Contamination - toilets

I have severe ocd around toilets, I just went downstairs expecting a clean toilet only to find one of my family members left poo in it. I had to clean it because I needed to use it, I used a lot of antibacterial cleaner and used tissue to wipe the seat. I feel HEAVILY contaminated but there’s nothing I can do, I already washed my hands with soap and very hot water repeatedly. I’m so upset. Stuff like this absolutely ruins my day. I like to feel clean. I can never feel clean when things like this happen. How can I deal with this. It’s the middle of the night otherwise I would have made who ever made a mess to go clean it, but bc it’s late I had to do it myself. Help me I feel like I won’t be able to sleep.

Cats in the ...

Date posted: 2y

Im the same way as well especially with public toilets. Before going to work i always had to go to the bathroom at home and then i would ruminate about if i need to use it again. I was always late. I have a huge phobia with public toilets, only use them if absolutely necessary and get panic attacks where i cant breathe. I tried to use them more frequently and i ended up feeling less anxious. I take 1h+ showers where i follow a very detailed and specific ritual and i still dont feel clean. Ocd will NEVER be satisfied. It always wants more. No matter what you do or how many times you wash your hands it will never be enough. Its hard but you have to sit with the thoughts and the feelings. Accept the fact that you might be dirty and covered in bacteria. Practice erp. Find an ocd specialist. Its the only way to get better. In the mean time, do something that usually soothes you and try to get some sleep. If you cant sleep, get out of bed and make some tea, not green tea because it will keep you up. I know you can do this

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

At one point I was unable to use any restrooms outside my house. I restricted food and water to avoid having to use restrooms when I went somewhere. I showered after bowel movements. I also avoid any foods that bothered my stomach. I just wanted the hell to end. I ended up in the hospital with severe malnutrition. But by hitting bottom I was willing to do much more intensive erp. In residential treatment I was able to use public restrooms again. After PHP and IOP I was using public restrooms and had shorter restroom times and had regained joy and hope. The pandemic set me back on this core issue but I am able to pee in public restrooms without panic - unless they are really icky. I am using erp to work down my really long and exhausting bm routine again. So erp therapy can help you with this issue - it’s really hard but worth it.

oneday.x

Date posted: 20w

Really need help, can't move on from contamination

This is a long one lol but basically, a couple of weeks ago I went to the toilet (#2, sorry for the tmi). Let's just say it was messy. I remember that a speck of.. #2.. Fell off the piece of toilet paper. This was probably the worst thing that could ever happen. I can't remember clearly but I'm pretty sure my jeans were on the floor underneath near where the speck could have fallen. There was also a towel. I don't know exactly where it fell as it was so small, but I made sure both the towel and the jeans went in the laundry basket and I cleaned the floor near there. Fast forward to like the next day. My mum does most of the laundry, so she will have picked up all the towels and clothes from the laundry basket and taken them to the wash. The problem is the speck. I don't know where it went but if it was on the towel and she picked it up.... Thus, contaminated mum. And she also puts clothes away that are dry. I remember that day she put my hoodie in my wardrobe, and I haven't worn it since because I feel it is contaminated. I haven't worn the clothes that have touched the hoodie. This leaves me with not a lot of clothes. And today I finally snapped and picked up a sweatshirt that had maybe touched the hoodie. And now I'm just sat here spiralling, wearing it. What if it touched the speck? What if the speck touched my mum and then touched the hoodie which then touched the sweatshirt I'm wearing? Please I'm so scared.

Contamination OCD

flowerpetals

Date posted: 18w

spiraling over anxiety

contamination ocd has really been messing with me the last couple of days. usually i only struggle when i can connect something to possibly throwing up, but this time it doesn’t matter. so earlier, i took a shower and i also use a wash cloth to wash my body. after i showered i cleaned up my dirty clothes and towels. then when i came back to grab my phone, there was a soap speck on my phone so without thinking i just wiped it on the back of my crewneck i was wearing. well that then spiraled into me thinking what if the soap was from my dirty wash cloth. i know most of you are probably thinking it’s clean since you use soap to clean ur body. well i clean every inch of my body, including my bottom so that’s where my anxiety is gravitating towards. this sounds so ridiculous saying it out loud, but i just have so much anxiety over it. i tried my hardest not to change but i did. at first i just changed my crewneck, but then i had to change my shorts cause my crewneck touches my shorts. but then i changed my shorts. and now i feel like my shirt is contaminated cause i was wearing it with my other shorts before changing. moral of the story, i just have so much anxiety over it and i feel like i shouldn’t because it’s really not a big deal. and i don’t want to change again because that seems ridiculous to me. plus now i’m connecting the contamination to my bed since i was laying on my bed before i changed. i hate life, this sucks.

Contamination OCD

GuiltyGrapes

Date posted: 15w

I feel so filthy

So Im staying at my uncles house until Saturday or Sunday and I feel like I’m filthy and making his house infected and idk what to do so when I first got here his house had grass I walked through to get to the door so I made sure to wipe my feet at the door and leave my shoes close to the door but I still feel,like I’m infecting his house he gave me and my little brother a room to sleep in and the first think I think of is how I need to wash the sheets when I leave. The first day was hard because I couldn’t shower and I felt so dirty because we had to go on a walk and I was sweating and we also had to water the grass outside and I had the same socks on as I did yesterday and I just felt like they were filthy and I was walking with those socks around the house so now his carpet is filthy and the bed I was laying in is now filthy. And I couldn’t shower because I didn’t have any cleaning supplies to clean it after I was done because I didn’t want to wash in their shower and now clean it afterwards. But I got someone at the store and took a shower and changed clothes and I felt weird about where to put my dirty clothes I hung them on the shower curtain rod but I feel like I just infected the rod. And afterwards I tried to spray off the shower with some Clorox foam cleaner but I feel like I didn’t clean it good and even feel bad about cleaning it because I was afraid the chemicals I tried rinsing off the shower and the bottles I was using in the shower but still feel like it’s infected. And don’t get me started on how I feel about the bags I’m keeping my clean clothes in and also the other bag I’m keeping my dirty clothes the bags are laying on the floor and I feel like my clean clothes are getting dirty from the floor and my dirty clothes are dirtying the floor and the towel I was using I used to dry the bathroom floor and asked where to put my towel he said on the dryer but there was stuff on it so I put it on a box above the dryer but I feel like I just infected everything and also Ik he touched the towel WHST if he gets THISE germs on his kids . Also the covers me and my little brother were using fell on the ground and his kids were playing in them and stuff like that but my little brother said it was fine and still used them but idk and his cover he brought touched my dirty clothes and the floor and he still used them and I just feel kinda ill about that. And today me feeling filthy just multiplied because I can’t SHOWER again today because someone’s toys are in the shower and idk how to get clean becuase we leave soon and idk what to do do I just change clothes? Idk about wipes because I can’t just ask for baby wipes and now I’m walking around with no socks because I only brought one pair and my others ones were put in my dirty clothes bag and now I have to go places no socks just in my flip flops. And last night I went to the restroom because I didn’t want to have an accident in the night because I’m always anxious about that stuff and I went but I feel like I just infected their toilet and I washed my hands after but I went back into bed but my feet touched the bathroom floor so now the bed is hay I feel actually infected and since I’m laying in it I’m infected too. Idk why I woke up so depressed and feel so filthy and guilty idk if it was the pose I was sleeping in or if I think I had an accident idk but we a lot of places to go today and idk what to do I was going to get Lysol at the store today to spray stuff but I don’t think I can get everything and I feel so sick he has kids what if I give them bad germs I can’t live with that

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