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Please know you’re not alone. If you need to vent to somebody, I’m here. I understand how hard it can be and I know OCD likes to make you feel like the worst person ever but please know that you’re not. So many other people have experienced the same thing as you, even though it may feel isolating, you’ve got this! I will give an example of some of my intrusive thoughts so trigger warning for topics of cheating, assault, and trauma When my OCD was at its worst, I was convinced I was the absolute worst person I could imagine. I swore that because I could barely remember one night in particular, that I must have assaulted one of my friends at a sleepover. The thought of it made me sick and I spent hours every single day ruminating on it. Then when I was not thinking about that particular thing, I was thinking about how every little intrusive thought or small thing would make me think “did I cheat on my boyfriend??” I’d see an inappropriate scene in a movie and then worry I had just cheated, or I’d see something inappropriate online by mistake and then become sick because I was worried I cheated. I was also worried that I somehow traumatized my little brother, constantly ruminating and checking by googling different things (which only made me feel worse). All this to say, I’m sharing this so you know you’re not alone. Whatever your intrusive thoughts may be about, remember that intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic. You are not your OCD, you are not your thoughts, and you are not your past. You are so much more. I hope that this helps in some way, and please know I’m here if you need a friend. You’re so strong, keep fighting🤍

I’m so sorry. It is humiliating to have strangers judge you for your most sensitive feelings and thoughts. They don’t understand ocd. They don’t know the real you. The good person you are. They only see ocd thoughts and take it way out of context. It sounds to me like you just wanted to be assured that you weren’t a horrible person or weird in some way. This is human especially with ocd! Don’t beat yourself up over needing comfort. They are the weird ones, not you. I pray comfort and healing over your heart and just know that you are now safe from their words, their comments. They hold no truth nor do they define anything about who you are. Again I am so so sorry that you went through being mocked and torn down. It’s a hard learning experience how to deal with ocd but there are safe people to process with and that is this community! We care for you and You didn’t know that the other forum wasn’t safe so it’s not your fault. 💕💕💕