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Seeking reassurance isn’t going to help you in the long run, and you’ll have more stressful nights like this. I know you’re having a hard time right now and I genuinely empathize, (I have emetaphobia so I get the fear of throwing up BIG TIME!!), but try to be with the uncertainty and keep yourself busy with something that has you grounded in the present moment t and maybe even cheers you up.