I have Religious OCD and it's absolute torture. I'm always worried that I'm not saved or that I'm a terrible Christian, or that God is disappointed in me. I feel guilty almost constantly, and the only way to find relief is by seeking reassurance, either through Christian articles online, or through talking to my pastor. I'm sure my pastor is annoyed with me by now because every few weeks, I call and text him, urgently asking him for help. And now that I've discovered what ROCD/scrupulousity is, it's gotten much worse. At first, I was relieved to know that I'm not the only one who suffers from this, but then I started to realize that I compulsively seek reassurance. So now I feel guilty every time I pray or read Christian articles or talk to someone about my problems, because I'm terrified that I might be compulsively seeking reassurance. So now I've become obsessed over the fear of engaging in my compulsions! I don't know what to do. I just want to have a normal, functioning Christian life. I just want to stop living in constant fear and guilt. I would never kill myself, but sometimes I feel like life isn't worth living and I secretly hope I'll die in my sleep so that I won't have to live like this anymore. I just want to go to Heaven to be with my Jesus, where He will "wipe away every tear from [my] eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things [will] have passed away." I can't live like this anymore. Someone please help me.

My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.

I get the constant wave of sadness that ocd has taken my life from me. I can't share my thoughts and they don't feel like mine. I have episodes where I think God must hate me or see some secret sin in me that I don't see, or else I really really am missing when the holy spirit is saying to me. I want to be free so so deeply and have a normal, independent and fruitful life but God is not answering me. Why do I have these thoughts? Are they spiritual or just my mind? If anyone with Religious ocd can help or share how they navigate a true relationship with Christ while having ocd, I would really appreciate it. For context, I've had dozens of people pray over me and I've literally screamed like a child for God to give the answer, I had faith-based ocd even before i understood the gospel or personally knew Jesus. I want to live with eternity in mind and be free from these things so so much. Thank you!

Do you think God can help me with ocd-Religious themes thoughts... the problem is they feel so real, which is a diagnostic of ocd, and are robbing me of any peace and a true, full loving relationship with Christ. I feel anxious/depressed 24/7 and have such bad intrusive thoughts I'm almost permanently frozen in bed. I feel disabled and behind in life (I'm turning 22 in a few months, currently a student) I trust in Christ alone, but I really don't understand have I am expected to live like this. I don't know what God's will is or if these thoughts are spiritual/ocd. I'm trying to the lose my mind. I know He has enough grace, but I am desperate and my mind is so ill. I am so afraid of sinning against Him or leaving Him. I am so scared of my thoughts I cant share them, I am trying to get better, trying to live a normal life but I am sweating through my clothes, dizzy, foggy, crying screaming, etc. I dont know why God would allow this when all my soul wants is to love and obey Him, and to make my will His very own. Please please help. I know we have to pick up our cross, but I also know Christ said that He came to set the captives free, I have been tormented beyond recognition since age 13, I believe (to some extent) that ocd can be spiritually related, if you would entertain that thought, or perhaps not? I need answers from God. I can barely behave like a human or have any normal conversation my mind is running a marathon every day. My dreams are slipping away and I want to be independent, more than anything I want to do what pleases the heart of God and to live with eternity set in mind. This thing is trying to consume me. I feel like a dropping weight to my church even though they have done nothing but patiently support me. I hate being mentally tormented. Pray for me!