Can someone give any advice?

So I got diagnosed with ocd a few days ago .. and I I’ve been experiencing experiencing false memory ocd this all started when this one night I got this really uncomfortable feeling in my throat it literally felt like a slight numbness my throat was really tight there was a bitter taste in my throat ( if that makes sense ) it just felt like something was there and once I got the feeling I got flash backs of all those “street drugs kill” banners I’ve been seeing all over my city which whenever I see those I get into a panic , anyway I got flash backs of all those scary drug banners and my mind literally told me I felt that sensation in my throat “because I took some dangerous pills and forgot and I’m gonna die” so I went straight into panic I was searching up “signs of overdose “ I was also convincing myself I had all the symptoms I was asking my sister & mom if they seen me take anything guys I was so scared all I was thinking abt was the possibility that I might have and if I did I was for sure gonna die .. after that I kept getting the sensation but I learned to tell myself that , that “feeling “ in my throat was just anxiety until it got worse now out of nowhere my mind tells me I’m taking things even when I don’t have that throat sensation I’m still getting these thoughts whenever I do I convince myself I’m overdosing and I’m pale .. every single time whenever I swallow my salvia ( this is disgusting) but whenever I swallow saliva and the swallow felt a bit “rough “ I get the thought like “what if that was a pill your gonna die” it’s so frightening I can’t even eat because I get thoughts like “if you eat or drink your helping pills that are in your throat go down your gonna die” I can’t even eat bro I’m so frustrated and what makes it worse is that I visualize myself taking pills and dying “ I literally sob I would never actually do anything like that in reality.. I keep getting thoughts that I’m taking dangerous pills out of nowhere EVEN WITHOUT THE THROAT SENSATION! Any advice 😞 ( I’m 14 ) btw

sofcharleswo...

Date posted: 2y

hey lovely, this sounds horrible. it’s important to remember that these thoughts are not real and that they are playing on your fears. your rational brain has a survival instinct so it absolutely would NOT take harmful substances subconsciously. trust yourself, even when it feels hard. hope you’re doing okay :)

Asiameikaa

Date posted: 2y

@sofcharlesworth Thank you , that really makes me feel better 🤍

Asiameikaa

Date posted: 2y

Forgot to add , these are not just thoughts telling me I did something there’s also physical sensations like what I’d imagine being on drugs would feel like that’s how I feel I start to feel weird when I get these thoughts I feel like I have to be NEAR someone at allll times or else I won’t be able to calm myself down when I get those “you took dangerous pills you just don’t remember “ thoughts cs I always ask someone that was around me if they seen me do it .. and even with the person telling me they didn’t see me doing it I still believe I did it :( it’s so scary feeling like your doing something that could seriously harm you if YOU ACTUALLY did it.

elro.elephant

Date posted: 24w

Can someone give me advice?

I’m not too sure where to begin so some stuff may be a bit scattered. I’d like to start with the fact that I’m not sure if I just have anxiety or if it is actually OCD. I’ve been dealing with these intrusive thoughts for as long as I can remember. TRIGGER WARNING NEXT PARAGRAPH Stuff like “what if my teacher just raped me in the middle of class” or “what if I pulled all my veins at.” Those are some of the more graphic and violent things but I do get lesser things like “what if I imagined that whole conversation” when I know for a fact I did experience that exact memory/conversation. I don’t like these thoughts and I don’t ever want to think them. If anyone has any advice it would be greatly appreciated. I’m only 16 and I want to be sure about this stuff before I ask my parents to get me diagnosed.

idkrandom12.6

Date posted: 22w

advice please?

I’m not sure if this will reach the right audience but i’m still in my teens not far off 18 and i have struggled with ocd since i was around 9. My dad had it quite badly so it’s passed down genetically. I get false memories and I have to replay the situation in my head to see which version sounds more accurate, I also have to keep moving certain objects to a certain position or something bad will happen or my relationship will fail. I’m in counselling but only seems to help my anxiety and not OCD. Do i go to my doctors? Can they give me medication if i’m under 18?

footballNY32

Date posted: 21w

POCD FALSE MEMORIES ADVICE?

Hello everyone I need some advice. I’ve struggled with what I think and hope is ocd for a long time. It started when I was 14 I had a concussion and my brain convinced myself for 9 months that I had this concussion. Then I had a gf at 15 before we were official I did a terrible thing im regretful of it for sure. I kissed another girl. I told my now ex girlfriend about it and I started to overthink the situation and think maybe I slept with the girl or maybe we did more than kiss. In reality we didn’t. when I turned 16 I started having thoughts of maybe I cheated on her with other girls at our school. It would be false memories of me sleeping or doing things with 4 or 5 other girls. That eventually went away as I would ask reassurance like a crazy person. Then one day what I believe was either Christmas time or new years around that time I had this thought “what if I SA’d my ex little sister?” This thought tormented me for so long I couldn’t believe it. As she was so young it would be impossible for me to do that without someone noticing plus that’s absolutely horrifying and disgusting and I’ve never ever ever ever been alone with her or desired to. Then what I knew would happen came along with me thinking I SA’d my little sister or my baby brother at the time. It was a horrible experience. Then it went to me thinking I was a pedo without the false memories. Then it went to my other siblings thinking I did something to them in their sleep, I did something to the pets, etc. As I got older I realized what ocd was and what I was going through and it eventually all went away. But as time goes on I’m now almost 24 I have spiraled back into thinking I SA my ex little sister. It’s crazy because I’ve never had that desire or anything at all it would absolutely break me if that was true. With something like this saying maybe not maybe it did is crazy because it’s a serious thing. I’m getting therapy on Monday and am just wanting my life back. I just recently got engaged to my beautiful fiancé and I want to be regular again. Anyone have any advice or even have gone through the same scenarios? It’s just so tough.

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