- Username
- cerulean
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I suffer from religious ocd as a catholic. I am almost always in a panic that I have sinned mortally. I am terrified of confession because I’m afraid I am doing it wrong , forgetting things, not mentioning things the right way, and I am so terrified of hell. My obsession is sin and my compulsions are reassurance, researching, confession, canceling bad thoughts out with good one or by saying certain prayers or phrases. It is torture. I feel like everything I do is a sin and I’m always aware. Recently my doctor prescribed Klonopin which I take alongside Zoloft and I have had some relief. But I still struggle everyday. You are not alone. God is with us in this. ❤️
I have the same OCD and had to be hospitalized twice thinking I was going to hell and trying to hurt myself for some relief. Do you guys want to start a Facebook group or get emails or something? I seriously thought I was alone.
I deal with the same sort of issues constantly. But you have to realize that you are in a better place than people that don’t know Jesus at all. He has a plan for you. You may be suffering now to help someone in the future going through this. He has plans for you and not for evil but for good. He will never give you more than you can handle. I know it’s so hard to believe sometimes and I’m going through the same at this very moment but our faith keeps us strong. NEVER GIVE UP. He will never give up on you.
I’m a Christian and my OCD also attaches to my faith. I doubted the existence of God and used to be overwhelmingly afraid that I had committed the unpardonable sin. I have come through both of these. There is always hope and I can’t stress that enough. Like josh1991 said, God has good plans for you. Remember that He can only have good plans for you because He is entirely good❤️❤️
@catlady @josh1991 Can I ask, what did you guys do when you had obsessive thoughts? I know I'm not supposed to seek reassurance, but what am I supposed to do instead?
Me too this all sucks.
Hello everyone, I struggle with religious OCD too as a Christian. I'm sure you guys have heard this before but exposure response prevention is very important for treating OCD. I have started this, it's challenging but we can make it if we just hold on. I have a therapist who specializes in ERP (very important to have a specialist in erp) and she also does video sessions,
I made a huge mistake in the past. Going into it I didn't know at the time how bad the mistake was until a long time later. I so badly wish I could go back and fix it and change it. I hate myself and I feel like I deserve to die. I talked to my parents about it and they told me that I need to just let it go and stop beating myself up and that I've punished myself enough but I can't seem to shake it off and move on. I'm a Christian so I do believe Jesus died on the cross for our sins but why do I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I would NEVER make the same mistake again knowing what I know now. Do I deserve a second chance? Is it possible that OCD can make it worse than it actually is? I need help 😭
I love my boyfriend so much. I am so afraid to get married though because of my OCD. A year ago I was fine and excited to eventually get married, but now it seems super nerve-wracking, and impossible, to me. I am a Christian and I have struggled with a lot of sexual sin in the past, before me and him started dating, but it eats me alive and I feel like if we do get married I have to confess all of it to him and that if I don’t I’m being dishonest and it’s horrifying. I know that nothing I ever struggled with was really that bad, I’m not going to get into that but he pretty much already knows the worst of it, but even when I have opened up to him I just feel like it’s not enough. My intrusive thoughts tell me that if I don’t tell him *everything* I’ve ever struggled with that I’m terrible, dishonest, a bad person, a hypocrite, a liar, that one day things will completely implode, that I’m destroying our relationship even though it’s completely healthy and he’s SO good to me, etc. I hate feeling this way. I want to marry this man, but it has become so terrifying to me. I feel like I absolutely do not deserve him and that I’m too awful and damaged for him. Me and him are long-distance and I’m even scared to meet him, to kiss him, etc. because I’m terrified of these fears coming up when I do. When I picture myself in 5-10 years being potentially married with kids, that thought in itself doesn’t give me anxiety, and in the grand scheme of things I can picture myself moving on from this anxiety, but at the same time in the present moment I feel like I’ll never move past this. I think this may be a form of ROCD and/or scrupulosity. I hate it I hate it I hate it. Does anybody else feel this way? Any other Christians who maybe relate?
I mainly struggle with real event and scrupulosity OCD. The things I've boiled it down to that I can't answer are these: - Not knowing what I deserve: this one comes from the infinite philosophies and methods of thinking people have, each different from one another. I know some people out there, even if not as much, will disaprove. Do I deserve to enjoy anything anymore? What pleasure do I still deserve out of life? What standards do I go by? The law? Atheists? Christians? Spiritualists? - Not knowing if I'm a "good person" - Is this guilt excessive or valid? - Is there any other amends I could make? - Did I know better? Was I disadvantaged and didn't really know better because of my age and/or mental illness/Asperger's? - Do I need to confess more? - What if someone brings up the event again later? What will happen? - What if my therapists so far were just extra nice? - What about that one person who said something really negative when you confessed that one time? My torment never ends. I don't want to die, because I have dreams, but I also don't want to live, because I have to deal with this every single day.
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