Sorry I’ve been asking non stop questions this week. Sometimes I can’t explain it just something in my body will tell me this is all real and I can’t really tell you what I mean because even I don’t know. I sometimes won’t even have an intrusive thought sometimes I can just wake up and feel as if this has all been true. Can someone help me with this or give some advice because this is the part of it all that kills me
Feelings can be intrusive too. I’m struggling with this rn, my therapist said to me ‘maybe my feelings mean something, maybe they don’t’
@Ellsx Its so hard to explain though. I woke up this morning and I had just a weird feeling that this is all true and since then all morning been a nightmare. I hope you know what I mean
When things are overwhelming like that for me, I go into what I call ‘army mode’ I write lists of activities that help Me to do in the day, then tick them off till bedtime. These all revolve around getting into the present moment. So it’ll look like this….. 1. Ice cold shower (I put ice cubes in a camping shower and fill with water) 2. Wim Hof breathing 3. Long walk in wood vaping cbd. And doing 54321 meditation 4. Ice shower 5. Gentle yoga 6. Cook whilst mentally narrating what I’m doing to stay present Etc etc Not saying you should do any of these, just to say what I do. The key is to find a way to be in the present, and sometimes to do this you gotta chip away at it to create openings, so that you can spend more time present, the more that is achieved then the weaker the ocd becomes
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@J.B95 Thanks for the reply mate. Yeah sometimes I can just feel low or abit Shit or just feel strange and go oh that must be because my obesssions are true which is completely irrational
Start taking SSRI if You havent yet
@Pascal from PL I did have them but I stopped them. Don’t agree with me I become numb to everything around me and have no emotion towards anything I hated it
@JoeG1146 And psychotherapy?? Or distraction techniques? There must be sth which will work for You
I would say stop trying to work it out. And what ever feelings/thoughts are present, accept. Then go about your day in line with what your values are
@Mowgli It’s difficult to distinguish my vales anymore. This consumes my whole life I spend 7-9 hours a day in a state of rumination and when I’m not ruminating I’m thinking why aren’t u ruminating do I not care enough to fix this? Must mean it’s true. It’s a death trap and I’m running out of energy
I have a bunch of real event/false memory and there is one that I remember I got in the middle of a horrible episode and I believed it was false but now I can’t remember why I thought it was false and now believe it could be real and it’s just bothering me so much because I want to remember the details to why I believed it was false in the first place and I’m just in a horrible spot and feel disgusting and am getting intrusive thoughts on my themes when I try to check if they are intrusive or not and I can’t function like i don’t wanna be around anyone because all I want to do is confess but I can’t because then I’ll obsess on confessing and they won’t understand.
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
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