’m still so insanely scared I have lost myself, I’m only just been diagnosed with ocd and don’t know everything abt it but just keep on panicking about everything😭😞😢
I just had a panic attack. It feels too real. It feels like I don’t have feelings for him anymore. Why is this happening? Why don’t I feel anything? Why don’t I love him? Why am I even questioning whether I ever loved him in the first place? I’ve been stuck in this for so long that I’m starting to believe it’s the truth. What if I feel this way because I just don’t want to accept that I don’t like him? What if I led him on this entire time? When I talk to him, I feel nothing. I’m not interested in anything. I can’t have conversations with him, I can’t kiss him, I just feel numb and fake. I feel horrible. What is happening to me? How did I get here? Why don’t I feel okay? I don’t understand what I feel. I feel like I’m lying to myself, like I’m stuck in this terrifying loop. I also feel like I don’t even care that I’m hurting him. I know he’s upset, and I know this is affecting him too, but I feel nothing about it. I don’t know why. It’s like something is blocking me from feeling anything. I know I should care. I know I love him. So why do I feel like I don’t? I feel so lost. I feel like I’ve changed. I don’t recognize myself anymore. What if this is real? I just want to feel normal again. i dont understand what is happening. i fear i didn’t love him ever because these thoughts started in the 4th month of us being together. in two months we make 2 years. am i leading him on? im a horrible person. i dont understand .
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
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