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Fired from Job Because of OCD
Has anyone been fired from a job because of OCD? Were you able to get another job?
Has anyone been fired from a job because of OCD? Were you able to get another job?
That’s exactly how I feel and it’s exhausting. It consumes you in a way you can’t define. Again, I am sorry you are going through this, I feel you. Maybe best to have an open discussion with the HR on the two previous instances.
Thank you! Thank you very much!!!! So true! The less work I did, the more exhausted I was, because I didn't spend the extra time relaxing but doing compulsions. It does consume you to the point you feel like you've lost yourself and the whole of you just turned into the Ocd. And yet you're still trying to hide it from everyone else and hope they don't notice. They do, eventually. They notice you've changed. They just don't realize it's ocd underneath it all. Nobody says anything. But they sure are confused about you. I've seen the abbreviation HR above. Could you pls tell me who or what is HR? My OCD is now better to some extent since I've been on medication, serotonin. Since October 22. But the side effects are so strong that I just can't function the way I am supposed to and expected to in everyday life, and that's the reason I can't figure out how I'm going to be able to work if I get a job. I need money, but at the same time I am praying noone hires me until I somehow get my life back together. Imagine being in a relationship with someone like me?!
By the way, I am so sorry you know what I am talking about. I am so sorry you feel like that too. But at the same time, it makes the world of difference to know there is someone else out there who knows how you feel. Before finding the NOCD's community I thought nobody would ever understand. Thanks for replying.
I'd love to know this bc I'm struggling at the moment wi t h the number of sick days i've taken. I'm trying to find a physiatrist to help with my reasonable accommodation paperwork but it's hard.
Why did you get fired?
@Winchester2004 I was recently diagnosed with staring OCD...I've been written up twice due to that.
@Starxgurl06 I have staring ocd too. But what exactly happened? Did they feel like you were giving people weird looks?
@Winchester2004 I looked at patients inappropriately...it's ruining everything in my life.
Written up for what reason if you don't mind me asking
I did not get fired, but I lost a lot of clients bc of ocd. I needed the money, but I couldn't take it from them because they were somehow triggering my ocd. I just looked for excuses for not wanting to be in business relationship with them anymore. I didn't tell them the truth, I just gave stupid excuses. (like not having enough time,...). I would break up a whole group of clients because I was scared of one of them. So not only loosing one client's payment for the course they wanted to attend, I lost the payment from 6-9 other members in the group. I had to close my company eventually. I wasn't able to function. I would spend more time on compulsions than on the actual work. I was so tired all the time. Now I am looking for a new job, but honestly I am not sure if I am capable of doing any.
OCD doesn't take a break just because you have work to do. What are some ways that OCD has popped up for you at your work?
Often times I find myself spiraling out in the morning about all sorts of things. When I try and catch myself and figure out what I am obsessing over it’s like it goes away. I haven’t moved. I have been sitting frozen on the floor because I can’t go to work because I am behind on work and I hate being late and I hate being messy but I am frequently late and my room is cluttered and full of stuff. I want to be good and move and go to work but I don’t know what is coming today and I hate my job so I know I will get bored and when I have nothing to keep me busy and engaged I like start thinking and taking an inventory of what is going on and then I will feel a sensation and what is the sensation? How did it happen? And I know that I will pick up the bad emotions in the office and get contaminated, I was really worried about things like this as a kid too I cried because I had to touch dirt in kindergarten. I know I am this way and I have been this way for a while but at the same time I think I might just be normal and like I don’t know why I get stuck in thinking like this. Then I begin to doubt that OCD is real because everyone has a brain with wiring and everyone gets stuck in thought sometimes. I feel disabled from whatever this is because I am stuck. I literally cannot move because I don’t know what’s wrong and I know I have to go to work even though I feel like every moment I spend there is making everything worse because other people are so stressed and I get it from them. And I don’t feel ready because I just feel off and something is wrong and I just don’t know what to do because if it’s OCD or not OCD everything anyone knows about me is coming from me and I worry that I am often masking all the thinking I’m doing because thinking all the time is rude and inconsiderate and inconvenient for those around me, but I can’t stop. I just don’t feel right, right now - and I want to know WHY?? Why is everything off all the time? How do I even know that I am not making up the experience of OCD in my head to cover up something really wrong with me and now I am taking on the symptoms of OCD like an actress, because this could be something that I can latch onto as a final hope for explaining why I am stuck. So stuck so deeply and terribly stuck sitting on my floor next to my bed just scrolling to avoid thinking because any time I start thinking I am left with no answers or help or anything just this swirly feeling. I know I am trying, maybe not my best, but as much as I possibly can. I want to be a Special Education Teacher but I have so much so so so much doubt and uncertainty about every decision I make and everything I know that I can’t get there right now. I can’t do anything right now until it feels ok and then I will. It never feels ok. I know I have to be ok not feeling ok about it. I can be unsure and still be ok. I know it’s just my thinking and my body but I just can’t get past this feeling. And then I know that because I can calm myself and be ok even though I spent 2 hours of my life today already feeling stuck and spinning around and around and around in my head - I don’t feel sure about my OCD and I think it’s a bit of a scam made up by people to cultivate pathology around deep human thought because one day I might figure it out and we all think a lot.
I posted the other day about my subtype of staring ocd but I’m supposed to start a new job next week. I work in wellness/beauty and will be seeing people half naked. It doesn’t trigger me as I’m treating clients but only when I’m not supposed to be looking (like normal interactions). It happens when people wear very revealing clothes or are super curvy and my eye goes to that area. It also happens when people are adjusting themselves and my eye goes to their hands. It’s very embarrassing and I quit my last job because of this and I don’t want to make more people feel uncomfortable. It left me very depressed and hopeless. It’s such a frustrating type of ocd to deal with because it impacts me financially and socially. I just want to feel okay. Anyways, I’m writing this because I’m wondering if I should share with my new employer about this issue so I don’t weird anyone out or keep it to myself? I’m not sure what to do. I need money as I have a mortgage and two kids and would like to help my husband. I’m currently on Zoloft 50mg, have done therapy but this is such a hard type to treat as it’s not the cleaning type. I know I’m not supposed to ask for advice about what to do but I need to know so I can make a decision and not get cold feet.
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