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Hi,Angela. I can only support your plan to adopt a cat. If you can, it's even better to adopt 2, so they have company. You will get a companion/s who will love you just the way you are, who will adopt you, make you a part of their kingdom, they will make you laugh, comfort you when you are sad,... And they will forgive you everything and anything. If you care for them, feed them, play with them, you will have more love than you can imagine. Last week I came home after 12 hours away. I brought them food. Their favorite kind. None of the 3 ate. All three kidnapped me, cuddled, walked all over me. Only after around half an hour of our quality time together, they went and ate the catfood. A person who says cats are just nice to people because they want food either never had cats or had them but didn't interact with them much. Angela, I see you are new to OCD and you are 15. Crap. Pardon my French. I was around 12 when it all started. Have you ever watched the movie The 3 faces of EVE? (from 1957, I think).. It tells the story of a woman suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD).There is Eve White, her second personality Eve Black, and another one, Jane). I know it's not the same as MPD, but I kind of see my ocd and me like that : I at the moment am Eve White, timid, scared, self conscious, insecure, suseptible. My OCD is Eve Black. Kind of like a different person living inside of me. It has a mind of its own. It is bossy, narcissistic, a drama queen, wants to be active all the time, it's pushy, annoying and not very bright. It is a bully. And then there is Jane. A stable, collected person, the only one that remains in the end of the film. And I think that after I somehow manage to defeat the Ocd, both My present self and ocd will be gone and I will become stronger, calmer, happier, like Jane. After years of living with your faithful but annoying companion, the Ocd, one sort of learns to separate it from your true self, from your identity. It is there. It is within you, but it like has a mind of its own and is not you. It's an annoying tenant within you. Do you have support from your family and friends? Does it affect your school work and social life? My 3 cats are sending you hugs. I hope you are enjoying a calm and an intrusive thought free day. I know it's an old movie, but it's worth watching. Joanne Woodward did win an Oscar for it. I can just congratulate you that you are taking meds. The side effects may be tough for some people, but the relief they bring after about 3 months of taking them makes it worth while. Thoughts calm down. You worry less. It becomes more bearable. What meds are you on? For how long? Have you noticed improvement? Any side effects?

Angela, what kind of numbness? I feel numb since I've been on meds. I don't obsess so much anymore, but I hate feeling numb. I think I am starting to develop depression. Sometimes numbness can occur because of the exhaustion due to compulsions and you just can't fight anymore. I wish I knew what to do about it. Nice cat, by the way. Is it your cat? I have 3. 🐱

I am sending you my support from Europe. 🤗👍