Confused

So would you guys say this is OCD? Or just anxiety? I eat 160-200 grams or protein a day and try to get 1800-2200 calories. I can no longer use whey protein. That was around 100 grams of protein for me. So I wrote out a new meal plan. I think it’s pretty sound. But I’m so obsessive that I won’t be able to follow it. Even though the way I timed everything today it’s possible I will eat the plan. I will over the rest of the day be able to get my calories and protein in. But for the life of me I can’t stop thinking I’m going to fail and not be able to do it.

vkenner

Date posted: 2y

Do you try to remind yourself that the negative talk is your anxiety and that you are in control? Telling myself those things helps sometimes and then I go in a more positive direction. Sometimes have to do it all throughout the day

Zachr816

Date posted: 2y

@vkenner I don’t have the right therapist to help me and they said they can’t help me here. But I told them a lot about my other issues that we’re obsessive and more about sexual activity and they said they can’t help. But now I have more stuff coming up that’s not sexual so idk… and I don’t have the money right now. And Idk if my issues are really OCD or not. I never been really diagnosed. But my psychiatrist recommended this a couple years ago and my therapist says that obsessive compulsive tendencies but I don’t really fit the criteria for OCD so I don’t know.

Zachr816

Date posted: 2y

I also keep obsessing I’ll be to full and I feel I drink my shake to curb this “anxiety” that I can’t get enough protein or I’ll be too full

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

To me it sounds like an ocd based food disorder. I say this because I tracked my food on a spreadsheet that has columns for protein, certain vitamins, etc. it was not a good thing. Now with eating disorder and erp treatment I eat what my body wants and just ask myself did I eat enough protein today - as in some at lunch and some at dinner. An erp therapist who deals with eating disorders or ARFID would be the best therapist to see. It would be worth taking an online ocd assessment even if you can’t afford a therapist. If you do have ocd, which it does sound like to me, there are free online resources that can help.

Zachr816

Date posted: 2y

@Erin P I’m glad you think I have OCD they wouldn’t see me on here. But I I was talking a lot about my sexual issues. I never told them about this stuff. My therapist doesn’t think I have typical OCD he thinks I have obsessions. Also I have a lot of physical issues and I keep wanting to try “a healing diet for that” but my mom just wants me to have a we’ll balanced diet. Maybe I should start with that. Maybe she’s right agin. My mom is usually right on most things for my health. But I’ll look into what you recommend. Thanks

Zachr816

Date posted: 2y

@Zachr816 I definitely don’t have ARFID. I love food all foods. Mines more for healing my medical issues of eating for my weight lifting and getting my protein in

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

@Zachr816 There are eating disorders about eating the right foods or only healthy foods but if you eat a good variety then it’s more about the method of trying so hard to do it perfectly than about the food itself.

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

@Zachr816 It might be useful to find an online ocd assessment that covers various subtypes to see if you do have ocd. Not every therapist even those who do erp can recognize all types of ocd.

Zachr816

Date posted: 2y

@Erin P Would getting a nutritionist help? I’m like sort of afraid of nutritionists. My best friend is body builder and puts these ideas in my head on how I need to eat but I don’t think it’s healthy for me to focus so much on my macros, weighing my food, counting calories, ect I get so obsessed. I’m definitely not getting help for my anxiety/ocd. And like I said I went here they recommended me go see someone one more sex addiction. But that’s stable now and my obsession issues are driving me crazy. Also idk if I can afford therapy here since my insurance doesn’t cover it. There’s a hospital called MGH near me but they do CBT not ERP

Erin P

Date posted: 2y

@Zachr816 A good nutritionist will help you figure out what to do without overdoing it. It sounds like ocd help is what you currently need. Different erp therapists and programs take different insurance. Mgh looks like it does do erp which is a type of cbt if you go to the more info page.

its_izzy

Date posted: 24w

I think i need help…..

Idk whats going on…my mental state hasnt been great these past two weeks. My eating is being affected in a neg way due to transition between therapists, school, and ignoring my sexuality….Ive been taking several different kinds of quizzes over the past week regarding mental health and ED and i realized that if i dont eat enough to feel full i’ll end up sick or worse dead. It doesn’t help that i also just started my period. And i just woke up in the middle of the night with food, hydration, and possibly not waking up in mind. And tried going back to sleep but then i realized that I might actually have a problem on my hands and that jolted me awake. Now im scared of sleeping and not making it through the night….i could easily get up and make myself an oatmeal even though im not hungry atm, but dont wanna wake family that are sleeping in the living room. Im scared of dropping more weight than I already have been and having my nutritionist intervene…. Im realizing that im fucking myself up from not eating well and being too picky and i wanna slap a bandaid on it and just eat everything to hopefully gain some weight before my next nutrition appt. I’m just scared of things getting worse….is this part of OCD or is it just me just plain out ignoring my body cos in feeling like it??? Idk what to believe about myself anymore….

Holl1

Date posted: 15w

How do I know it’s ocd

I’ve had this feeling all day that I’m just gonna lose control because I’m not checking how I feel. I had this thought like oh well you wouldn’t be brushing your teeth or eating if you was gonna act on it and then I felt relief for a bit and now I’ve started getting thoughts like what’s the point in cleaning or eating if you’re gonna act on it & now I feel confused?? What’s going on

Harm OCD

hannamartin

Date posted: 11w

Is this OCD?? Perfectionism?

Lately I have been engaging is a very vicious mental cycle of not being as productive as I wanted to at work, worrying my boss with notice and get mad at me or fire me, and then feeling like I have to “figure out” how to “fix myself” and be more productive. I come up with detailed elaborate plans and lists for everything I need to do and fix to be a good person. I have a lot of negative thoughts that are very distressing to me and basically I am a horrible person if I don’t “fix myself” via making these plans. For me, oddly, it’s not about doing the things, it’s about making the list. I do research on how to be more productive and have this need to make the perfect plan that will solve my problems. And then once I make the list I feel better (temporarily, of course). All of the mental energy put into the researching and planning is so draining that it begins to negatively impact my work… and the cycle continues!!! I feel like this is not a “normal” obsession or intrusive thought that people with OCD have, so I guess I am trying to figure out if it could be OCD? This is a very consistent thing I have been experiencing since probably around 8th grade?? So 5+ years now. It’s always the never feeling like I’m good enough and then the compulsory planning until I felt like I had a good enough plan to fix myself. Thanks in advance!! Disclaimer: I have not been diagnosed with OCD but I suspect I have OCD/Pure O or OCPD and many people in my life agree. Obviously this is not my only reason for thinking I have OCD lol

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