Most of the time my thoughts don't come as a "what if". It comes as a fact a lot of the time. Like for example "I want so do so and so". Does anyone else get them in this way?
And sometimes it feels like I'm saying it on purpose in my head. I'm trying to remind myself that its just ocd but it's still scaring me so much.
@Sarahhhhh I get these thoughts for my HOCD and POCD!!!! Your not alone at all… *hug* I’m practically going through the worst of my HOCD… My HOCD is giving me intrusive thoughts of people “realizing I’m gay” and intrusive thoughts of me being in denial “because I’m scared of people’s reactions” when I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual because it isn’t my identity… it’s not who I am… and I don’t want my identity (straight) to change
@Givenup Mine are to do with pocd and harm a lot of the time!🥺 Thank you for sharing that with me! I see a lot of your posts and I truly feel for you. Ocd can feel extremely real and it can get very exhausting. I'm so sorry about what you're going through. I'm constantly worried because I don't want my beliefs to change. Ocd has made me feel like a completely different person! It literally tries to convince me that I'm the opposite of myself in every way!😓 I wish you all the best! We're in this together!
This happens to me then I feel like I’m thinking the thoughts or sometimes when I think “what if” i end up thinking about the image as me doing the thought and it’s scary
@iccy_ella YES.
Yep! I hate hate hate that most of the information says “what if”… in terms of POCD and this is not the case at all. It’s so hard! Your thoughts may actually be very very similar to what these people will have and thats very hard. My thoughts started as “what if” but my brain went meh not me and now they’ve grown and got a LOT worse. Just remember you’re not alone 💛 it’s so so so hard. Thoughts can show up at urges, commands, images, movie scenes, genuine “this is you”. It’s horrible I know :(
@jojoland I have TOCD and my brain does mainly “You want that” Or even “I am” despite you not being aligned with it, it tries to speak for you.
@bryn2004 I also find it insane how it like clouds your judgment. Like I had a thought that I know isn’t real but it feels real and its so so so weird because it’s like in control of your emotions and reality!!! I HATE IT. I hate constantly questioning who you are, and what you believe in kind of thing. Horrible :(
@bryn2004 I find that these thoughts show your brain strength as well, like the fact the “normal” what if thoughts don’t work with us! It’s super scary but it’s so important to view it in that kind of positive way to help self compassion :)
@jojoland Yeah, it keeps wanting me to grow facial hair like a man which is something i’m against (I have peach fuzz too so this doesn’t help 🙃)
Same, I once read that ocd thoughts come in as “what if”and I panicked because mine have come as commands. Well, there is actually a short video made by nocd that explains that ocd can come in as statements and commands that feel like facts. I also asked an ocd specialist and they told me the same
Same you’re not alone
Yes!! Knowing I am not alone has given me such hope. Hope you all feel a little better since being here. I feel with us hear to let each other know this happens, we now have room to have more self compassion and feel normal. We can keep our mantra of “Nope that is just OCD, now what was I going to do again …”
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Usually my thoughts go from statements, which I fight all the time, to doubts like “do I” or “i don’t know” but I don’t fight this. I’m not sure if this is progress or it’s the truth. Anyone else feel like this?
Anyone else have repeated thoughts that play that are negative. Basically a back and forth of you telling yourself you don't want X to happen but having a thought that slips saying you do. Like being stressed out one day and saying "man I wish I were dead". But instead of letting it roll through your mind and thinking nothing of it, you obsess if you actually want that outcome for yourself and you are now scared you'd fatally harm yourself whenever you feel anxious or stressed even though you know you wouldn't. So now I repeatedly get I wanna die stuck in my head and I feel the compulsive need to say no I don't to combat the thoughts and it happens throughout the day and even when I wake up.
I see people post about how they feel like their thoughts are real. For me personally I deal with sexual intrusive thoughts and they feel real to me because it feels like I enjoy them. And when I say “it feels like I like them” that’s the same for me as saying “I like them” but some people say that’s different. Idk just curious as to what you guys feel!
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