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This thing and that Feeling that OCD brings (or my own feeling i don't know) is More Terrible than Intrusive Thoughts As i can thoughts are just thoughts, they don't mean anything and move on but Moving on when i don't know what i actually meant or what i actually felt is so damn hard

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 ***As i can say

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Dude I am going thru the EXACT same thing. It’s the sinking feeling where you question everything and the world seems to stand still And then I always think- why did I feel that way?

@Phoe.nix I have exam Tomorrow and now I'm thinking about what did i actually mean about something i said I have a feeling i meant something bad and my brain is telling me i actually meant bad. I keep explaining things to myself you know even when sometimes i know what i actually meant/thought/felt But it's worse when i actually don't know what i actually meant/thought/felt And a lot of times i feel something and i don't know if i actually felt like that about something or not I mean you know it's like false memory but it's a false feeling Cause I sometimes feel irritated on things/People when there's nothing to feel irritated and then i keep questioning myself why did i feel like that? What does that mean? And if there's intrusive thoughts with feelings then that's a complete recipe of a Disaster, cause my brain then assures me that i actually think like that/ have mindset like that cause i even felt that Thing... This Disorder is a torture 😭 tho every disorder is in some way. But OCD is super evily and it manipulates in such a way...i get super confused am i really like that or is ocd playing

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Same same same same. Ocd is doing everything to convince me that I’m a horrible person and that I’m the only person in this world I could hate. That I don’t deserve happiness. I’m realizing though, this is a very common experience for ppl with ocd. So it is possible our brains have been tricking us from the beginning? ERP is helping me so far. Are you able to get services?

@Phoe.nix OCD makes me feel like a Bad person also (i don't know if I'm actually or not 😂) and the worse thing is i have a feeling or something that i MUST have to be a good human being due to ocd or not i don't know upon that ocd says I'm bad I hate only me tho in this world for real lol not cause of OCD cause of my deeds and failures Yeah this is very common, i have seen ppl saying things like these here too but i still feel like there's still a chance i could actually be like that. Brain is A Super Complex thing, i think world's most complex thing. I don't know to what extent my brain will take me as i have other problems too And no i don't have access to a Professional yet as I'm a Teenager and i have no job so no penny of my own 😂 and My Parents don't know anything about my Illnesses and i ain't telling them cause simply they won't understand and will create a further Ruckus for me I'm having my School's Final exams when i go to Uni i will be able to manage that on my own, so till then i have to manage my Brain on my own. I wish this disorder never came, Well i Wish the best for you👍 May your situation improves For me it is better than before & ocd ain't my best problem now. It still comes & creates a 🌪️ in mind But i can handle it better than before

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Yes exactly, I have moral ocd as well and one of my compulsions is self punishment. I’m really sorry you’re not able to afford services at this time, I rly hope you can soon. And maybe your parents could understand more than you think! But if they don’t, pls know you always have this community and you’re never alone. Maybe it would help to speak to a school counselor about this. That’s exactly what they’re there for. Even a teacher! I’m sure they’re there to support you and help you. ❤️you’ve got this friend

@Phoe.nix Thank You 💙 No They Won't Understand lol. There's not much awareness about Mental illnesses in my Country. And yeah I'm surviving because of this Community. I don't know what would have happened if i didn't find NOCD. So I'm grateful for this Community.

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 I see. I’m really sorry you’re going through that and I’m also glad you have this community. There are also some communities on Reddit and discord I’m sure. I’m rly sorry for the lack of support there. I hope you can reach out to friends or teachers. Please no matter what remember that you are not a bad person, bad people don’t worry about being bad. And I don’t believe there is actually such thing as a bad person just bad situations but that’s another story. You’re so strong and capable and you will get through this. Every day is a chance to start over and rebuild. It’s impossible for any feeling or emotion or fear to last forever so you will not always feel this way. ❤️

@Phoe.nix Thank You So Much for your Words. Even without ocd i don't know about me being good or not I may even be a bad person 😂 i mean without OCD involving Cause i don't think i have done much good deeds in my life.. Bad is more lol Anyways I Wish All The Best for Your Future 👍

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 The fact that you are able to be aware of your past mistakes is a good thing. ‘Bad’ people don’t care about their past mistakes. Being able to take a look at yourself and take accountability is a very good sign, and a chance to do better in the future. However, it rly probably is your ocd honing in on these things and not seeing the whole big picture.

@Phoe.nix I don't know lol 😂 And i can't take my accountability, I'm very irresponsible 😂

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 You’re probably being judgmental towards yourself hun❤️wishing you all the best. Please never never give up, you will get through this. You’re stronger than you know❤️

@Phoe.nix I'm really irresponsible😂 Thanks💙, i wish you All The Best too 👍

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Thank you friend, we’re all in this together❤️