- Date posted
- 2y
Making light of my intrusive thoughts
Is it bad that I make light of my intrusive thoughts and somewhat joke about them? I posted on my close friends story, which only has about 10 people on it, and I talked about how I fear that I might become a serial killer, in a somewhat jokingly way. Like it was a cute personality quirk. I went on to kind of explain that i see why serial killers are the way they are and make some comparisons with my own mental health issues, kinda stating that i can see how these people’s actions are a result of how sick they are. I clarified that it’s extreme, and not at all the same mental health issue as me, but I’m not sure that came across. I just was pointing out that i could understand. I had a friend actually feel frustrated by the way that I expressed it. She doesn’t have ocd, but she was offended that I was comparing my mental health issues with the mental health of a serial killer. I’m now spiraling because I think I have such a piece missing that I can’t think before I post things like this. I was mainly trying to point out how strange and irrational my thoughts were. But I truly don’t feel normal. And now I feel like I’ve been insensitive to the whole ocd community or anyone who struggles with mental health. I worry that I’ve implied that people with mental health issues do bad things. That wasn’t my intention. But I’m genuinely worried about my attitude towards intrusive thoughts. Like I feel like I’m not taking this issue seriously. And I worry that I do that in a lot of areas in my life. Like I say random things without thinking of the implications. WHY AM I THIS WAY